Screwed Life

Stop

2006-11-10T07:26:00.000+08:00

i've decided.
i will stop blogging for some time.
i have to do this, somehow.

she feels that my entries are pathetic.
"pitiful entries which makes ppl sympathize u"

if wadeva i've typed here makes her feel lik she is the bad guy.
i'm sorry.
i've only re-blogged for prolly a month.
but it seemed lik this has gotten her a whole lot of trouble.

people who commented on the issues.
i dunno if u were bias towards me or u understood hw i feel.
but she doesnt like the comments received.

since this is most prolly my last entry.

hai..
i dunno hw to go on.

i feel so empty.

Honey,
i hope u feel better now.
now im no longer gonna type hw i feel.
nobody will have the chance to blame u anymore.
u wun have the chance to feel blamed by anybody anymore.

i hope this is wad u wan.
i hope in future u wun have to say
"u shld have told me hw u feel......"

again..

or wuld u?

*Sigh*.

Im nth but just a pain.

My dad talked to me yesterday nite.
he told me to believe in my family.
and i replied
"tell the truth, i've no faith in people anymore.
everybody told me that they will nvr leave.
everybody told me that they will stay by my side.
everybody told me about a better tmr and a better chance.
everybody told me that time is on our side.
everybody told me that the future for us to achieve together is wonderful.
but look at what happened.
look at what is happening right now.
u are saying the things she once told me.
wad makes it so sure that u wun leave me ?
i feel lik erasing myself.
if i have a choice, i dun wanna ever wake up.
i know that if i were to wake up the nxt morning,
i wun be happy as well.
i don't wan to plan wads beyond this hour.
wads the point of planning?
she and i planned a very nice future together as well.
she told me abt all the wonderful things we can do and have nxt time.
our house our dreams our kids.
i've also planned to propose to her.
to give her a pleasant surprise right after her exams.
but dad, u see anything close to that right now?
i wanted to give her things which not every gurlfren has.
havent u notice dad?
its pointless to plan ahead.
because u nvr know when a bombshell gonna hit.
and the fucking unfair thing is that wadeva which hit will be so strong
that it overpowers wadeva u've planned.
i'm sorry.
but i dun have faith in this family as well.
for now all of u can say that u all will stay by me.
i dunno abt the future.
she has once told me that she and i are a family too.
i thot family dun leave one another?
everything will just go one day.
i've no faith in wad u say."

*Sigh*

Till today,
for every question i ask her.
i still get a reply
" haiz... i don't know"

im only 18.
i've fallen for her since 14.
i've spent more den 20% of my life loving her.
i've spent more den 20% of my life trying to make her happy.

but it seemed lik she has been trying to tell me our efforts has been wasted.

needless to say,
i will get the blame.

i don't wanna waste anybody's time anymore.
erase me.
literally.

Bye.

I love Meli.

Set

2006-11-09T17:07:00.000+08:00

Alright. this is enough.

I don't know wads going on,
but all i know is that im subjected to all the negativity
and all the crap.

Lets start with the morning.

i woke up feeling bad.
i was wondering " fuck, why am i awake?"
last nite i sent an sms
"dear god, ihad a gd time with honey today.
the last 20 mins of reversi brought back so much fond memories.
but can i ask for something more?
allow me to hav her as soon as i wake up,
if nt at least put me to coma till we can get to live happily ever after.
thank u.
I love meli"

alrite, nvm i got over this pretty soon.
after awhile she sms-ed me.

i came online to blog.
julia tagged.
ting tagged.
i tagged.

went to sch to meet miss pat regarding our game concept.
im incharge of drawing the female main char.
halfway, emo again.
i was tinking " shit. i shld hav gone to her sch instead. wtf am i doin here?
she said i wuld be wasting my points if i go into her sch. but screw tt .
i bet there are many students there who scored better den 15.
at least if i were to enter tt sch, im pretty sure i wun lose her due to the
tough schdule and environment"

i skipped drawing.
pointless.
i won't have the mood anyway.
gesture drawing. forget it.

while coming home, i smsed her quite a few times.
telling her that i hav no sch today, i can pass her back her keys
which she has left with me.
she didnt reply.
from 0958, she didnt reply at all.
im pretty sure she did receive my msg and im pretty sure she could reply.
im more worried abt whether she get to open her own gate than she is.
*sigh*.

i reached home, feeling fucked up.
try to slp.
yea. "slept" from 130 to ard 430.
kept waking up to check if i missed out her calls/msg-es
nope. none.
no calls no msges from her.
lets nt talk abt me.
nt even regarding her keys.

woke up , went to have a hot bath.

Honey just called.
she scolded me for wadeva julia tagged.
> I < get the > SCOLDING < because > JULIA < tagged.

i tried to explain to her that i have no control regarding wad the taggers in my tagboard says.
julia's tags were targetting towards huiting.

alrite.
she told me that i have fucked up frens.
who only know my side of the story and claim that they know everything.

*sigh*

how many times i've said.
i've said 100001110101 times that whoever who reads my blog,
i will refer them to her's as well.
i want to avoid one sided comments as well.

she didnt believe me.
*sigh*

and my honey said " u are so protective over julia. i dun care anymore. i dun care about ur life anymore. do wad u wan."

im nt being protective over anyone over here.
in fact, if i am,
the only person i will protect is u, honey.

*sigh*
i dunno why suddenly she thinks that im so great.
so powerful.
to ability to control so many things going on.
hai.

why does everytime something bad happened,
im definatly one of the culprit?

i don't know man.
i've been trying to make life good.
esp when it comes to the both of us.

i beginning to feel thats its pretty pointless to try.
pretty pointless to feel and to understand.
to give in.

when she didnt do as well as her parents expected.
[ i dunno wads so bad abt her grades anyway ]
i got blamed for entering her life.

When i try to help her attain more freedom.
voice out wad she feels towards her family.
i got blamed for her parents disliking me.

when she left me,
and semi moved on.
i get blamed for my great plunge.
something which she didnt mind initially.
didnt mind till i stood up,
and stood nxt to her.

when annoynmous tagged her blog.
i get the blame by default.

when people tag in my blog.
something negative.
i get blamed.

no matter wad happens.
the bad stuff always get passed to me.

probably thats why im nt having her now.
because i can only have the bad stuff.

so dun tell me stuff lik " somebody better will be there for u."

i find that its pretty pointless now to live beyond today.
i've breathed enough.
if god wants me to breathe sommore,
allow me to breathe happily pls.

I've said this to honey many times.
"i don't want to be a semi anymore.
if im nt granted the place in ur heart.
grant me a place in hell."

and i mean hell, literally.

I hate myself.
Ima wrong brith .

Honey,
if my existance has caused so much unhappiness.
pls do mankind a favour pls?
kill me pls?

I love Meli.
and despite all the words i've said,
saying that i've lost faith in trying,
i know after i push the "publish post" button,
i will still try to get her back.

I love Meli.

Honey. What are u planning?

2006-11-09T10:24:00.000+08:00

Alrite,
morning entry.

I have been waking up to bad dreams latly.
bad dreams, weird dreams.
2 nites ago i dreamt tt im in this room with only a fone.
and the fone rang.
and i could hear myself from the other side.
asking me some questions. expecting me to ans.
it happened right after i decided nt to tag at her blog.
and the dream was questioning me alot abt why nt be objective and stuff.
yea im quite affected by it.
but honey dun worry,tt decision made won't be reverse.
unless some shit really happened.

last nite i dream was..
weird.
nvm lets nt talk abt last nite's dream.

last nite i played reversi with her .
it was so interesting.
our aim is to LOSE the game.

come on, ima born loser.
of course i lose the games.

and there was once we draw.
DRAWING IN REVERSI!
dang!
maybe ima country bumkin , but i hardly draw.
she took a screenshot of it and sent it to me.
honey tonite we play again =]

latly she has been facing couple of problems.
her PW . her family.
i really wish to be the one not only standing nxt to her,
but the one clearing the mess with her.
yes i know tt im nt her boyfren or wadeva.
i am..
let me use some buisness terms.
i am currently going thru active depreciation.
almost at scrap cost now i guess.
but b4 i get scrapped, i just wan to do as much as i can first.

we were having lunch together yesterday when she told me abt her being the weakest in her pw grp.
in other words, the weakest link.
but she gotta understand something, if the team is strong,
and overall the team scores well, it doesnt matter if u are the weakest link or not.
there are only 4 in a team.
the probablity everybody faces to be the weakest is 25%.
and no matter how strong a team is, theres always a weakest link.
its lik being the poorest millionaire in the world.
similar concept.

regarding her family.
she didnt tell me anything abt it.
just alittle here and there.
*sigh*
in the past ,
i thot i am the cause of her being picked on by her mom.
but right now, im playing such a small role in her life.
probably u can't even call it small.
micro role in her life.
and she and her mom still get into conflict.
*sigh*.
honey, no matter wad, my home here can be ur refugee camp,
2nd home,
permernant home,
hotel,
chalet,
tent..
anything.

When ur world crumbles and fall.
trust that i will be there to hold ur favourite piece of sky.
Who says we must have a zillion acre to be rich and have each other.
just wherever u and i are standing, w.o any barrier in btwn.
thats good enuf.

I love u.

I've typed this entry in a moment of high-ness.
i dunno why. probably because she just sms-ed me.
and i wanna blog tis entry down immediatly.

yes,
im courting her.

I love Meli

New day

2006-11-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

I've promised honey nt to blog yesterday.
right now is 0005.
i've kept my promise

this entry will be short.
i dun wish to say much.

theres an uprising of annoynmous taggers.
nobody has any idea who they are.

be it they are stranger or wad,
pls treat them lik human at least.
flaming isnt gonna help.
yes, i dun appreciate it when they dun post their identity as well.
but pls.
does it matter if we know who these ppl are?
so wad if they have posted the ASL?
wadeva they gonna say isnt gonna change.

i welcome everybody to tag.
yes, i still do.
i welcome everybody to read the tags.
yes , sure.

but

stop linking every annoynmous taggers to me.
its lik as though theres a syndicate which revolves ard me.
even japan doesnt link every death to kira.

and the worst thing is.

even she feels this way.

*sigh*.

I love Meli.

declaration

2006-11-07T20:16:00.000+08:00

This entry will be a declaration.
A declaration of me no longer gonna tag at her tagboard.

I know why am i doing the things i do, saying the things i say.
She knows why i do the things i do, and say the things i say.

all i've to offer is the truth.
the only variable is the amount of truth,
not degree of truth.

i am not somebody who doesnt do something when i know that something is going on.
be it something right or wrong is going on.
and thats why till today, i might be the only OBVIOUS antagonist

i don't wanna weigh the objective side against the humane side.

and because my bias actions of shoving the objective side away,
i've decided to back off by stop tagging.
And i don't wish to question myself regarding this decision made.
I don't think anybody will appreciate it if i were to choose the objective side.

i'm not doing this to protect the people AROUND her.
i'm doing this solely to protect her.
And i guess that this is something i want to clarify.
be it my decision to remove that media will directly /indirectly influence things around us, i will just let it be.

this decision is also made to save her the trouble of needing to blog hop.
because all of us know that annoynmous taggers lurk everywhere.
be it from my circle of frens or not, they all share the same identity.

i am unhappy.
in fact, very unhappy.

unhappy that i've to actually once again, restrict myself.
restrict myself doing the things which till today, is still valid.

note,
i do understand the need for this to take place.
but theres a fine line between being understanding and being fine with it.

im blogging this in open not because i want to put anybody down.
im blogging this down is because i wanna avoid the unneccessary questions my honey has to face if theres any.

this isnt the first time im giving in w.o being fully prepared for it.
but i dun wish to be fully prepared for it before giving her this priviledge.
i don't think i want her to wait till then.
i've screwed up the first time.
i hope this time, nth bad happens.

i don't blame anyone for this decision/ entry to be made.
if u (jux anybody) feel guilty about it, don't bother.
it has nth to do with u.
if i were to blame,
i only have myself to blame.
thats because it was my decision back then to give in w.o being fully prepared for it.

i hope she appreciates it.

I love Meli.

early morning

2006-11-07T10:00:00.000+08:00

alrite i only have 15 mins to blog this.
i woken up from a bad bad dream.
bad bad bad bad bad dream.

regarding my previous post.
honey, im nt scolding u or wad.
if u can't sense the tone becux they are all in text.
den..
imagine me hugging u while telling u all those.
prolly it will help ease the tension

okay.
last nite while talking to edmund, honey san called me.
we were talking on msn earlier on actually.
but she was tired and i told her that if theres anything, im jux a buzz away.

and yea.
she buzzed.

" i can't slp. coax me to slp pls "
she said

she sounded sad, i didnt know wad happened.
tried to ask but she jux said nth.
so being somebody who wished to know wads bugging her,
i asked if it was abt her oral presentation shes gonna have today.
she jux said " nth. faster. i can't slp. coax me.."

alrite. so as usual.
everytime i coax her to slp, i will sing the smurfy good night song to her.
and i did.

she sounded weird after tt.
shaky, sneezy.
she cried? i dunno.
touched?
or maybe becux i was croaking thats why.
im nt somebody with a nice singing voice,
yes i admit.
im musically retard.

well, she told me to record it down and send to her via mms
so that in future if she can't slp, she can play tt "lovly tune".

and the screwed part was,
i kept forgetting the lyrics! =/

anyway i did a "good enuf" one and send it to her.
she set it as her ringtone.
btw my ringtone is "lips of an angel" by hinder.
pretty funny.
see, i call her "honey"
and the first line of the song is " honey why u are calling me so late?"
dang.

anyway tmr we having teppanyaki.
den we suddenly talked abt the teppanyaki restaurant at jurong.
yea and she started to get hungry.
anyway anybody know hw to get there? if nt we are gonna cab down.

latta on, she told me abt the games she played during her primary sch days.
vampire hamburger strawberry pineapple banana.
funny names.
and i told her wad i do during my primary sch days.
ima cry baby when i was young.
how i played pranks on ppl.

soon its ard 2 am.
she needs to go to slp.
wow. amazing. she didnt say
" i need to go already"
she jux tell me she wans to slp.

so i took tis chance and ask" we slp by the fone? "
and she agreed!

OMFG =X

yea i know tis is something i always hav last time.
nt tt i took it for granted all the while
but right now, given such shaky period,
damn.! amplified.

alrite, i gtg.
got rendering lighting and texturing class AND realtime 3d.
6 hrs of 3d lessons.
damn.
i hate 3d max, alias, maya, discreet and autodesk.

last nite was sweet.
and i hope this can go on.

I love you honey. *muarkx*.
today will be a good day for u and me.
hmm, let me retype

today will be a good day for [you and me]

I love Meli.

read

2006-11-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

i've read her blog.
yes. heart wrenching.

and heres my reply.

Honey,
finally u admitted tt deep down inside you are STILL lost.
i've offered u my hand to help u out.
i've offered u my time.
i've offered u my commitments.
i've offered u everything i can.
my only request is that u give me the chance to bring u where u've brought me.
and that where u've brought me is a realisation that we can actually be happily together.
whole world knows that you don't wan to have 2 guys.
and thats why i can see the fight u are having with urself to make a decision.

the thing about being lost is that

i don't know if u are true abt feeling so urself when u are with him.
because i know that u know something.
u feel pressurized by wad im gonna say next.
is it because u are afraid that i might say things u don't want to hear?
or because u are still lost and u dun quite get wad im saying?
or u know wadeva i say is true, but u dun wanna accept it?
and i guess he isnt the only one who re-assures u tt theres somebody who loves u.
cux im constantly reminding u of that as well.
even during the time when i was guiding u from behind and nt having u to see me.
u felt my presence, u know i care.
if u doubt tis statement,
read ur pyshic entries when u say " somehow i know he still loves me. somehow i still know he cares "

u don't know what to do,
all the time.
i guess ur most confident moment was when u told me abt so much ahead of us.
and lik i've said all along.
who told u that u are gonna do everything alone?
i AM and i WILL be there to push with u.

the maturity that he is giving right now was something i wished to grant u.
and when i've told u abt it , telling u to grow up , trying to help u see things
from another perspective, things screwed up.
i don't know if it is because my lack of experience handling this.
but im sorry honey,
i feel discredited.
being probably the only one who dares to voice out how YOU feel by default makes me the OBVIOUS antagonist.
but honey, pls remember that i was voicing out how YOU feel.
all ur " i wish i could achieve xxxxxx"
" i hope i can xxxxx"
which u told me last time, im actually putting MY image and impression at risk hoping to achieve that for u.
I dun expect a grand announcment or some news broadcast after that.
but honey,
u know im doing this for us.
maturity?
i lack maturity?
probably in some issues, yes i do.
but making the decision to be an understanding boyfriend of urs to be able to accept the fact that my gurl was being court and to understand that i have to trust my gurl becux she deserves it.
isnt that a showcase of thoughts?
thoughts not for myself honey, but for u.
the decision to be ur antagonist, hoping to take the shots for you so that life will be better for us together in future,
isnt that a showcase of maturity to understand that sometimes u have to take the slaps for everybody from everybody to achieve more?

im impractical.
i admit i am.
but because of this impracticality, it gives me the courage to do things which people might not dare to do after calculating the risk involve.
and because of you,
i don't mind taking that risk.
i just hope that if things screw up,
u will understand why did i do the things i do.
might nt be immediatly.
but nt too long as well.

everybody sees things in quite a narrow scope.
we don't exactly see wadeva the whole world does.
and if nobody voices out, everybody will just be trapped in their own POV.
i know that you know that ur parents too, have a narrow scope.
yes, they are ur parents.
as much as i dun wish to disregard them from the start as my future in-laws,
i hope they are not over-rated as well.

i've pictured things being in ur shoes honey.
wad if my parents are strict.
and i came to realise that my parents have lived more than half their lives.
as for u and me, we have a long long long way to go.
and if we gonna stop progressing cux of my parents,
i tink its pretty unfair for u and me.
becux u know that i know that one day my parents will accept u.

all ur parents took to set an impression of me was 1 conversation and a txt msg.
how about the things i've achieved?
how about the things i've helped u achieve?
the new experiences i've gave u.
shoved aside?
its because of u i came to realise that i need to be better for the ppl i love.
thanks to u.
i've woken up.
and thanks to u, u've made me a stronger person to not only find ways to solve my issues, but urs as well.
because i know,
u entrusted me with the responsibility to pave a better route for u.
i've given u both carrots and sticks.
but no matter hw harsh i was to u,
at the end of the day, i will nudge u ,
telling u how much u mean to me and hw much i love u.
be it a verbally or via text or jux a mutual subconscious thing,
doesnt deny that i care for u,
i love u and i wanna walk down my road in life with u.

just incase u've forgotten the text msg i've sent u.
i shall post it here.

"The future u convinced me to see is sweet and blissful. and im trying hard, yet not forcing u, to bring u to the same frequency. i hope u give me the chance to lead u lik hw u've led me. u are not firm on ANYTHING. im sure of tt. im nt being an ego freak now but honey, u are subconsciously emitting such signals. i dun wan us to regret nt having each other. and i say US is because i am aware of the chances that u will. and i know tt u know tt the chance of tt happening isnt slim"

i don't want to go full fletch to getting u back.
because u know if i go full fletch, i will implement tt chaos theory.
and u know that i won't.
because u know that theres a soft side in me.

and u know that my soft spot is about u.

im nt putting MYSELF in a league beyond others.
but if there are somethings which i feel that i ought to be recognized for,
i hope i get to tell.

honey, i hope u realise.
i didnt post that i can't get into a relationship cux i love u just to make u feel good abt urself.
u know me.
im nt somebody who make ppl feel good for the sake of making them feel good.
probably u've nvr felt this b4,
or lost the feeling.
but i feel that you are the special one.
nt to be offensive to the female readers,
but i see u as a league beyond the rest.
not because u are some blue blood or special birth.
but its the significance u hold in me.
and yes, i admit.
i hope i can achieve that place in u as well.
and im working towards that.
its not a sin to move on and move on w.o u.
yes, i want to be happier too.
but when YOU play the key role in my life,
its nt quite possible to jux take u away like that and be able to be happy about it.
thats YOU in ME.
i didnt make a reservation for u before i met u.
everybody's first love is always special.
and i guess,
i can regard u as my first love.
because u made me do big things when i fall,
and do small things when i know i can do more but decided not to because i tink of hw u feel.

I love you honey.

2006-11-06T19:56:00.000+08:00

hmm.
im still alive.

alrite.

i did my char design for RT3D till 8am
den i went to bed till 930.
wash up. went to sch.

supposed to meet ms pat at 10.
but she changed it to 1030.
alrite,
im pretty fine with tt.

i went to get breakfast.
and wtf i got?
sushi.
i just wanted to know wads so nice abt sushi tt honey san likes so much.
so i got.
and i tried.
and i puke after that. no way. no sushi for me.

so we met ms pat at 1030.
tell the truth, my mind was switch off.
i was tinking abt latta when im gonna meet honey san,
hw will it be like.
i was jux looking down, frowning, arms crossed.
its as though im an accessor rather den a student.

actually the morning didnt start off well.
we were supposed to go cathy starbucks.
but end up we went yishun starbucks instead.
she didnt wanna travel and im pretty fine with it.
the screwed up part is that i needa print my char design.
the printing shop is at town.
and it closes at 4?
5?
and my thumbdrive and ipod are with honey san.
so tt means i couldnt save my work till i get home.
but its alrite. im pretty fine with it.
i mean. right now, honey san > work.
thats for sure.

alrite. she sms-ed me around 11.
we were supposed to meet at 11 anyway.
telling me that she will be late.
i told her i wait for her at the bus stop near her place instead of the train station.
she thot it was a good idea as she wanna take bus down instead.
alrite.

i alighted a stop b4 the actual destination.
i walked to the playground near tt bus stop.

i did tt on purpose.
during august, i noticed some vandalism on the playground.
it says "Minghui Meli. Love you but we cannot be "

silly.
at tt time, we were already a step more to being together.

today is nov 6.
and its still there. unscrapped.

yea no big deal probably to the readers.
i mean ." who cares abt vandalism. why bother unscrapping"
*sigh*.
i took a pic of it using my phone and named it "Silly gurl"
she WAS silly.
i dun wanna judge right nw is she still silly nt getting back together.
but back then, she was.

i walked to her bus stop alone.
lotsa memory flashed back.
i rmb once we quarrelled at tt playground.
and when walking back. both of us cried.
nt the boo hoo hoo kind.
the kind with tears flowing down... ya. those kind.
and the amazing thing was tt, by them we reach the nxt playground, we made up.
hugged kissed.
sweet at the end.

anyway i met her.
she smiled . i frowned.
she talked to me lik as though nth happened btwn us.
i jux kept my head down and frown.
den i took her bag for her and we headed for the bus.

she asked me " why are u so quiet? why arent u talking"
and i replied " i will talk latta. let me think thru wad i wanna say first "

so in the bus. i told her.

" honey, im nt the best animator.
probably for now, im the best animator u know.
but in future, when u have better bigger projects,
u might not approach me.
after today i might be gone.
tis might jux be the last chance i have to get u back.
i dunno what he can give u.
but
i know right now,
i dun have much material stuff to feed to u.
but i know that all these while,
i have paved quite a good path for u.
i know where we want to head.
i've provided solutions for u.
u only know it when i was holding u and leading u from the front.
but wadabout the times i guided u from behind?
i hope its worth it at the end.
i know that everybody knows that you know that somehow,
things might work out for us.
and you know that wadeva i've said isnt base-less
and even right now despite all the shit thats happen ard me, on me , in me,
im nt gonna reveal.
u are somebody who put problems aside and jux accept it.
thats the sweet side of u, i might say.
i hope u tink about it."

she kept quiet.

we headed for starbucks.
and suddenly she say " i've something to talk to u abt. but not now. after my project. and thats after nxt wk "
and i replied " okay. so u want me to stay alive till then? "
and she say " yea, at least for that. stay alive"

i dun wanna read too much into it.

i told her
" tell the truth, i very much want to work at starbucks."
she supported me.
she told me that if thats the case,
she can visit me and get free mocha frap everyday.

and i told her " does that mean i will get to see u everyday? "

she laughed.

we reached there and couldnt find any powerpoint.
but it doesnt matter, i told her i will finish all her stuff in 2 hrs.

i got her fav ice mocha frap with extra whip cream and warm chocolate cake.

she hasnt change.
the first scoop she scoop up was still offered to me.
so sweet.

anyway,
i was still pretty down when we met.
i mean. this might be the last time.
so i really didnt talk much.
jux short sentences in btwn.
she was the one talking and talking.

and den she say
" u are very quiet. its so not fun "
and i replied
" missing me already?"
and again, she laughed.
and i say
" den appreciate it when im there to entertain u "

she was using her sister's 3G fone today.
2 MP camera.
so she tried to test.

she aimed the fone at me.
tell the truth, i feel odd looking cameras.
i know shes doing that.
but i pretended to be focus at wadeva im doing.

and yeap, she snapped a pic of me .
and snapped my screen after tt.

throughout the whole stay at starbucks
(probably around 1.5 hrs?)
she was talking abt her oral presentation.
how much her teachers lik her slides.
how her teachers thought abt her presentations.

i tried to teach her a couple of things to do for an animation.
i tried to show her.
but everytime i say " honey. if u wan to create a...."
den she will jux shove it away " dun wan dun wan dun wan.."
i was looking at her when suddenly she said
"nxt time if i need animation i will look for u. i dun care i dun care. "
but i went on " honey if u wanna export as gif animated sequences"
den she once again rejected " dun wan dun wan. dun tell me dun wanna see. nxt time i will look for u if i need animation. "
=/
i dunno to be happy or not.
one side of me thot " *Sigh*. im jux an animator "
the other side of me thot " alrite. i get to spend more time with her "

after that , she wanted to xfer hinder's lips of an angel from her laptop to our phones.
failed quite a number of times while sending to her.
silly gurl.
she forgotten that i can send to her via bluetooth as well.
surprisingly, when she tried to bluetooth over.
there isnt any pin prompt.
she asked " ur fone got pin? "
i was lik..
=/..
" u were the one who set it for me when i got my fone.
why? cux u say " i know that u always talk to me at night.
den fone battery will flat.
so i set my name as ur pin and ur text message,
so that everytime u on ur fone, u will tink of me""

obviously she has forgotten abt it.

halfway along the way she said
"i got a feeling i might need to meet u for animation on wed again"
again my heart was semi happy and sad.
and she say " den we can have lunch together. lets have teppan yaki"
wow. teppan yaki.
she told me " there are some places i wouldnt go with others other den u.
teppan yaki is one place.
and ummm.. wheelock's fish n co. cux such places
special to us. wheelock's fish n co i only went with huimin before.
other den tt no more."

ard 1 hr + after we settled down at starbucks,
i've cleared her animation.
and she ask me to faster go and print my stuff cux i need em tmr.
i tell her its okay i can stay with her.

den she began to make a fuss.
she tapped me a few times on my lap and said
" nonononono. faster faster. u need to print if nt no time already.
u need ur work tmr. faster faster faster go.. "

i stared at her.
so cute ar.
jux lik when she was my gurlfren.
always saying " faster faster do ur work den cor me can pei me"
or " faster finish ur project den friday we can go out"

den latta she say " im heading towards bb to get something from him, den i go home after that "

i kept quiet.

and she say " come on, we WILL meet on wednesday.
im asking u out on a lunch date.
and i dun care, u just gotta make it for me"

so i sent her to the train station.

and i told her
" honey. i was quiet jux now becux i was actually tinking
that in the past, i wanted to be a good boyfren.
allow u to hang out with whoever u wan, as long as u get the intentions right.
and right now, im feeling bad abt it.
how can i call u mine? really mine?
that was wadeva ttx on my mind jux now.
i love u "

and she replied.
" i don't know. just feeling weird why u were like this "

hmm this is the tough part

"why u were like this " as in be the good boyfren and allow her to hangout
with whoever she wans as long as she gets the intentions right?

or

feel down abt it.

either way , im gonna ans them both.

for the first one,
i allow her to hang out with whoever she wans becux i trust her.
and i wanna let her enjoy the priviledge not every gurlfren gets.
i wanted to bring our relationship to another platform whereby we know wads goin on in each other's life when we are nt physically together.
such mutual trust is hard to achieve and hard to give.
and i wanted to be the one taking the initiative to step on tt platform,
den hold her hand and bring her up as well.

for the 2nd one,
same, i wanted to be a better, or at least, a good boyfren.
but in the midst of trying to achieve that "god like" status,
i've failed.
i let her ran too wild.
and its ironic to see that i've lost our future because i wanted to be a good boyfren.

well,
im gonna meet her on wednesday.
im nt expecting much out of this, actually.
but i hope that things will be good when we talk after her pw.

pls,
make it worth it for me to live till then.

I love Meli. *muarkx*

Defect

2006-11-05T10:48:00.000+08:00

quoted from julia's blog

"If it was really so easy to forget someone, if it just involved a flick of a switch or simply spending time and keeping your mind preoccupied, then I would laugh at this manufacturing defect of god"

if im forgotten and unwanted.
erase me off.
dun make me a laughing stock.

Yes,
end of entry.

I love Meli

alrite

2006-11-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
i've been grumpy all day
i mean .
very grumpy. *sigh*

i have my char design to complete
i MUST print tmr if nt i dun have the time to
and fuck it im still nt done with it.
i havent even thot of wad to create

but fuck. who cares abt sch work?

gah, i can do those latta.
i mean. my honey san gonna call me latta.
so i will jux do after she calls.

anyway, i've read her blog.
read her tag.
and theres this tag.

"Anoy.: isnt it funny..got two persons saying i love you to you at the same time. seriously, if you still love minghui why go to jj and play with him. now jj will end up the victim yeah"

=/

alrite, i shall state my stand.
i dun appreciate annoynmous taggers.
as in.
alrite, theres no way u can remain unknown in the cyber world.
annoynmous taggers as in, ppl who dun leave behind their names.
or their nick or something.
yea true, sometimes even if u post ur name, it doesnt matter.
cux sometimes nobody knows u.

and the keyword is..
sometimes..

*Sigh*

i hope honey san and her gurl frens actually read my blog first
b4 replying to tt tag.
i mean the chances of it happening is lik 0.000000000000000000001%

*sigh*
i have access to honey san's cbox anyway.
but.
i decided nt to delete any tags from her box.
bascially cux i respect her. and allow her to meddle with her own cbox.

*sigh*
know wad?
sometimes i feel that annoynmous taggers are sometimes ppl we know.

tt person who tagged at my honey san's blog seem to know wads goin on.
well i dunno how.
but my guess is ..
he/she reads my blog as well?

yea i can do the "police catch thieve" method.
track down the IP.
but.
probably ima noob. i dunno much abt such things as well.
theres only certain stuff i can decode out of the address.

so, if the person reads our blogs
or wad more, know us.

probably he/she is trying to say something?

alrite this is pretty fucked up.
if the person meant well, i guess honey san shld read it.
i mean, that person sounded as though he/she knows something.

*sigh*

i shall state my stand again,
i dun appreciate annoynmous taggers.
im nt an ANTI-ANNOYNMOUS TAGGER.
i just dun really support such things.

*sigh*
wtf is going on.

shes always on my mind.
and i really mean ALWAYS.

when i eat slp bath work game draw write type.
ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
*sigh*

i was taking a long bath jux now.
and i thot abt stuff btwn honey san and i.

*sigh*.

pretty weird.
she trusts me in almost EVERYTHING.

doing her animation.
her problems. (yea nt so often now but i guess do know stuff ppl dun. i hope. fuck)
her project work.
the confidence that i will get her things done b4 she needs them.
she trusts that i will keep her secrets.
she knows that i will protect her.
she knows that im there for her.
she even trusts that ima pro in the handgear game.
yea and last hour:25 , that game as well.

alrite, heres the screwed up part.

she doesnt trust that we can be together right now despite all these.
she doesnt have faith in love for fuck sake.
and.
she is sharing wadeva she doesnt have faith in with someone else.

yea alrite, im nobody to fucking discuss abt tis.
but. fuck.
i love her and i care for her.
and i guess the minimum i can do is to at least, tink abt it.
ponder abt it.

*sigh*
i know its my fault somehow she became like tis.
fuck.
my fucked up " im afraid im nt perfect enuf for u, honey"

see wad i mean?
SCREW THE CONSIDERATION!
fuck. why did i even CARE SO MUCH earlier on
and only to have myself missing her right now?!

gah, of cux i mean.
shes so special.
and i love her so much and thats why i bothered to.
but .
*sigh*

fuck it.
i hate myself for nt being able to have her right now.

hw i wish she can jux kill me.
i mean literally kill me.
at least i can see her b4 i die.

selfish?
if she misses me.
yea probably den im selfish.

i sux.
i sux in everything.
i can't even keep her mine.

and wtf.
i got around a hundred bucks left from last mth's expenses.

why?
becux theres i dun have her to accompany.
she has taken herself away.
*Sigh*

we didnt talk much today.
WADAYA EXPECT MINGHUI. U HAVE NO ANIMATION TO DO TODAY.
GET IT?!
YOU HAVE FUCKING NO ANIMATION TO DO!
DUHH!

*sigh*.
life sux after shes gone.
may i die tonite.

alrite not tonite.

after i publish this post.

*sigh*

I love Meli.

i miss honey san

2006-11-04T14:55:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
blogging b4 going to sch to complete my game's prototype.

woke up late.
shld have met FWA in town today to get stuff for our prototype
but .
well..

today started off bad.
i mean, everyday is bad now.

im was quite glad actually that last nite i actually insisted my way.
i mean.
going to her place at 11+ pm.
i rmbed along the way she sms me
"u havent changed these 3 yrs "

hai.
the fact is.
i had.
i no longer know where she is.
wads she doin.
when shes slping/waking up.
hw she feels.
wad she thinks.
everything.

nth changed?

my significance and presence in her changed. *sigh*

anyway, theres gonna be some minor changes to be made in her animation again.
alrite.
thats.. good.
i mean.
thats probably why we are still talking today.
i suppose.

anyway im meeting her on monday.
i hope pitching is at 9
if its at 3 den im skipping it.
i mean.

dun bother manxz.
im gonna get erased pretty soon anyway.
why bother abt concept pitching and stuff lik tt.

im still nt talking to my parents
probably jux
" orh. k. anything. yes. no"

honey san actually told me nt to do tt.
she told me tt they care and stuff.

=/
care?
big fuck?
i care too. so?

right now, i dun feel lik caring abt anything other den her.
i mean. for fuck sake?

everything will die one day.

andy is always telling me to tink abt the consequences.
but.
wads the point?
u consider so much, u waste so much fucking time.
u consider so much, trying to make things perfect when all u can do is probably jux play tt fucking small role.

im sorry,
but i guess i shldnt bother so much abt anything.
anything other den her and us.

and hope this "selfishness" influences some other stuff.

im an ass.
yes i am.
u care?
do u? if u do, den dun bother.
everything dies one day.

i die one day.
i will jux be a temporary thing.
spend ur time and effort on something more long lasting.

*sigh*.
and now im becoming somebody whom i dun wanna be.
dun like to be.
just like her...

pot calling the kettle black ya?
at least we belong to the same class.

i know shes sad.
i know my honey san is sad.
she told me.
hai.
and shes pretending to be okay.
pretending to be alrite to be in another relationship.
i dunno manxz.
wads she putting herself through?
honey i love u.
let me be there to help u alrite?
at least for the last few days b4 i erase myself?

damn. i need a fucking time machine.
*sigh*

=/

wads the point honey san?

*Sigh*

i had a weird dream last nite.
its actually quite gory.
lotsa killing.

i dreamt tt i massacred the world.
i killed everybody in my way.
i was drenched in blood.
not mine blood, their blood.

and den i heard ppl screaming from the other side.
i found it pretty weird.

i stood there motionlessly.
den i saw my honey san with a knife as well.
killing everybody along the way.

den she came to me and say
" now its jux the 2 of us. who says we can't build our own world?"

creepy ya?
but the last line was sweet.
and thats why i called it a dream and nt a nightmare.

infact i had many weird dreams lik tt.
wet dreams. ya..
dreams whereby she telling me shes pregnant.
nice dreams.
all abt just us.
or .. at least showed that we are happy and together.

*sigh*

countdown.
to the day either i erase myself
or the day she comes back.

I love Meli.
for the number xxxx day?
*sigh*

yet another nameless one

2006-11-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

hmm.
guess i shall blog b4 i go to bed.

went to watch flush just now with dm0507 (jux. 4 of them. pathetic)
it was almost full house and im sitting nxt to these 2 strangers
the reception there sux.
i was actually waiting for honey san's sms.
so i had to keep restarting my fone.

sigh.
my welcome note was
Hubbie love Honey.
and who set it?
my honey san .
so sweet rite. she knows that my fone always run outta batt
(somehow, i mean we use to tok on the fone thru the nite, wadaya think)
and when i on my fone , i can see tt msg she set for me.

anyway.
the lady nxt to me found it irritating
and prompted me nt to use the fone.
in fact i dun giv a flying fuck.

oh ya,
we went to toys r us.
damn, it hasnt change at all!
i still see my honey san's and my "sex toy"
and the xbox 360.
and tt plastic grip.
damn. i miss her.
fuck!

after the show,
my honey san msg-ed me some pretty negative stuff.
negative stuff abt herself.
thats the fucked up part.

honey san, i shall protect u once again.
i shall not blog abt wad we talk abt.
all the..
negative.. and .. kinky? stuff?
silly gurl, dun ever say tt again.
i love u . rmb that.

but still, at tt time. i couldnt take it.
i went over to her place.
nt exactly her place. to her backdoor.

and now the sweet part comes in.
we talked on the fone .
im standing at her backdoor.
and shes standing by the window.
and we watched each other as we chatted on the fone.

come on, tell me thats sweet.

in fact i've been lik..
being at her backdoor quite many times already.
just that this time i called her to tell her tt im there.
i mean.
i do this all the time.
but its only tonite that she knows.

and yes.
she says im the first guy who did this for her.

she was pretty shocked when i told her tt i even know the time to the last bus.
DUH.
i've done this over a hundred times. -.-

she got worried that the police will come and look for me..
again..
and told me to stay by the bus stop at least.
or if possible, go home becux its getting late.

i didnt bear to initially.
so i asked her on the fone " honey.. do u wan me to giv in? "
she said " up to u.. this is ur choice.. "
and i reply " give in again, for this relationship? would u prefer me to? "
and she said ya.

so . yea. i gave in. and i took the nxt bus back.
in the bus, i confessed abt all the things ive done DELIBERATELY
to get her attention when she thot i was "cold" and "heartless".

in fact all these while we are doing things for one another.
just that we kept our intentions within ourselves.
she told me abt how perfect we could be together.
and i didnt dare to tell her anything till ive made everything perfect for her.
honey san, no more alrite?
tell me ur intentions. i will tell u mine
*muarkx*

there are no more bus services when i reached yishun.
so i had to walk home
and she accompanied me on the fone.
so sweet . *muarkx*
she knows that im afraid of taking the lift alone.
and she accompanied me all the way home.

along the way i told her
"honey, its a cycle. at first, u thot u are nt good enuf for me.
den i am afraid that im nt good enuf for u.
and now u tink tt u are nt worthy of me. honey.
stop this.
no more such shit lik u are nt good enuf for me or im nt good enuf for u.
u know it. "

well, im meeting her on monday =]
i hope things will be well by then.
i mean. good for the two of us.

*sigh*
i miss her so much.
dang! i was so close to her jux now.
lik..
other den the time we stayed over at the chalet
the time we had midnite show with dah and her fren.
and the times she came over to my place to slp over.
this is probably the first midnight we get to see each other!

honey san,
tonite has been pretty sweet.
i mean. with all our confessions and stuff lik tt.
was actually more den i've expected.
thank u so much.
i love u *muarkx*.
dun say silly stuff anymore.

and .
tmr im gonna get her back.
I love Meli.

blog

2006-11-03T17:19:00.000+08:00

hi. im here to blog again.
*sigh*.
i miss her.
this post might be quite a sad one.

hai.

well.
i worked all night to complete her animation and slides.
i ended my day at ard 5am.
i went to bed. with my alarm set at 6.

she woke up at 545 telling her that i have something to pass to her.
she told me to go look for her during lunch intially.
her break after A lvl chinese is at 11.15.
and by right, im having my pipeline tutorial.
so i told her that i wuld have to skip sch if i were to go over at lunch.
so she suggested after her class, which is 6pm.

so i asked her " why nt 640 am? " *which is 40 mins from then*
she told me she couldnt make it.

*sigh*.

and i smsed her

"..in my ipod, theres a file which says finalslide(3nov)0432hr.
okay? haix. pls tell me that i didnt waste time figuring out on hw
to input ur GIF files to ur ppt and have it to work . pls? haix"

her ppt file naming format is > finalslides(DATE)8888hr.

finalslide(3nov)0432hr means. 3rd nov 0432am.

she asked if i can upload though.
the thing is. yousendit was down at ard 430am
gmail sux at uploading files. it takes a lifetime to upload 10mb.
lets nt talk abt 14mb.

*sigh*. it hurts pretty bad. i mean. i stayed up all nite till dawn.
and.. i can't even have this to go my way.

so i replied

"if it uploads, i wuld have. haix. it hurts. to know i stay up
despite being ill so tt u can slp in pece. probably dreaming of someone else.
and when u are doin so.
im working and struggling. i love u honey.
dun u see it?
hai. it hurts. to tell da truth.
i hope my decision to end my yesterday
only at 5 is worthy.
if nt, jux treat me as another dog working my ass off jux to meet the minimums.
haix"

she was sweet. she aplogize for having me to skip sch again.

but in the end.
i found out tt today pipeline we will have to do some discussion practical.
i can't afford to skip.
my grp needs me. *sigh*

so i went to sch and told mr leo tt i will be leaving at 1015 or so.
shelia asked if we are backed together.
*sigh*
i told her no.
she was lik "ahh. wad happened?"
*sigh*.
and i showed her my blog. (yes this blog)

i went to her school.
while waiting for the bus. she asked me where was i.
wow. she took the initiative to sms me.
well i asked abt her chinese paper.
she replied "crap. nxt year retake"

*sigh*
honey san, dun be silly.
they pass/fail according to the gradient.
not jux from ur score.

i met her. pass her my ipod and letter which i wrote last nite.
and she left.
under 5 seconds.

*sigh*

she called me to thank me for my efforts
for the quality
for the performance.
she sounded so sweet.
*sigh* i miss her.
my honey san.
i told her to rmb to have lunch
she said her fren will be getting lunch for her.
and she will call me tonight.

i went home.
on my way home , i smsed her
"if tang ask y is the file size so huge. tell him tt in order to
maximize the clarity so tt it wun be
pixelated, i've x2 the resolution. dun take
the blame for me if he scolds.
u gt nth to do with the way i handle the file size"

reached home.
napped forawhile
supposed to wake up at 1315 to go for my jap class.
and i slept...
till 1330.

i went my japanese lesson.
face it.
japanese..
i don't have the mood to attend those classes anymore.
i mean. pretty pointless now, aye?
*sigh*
i went into class.
and ai sensei said " konichiwa minghui kun"
i was blank.
and i stared at her.
and i said...
"hi"
wtf. i even screwed up my greetings!
im supposed to say " konichiwa sensei"
*sigh*
ai sensei was quite dissappointed with my performance.
i still couldnt memories the whole hirigana.
i told her wad happened.
and she told me to memoriese at least half by nxt wk.
oh ya, and i need my txt book from kinokuniya.
*sigh*.
japanese.
honey san. our honeymoon?

tell the truth,
all along. i've been tinking.
why am i the only one feeling this way?
i've kept my knowledge within myself.
ppl who are happy out there, well.
be happy while u can.
honey san.
dun worry.

*sigh*.
im waiting for my honeysan's sms
her reply.

nt just that.

her return as well.

i hope this project isnt our only bridge of communication
i hope this project brought us somewhere closer. infact, back together.
i hope ..
i hope.. she loves me and jux me.
i love my honey san.

honey san,
when i can still speak, hear wad i have to say.
when i can still write, read wad i've written.
when im still ard, be with me.
becux. i might be gone. soon.
and nobody will say the things i say to u.
and nobody will write the letters i've wrote to u.
and give u everything i gave.

i love u honey san.*muarkx*

kinky?

2006-11-02T12:30:00.000+08:00

taken from jt's blog

WHAT A KISS MEANS

Kiss on the stomach-----"lets have sex"
Kiss on the Forehead ----"Forever you will be mine"
Kiss on the Ear ---"I'm horny"
Kiss on the Cheek ---"We're friends"
Kiss on the Hand ---"I adore you"
Kiss on the Neck ---"We belong together"
Kiss on the Shoulder ---"I want you"
Kiss on the Lips ---"I love you" OR "Iwant you"
Holding Hands ---"We can learn to love each other"
Slap on the Butt ---"That's mine" ( haha, how true!)
Playing with the Ear ---"I can't live without you"
Holding on tight ---"Don't let go"
Looking into each other's Eyes ---"Don't let go"
Playing with Hair on Head ---"Tell me you love me"
Arms around the Waist ---"I love you too much to let go"
Laughing while Kissing ---"I am completely comfortable with you"

hmm.
i wonder if this accurate.
i kiss / play with / put my hands / arms on /around every part of her.
probably the only part i didnt kiss is her..
feet and .. armpit?
and i guess she "interacted" every inch of me.
and i wonder did she get or
was she emitting the messages stated above.

okay.
that sounds kinky.
=/

infact.
this blog has gone thru lotsa filtration.
the residue clogged is lik..
*hai*

and all i did was to protect her.

it seems lik i've devoted my life to her.
my honey san.
Melissa poon keat yeng.
and right now,
probably is the toughest moment we have to go thru b4 we can live happily with one another.

i dun feel lik going to sch.
wads the point of getting my grades and my cert when at the end of the day,
im nt a happy man?

honey san..
she has kinda.. changed.
she appears to be a stronger individual.
but somehow i know,
deep inside her, she is still the little innocent gurl she used to be.
honey san,
dun lose urself.
dun become who u dun wanna be.
I love u . allow me to bring u back.

she is my element of joy.
when i see her , and when she opens up, i feel so happy.
we talked about silly stuff yesterday when she came over to my place.

honey san,
recall back wad we were saying yesterday when u were here.
werent we talking abt the future?
the part about driving lessons
25th hour . hand gears..
i sense that u still see faith in us.
somehow,
i do.

anyway i jux read honey san's blog.
silly gurl.
shes again keeping all her problems to herself.
why not jux tell me ?
i mean, she knows that i will be there for her.

honey san,
u are trying too hard to be independent.
u still have me to crushion ur fall. silly.

have i eva tell u guys hw accurate she was when it comes to predicting hw i feel?
i read her blog entries faithfully since she started blogging.
and when we broke up,
she will write there occasionally
"somehow i know that he still care for me"
"somehow i know that he still love me"
i was lik " Wtf.." when i read it.
i guess i didnt show any obvious indication at tt time.
but.. damn.
my honey san is a mew two.

and i hope right now she knows wad im tinking.
wad im feeling.
and grant us.
once again.

im counting down to the number of hours im left b4 her presentation.
i mean.
i hope we two can step into a new phrase , together as one after that.

*sigh*
I love Meli.
and today i woke up.
with the same line
"Fuck. shes nt with me. and today im gonna get her back"

i pray.
tmr morning
i can wake up saying
"honey. u have given me the green light to work towards waking up nxt to each other every other morning in a few yrs time"

I love you, honey san.

letter

2006-11-02T04:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm.
im on the fone with her right now.
and. i wanna say somethings to her..

so let me jux blog..

*sigh*..

Honey san,

u are slping right now.
i mean lik. duh.
u are.
theres so much more i wanna say to u.
but i dunno if time is on my side.
or shld i say,
i dunno if u are on my side.
i'm actually reading out this letter
when im typing.
u are on da fone with me right now.
u were slping so soundly.
like a baby.
i can hear u breath.
its lik, u are jux nxt to me.
I love u honey san.
i'm done with ur animation btw.
i need ur OP for some content filling.
I miss u.
I miss watching u put on ur contact lens while hugging u from the back.
I miss pretending to slp on ur bed while u bath
and after u bath u will come to me and hug me from the back.
right now,
to me.
everything will just die one day.
other den the feelings i have for u ,
everything will jux die.
and thats why i dun intending to do anything abt myself,
for myself.
u blamed urself now that i have this thot.
i kinda blame myself now that u are nt very keen abt relationships.
last time u used to tell ur frens that u were so excited being able to see me.
so happy every wed and fri when we go out.
and so chirpy when we got together.
in fact i only know abt all these 3 wks ago when u told me.
*sigh*
right now. ur feedback on the relationship u are having with him is jux..
"fine".
u weren't even sure abt anything.
i'm sorry that right now u dun have faith in love.
dun have faith in forever.
but i do hope that u can give me the chance to revive all those fairytale thots u had in the past.
u sent me an sms few hrs ago.
"Lips of an angel"
I knew. I understood.
And thats why i dun wan to get another gurlfren.
becux i know that i will have to sing that song to u, oneday, somehow.
Honey san.
pls be cheerful once again.
i miss u.
so much.
I don't know if im over-rating myself.
but it seems that w.o me, u dun seem to be exactly happy as well.
i missed the time we go shopping together.
yea im nt a shopping kinda guy.
but i miss it when u grab onto my arm and pull me to see something with u.
and im sorry for being broke and have to tell u "some other time"
when u wanna get an adidas jacket.
i've yet to see u in the clothes i got for u.
i love/hate it when u get clothes for me.
i love it becux its lik u telling me " i know ur size so well.
i can jux get it for u.
becux all these while im hugging u .
and i wanna see u in those clothes one day. and i wan the whole world to know that i chose them for u "
its sweet lah.
but .. i dun wan u to spend so much as well.
*muarkx*
and i tink .
when i got u ur clothes.
i picked the right size the moment i request for it.
i jux looked at u to double check.
amazing. thats hw much we've hugged.
and honey san,
told u i took every hug seriously.
look at us.
honey. im done with ur animation.
*sigh*
probably u might nvr come to my place ever again.
probably we might nt even talk.
i mean.
*sigh*.
I miss u so much.
having u by the fone right now at this hour.
and im nt hanging up.
becux i know if u wake up from a nightmare,
u will feel scared.
and u will call out for me.
and as usual, i hope i can be there for u when u need me.
there were few unfortunate occasions when i couldnt be there.
i'm sorry.
I love u.
anyway i talked to travis today.
he is so like me in the past.
love the gurl.
broke up.
wants to get back together but afraid of getting back.
i dunno abt him, but i tried to make things perfect b4 u come in again.
u helped me so much. *muarkx* thanks honey san.
and i told him.
u can be sweet.
and make everything perfect for her to come in.
but thats not wise.
becux once she is gone, even if u buy the moon for her.
she wun care.
the wiser way will be.
tell her that u wanna get the moon for her.
let her know u are working towards it. and she will work with u.
*sigh*.
i guess i didnt just aim for the moon.
i tried tearing the sky down for u as our blanket nxt time.
with all the stars shining.
u love stars dun u?
u used to look at the sky at nite.
and tell me where isnt there any stars.
and i will tell u .
cux im ur biggest shining star.
u used to find it so sweet.
whenever i say tt.
so my question is.
if i can be ur star.
why can't u be my universe?
I love u Honey san.

From,
___________
i hope u just call me Hubbie again.

*sigh*
I love Meli.

bloggin and bloggin

2006-11-01T19:21:00.000+08:00

hmm. hattrick.

anyway. to FWA,
sorry.
i've forgotten abt the meeting last night.
i've slept 14 hrs last nite. if u read my blog, u guys shld know why.

anyway.

she came jux now.
regarding her animation again.
know what?
ever since she got together with him
or..
during ard a wk or 2 b4 her promos.
everytime she comes over, the intial phrase is always so tensed.
its lik a discipline master walking into my room.
and i sit there lik a guilty kid.
jux stare blankly.

anyway she reached ard 11.
it was supposed to be 10 though.
but she was late.
i was kinda worried.
i dunno wads goin on
and don't wan anything to happen at her home or on her way here.
so i called her a few times.
she apologized for being late and having to make me worry for her.
she saying SORRY for having me to worry for her?
alrite i dunno if ima weirdo or wad, but thats sweet.
*muarkx* honey san.

yea anyway she came.
brief me about the animation ( yes tonite i have alot of work to do)
and she did her oral presentation.
i dunno why.
i find it kinda silly to do proper work when shes around.
i mean read the entry below, u shld understand why.

she felt slpy after awhile.
she slept at 1 plus last nite btw.
she slept on my bed for awhile.
awhile?
yea awhile.
i went over to asked if shes slpy.
but she was already semi slping.

*tinks back.. was the air con on?*
yes it was. no wonder she felt so slpy.
she got chinese to mug.
tell the truth.
mugging for chinese is pretty silly.
u study 400+ words for.. 25 marks?
i dunno abt jc chinese but thats hw its lik in o lvls.
so honey san, dun concentrate so much on tt 400+ words,
i rather u do well in ur compo and get more slp.

alrite back to her.
she slept. with the blanket covering halfway.
she wore sleevless today anyway.
so i covered the blanket for her properlly as she went to bed.

anyway the tension is gone,
or lowered significantly when she told me this.

"live for the day. dun think too much"

i mean, it kinda lightened the mood .
yes i can sense a degree of sadness in that line.
"live for the day"
probably forever doesnt seem to matter to her, anymore.
and yes, im gonna make it MY job to prove her otherwise.
at least get her back first ya.

..
and i tried to do my animation.

its pretty crazy work . its lik my studio project.
infact harder.
becux this time, everything is interactive and has link to one another.
during studio project, the monsters animations are inidivudual.
and yes lotsa work tonite.

she woke up after awhile.
awhile?
yea awhile. i guess.
tok to me abt her work again.
abt hw pack her schdule will be.

after awhile.
probably ima bastard.
we began talking abt things not regarding the animation.
*sigh*.
nth kinky, dun worry.
jux some personal check point .
yea u can put it off that way
i love her.

and den went off to have lunch with him.

*sigh*
and i feel lik.. Wtf.
i accompanied her to the train station.
and i saw her.. going to him.
damn.

shes napping right now.
tmr will be another holiday for her.

i self proclaimed its my holiday as well.
i got a shit load of assignment left undone.
but gah.
jux complete her animation first.

and ouch. i've been bitten by a rabbit.
handgear.
Last hour: 25.
*muarkx* i love u honeysan

and ppl.
thanks for the well wishes.
but this is to u zany.
thank u.
but.. i guess u gotta read meli's blog as well.
(in fact everybody who wans/decides to conclude jux by my entry).
that was hw she viewed the break up
i mean if u read my oct 11's post, u wuld have seen my side.
read hers. get the whole picture.
or at least,
her struggle and mine.

I love Meli.
i hope i dun have to wake up tmr saying " today im gonna get her back"

hardcore

2006-11-01T09:52:00.000+08:00

hmm,
i dunno why am i hardcore blogging suddenly again.
but anyway.
just let me use this as a place for me to place my thots.

i've jux read julia's blog.
i read from the part after she and travis broke up.
and i read a part abt travis wanted to game.
and joycelyn told julia how matafleur always forget abt her when he games.

pretty weird ar.
why wuld gurls always think that their guy will forget abt them when they game?
i mean.
i used to play alot of maplestory once.
with dolcevita.
and, likewise.
my honey san tinks tt i always ignore her while gaming.

how can i forget abt her when my ign is Melir0x?

even in game, i see her name.
in the mid phrase of the game (probably ard lvl 97 or so)
somebody offered 2.3k for my acc.
i was quite tempted to sell actually.
infact all the while i wanted to sell my acc to have more money to spend on my honey san.
but.
end up i held back.
Melir0x . how can i sell?
fuck.

den there were a few times.
she wanted me to accompany her to the library to study.
and i told her i wanna stay at home to game and why nt she come over?
or i wuld tell her that i will go if i can game in the library.

dang.
she was so silly to take it just like that.

My honey san..
she is conservative.
im a hugging and kissing person.
as in, i love to hug and kiss alot.
esp when i feel so good having her with me.
alrite she is a hugging and kissing person too.
she opens up more when shes at my place.
and .

wanting to stay at home to game?

cut the crap.

hw silly wuld it sound if i say
"honey, i wan to hug u w.o the need to care that we are in the library its supposed to be condusive and stuff."
when back then , all tt was in her mind was to complete her studies?
even though she is a hugging and kissing person.
and she loved me.
i bet at tt time, her objective of the day was to study more den to hug and kiss me.
rite?

so to those gurls who feel that their boyfriends will forget them while gaming
or becux of gaming..

stop it.

because like me, they know as well that
at the end of the day, its nt the game they get married to.

they get married to you, sillies (silly plural form)

dun even bother to quarrel abt it.
its like ur boyfren pick a fight with u becux u took too long to try out ur bra.

and guys.
dun quarrel with them when they dun understand abt this whole gaming thing.
its not they don't want to.
they can't
its lik we dun understand the thrill of spending 30 mins to tie our hair.
and wuld u go to ur gurl and say
"fuck, wads so fun abt tying ur hair? i mean .
u have wasted 30 mins of OUR time.
and i bet in tt 30 mins all u thot was ur hair and nt me. im forgotten"

*siGh*
I love Meli.
and im gonna get her back..
today.

and yes, Melir0x is still nt sold.

dang

2006-11-01T02:30:00.000+08:00

alrite.
im gonna put things off pretty crudly.
infact i dunno hw to NOT put this off bluntly.

I am Meli's boyfren.
Im her Hubbie.
She is my Honey.
Just that i am not her only boyfren.
and im having less of her..
physically..

GAH!
fuck it.
pretty weird lah.
fuck. its another pathetic attempt to lik somehow say
"mh u are there. jux that u are nt getting enuf"
damn.
i hate wadeva happened.
but i still love her.
nvm this shall jux be a personal blog entry to her.

*sigh*

for those readers who still doesn't know what went on.
i guess u are the type who needs visuals more den words.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=oJkN0zJ49JA < watch.
not screamer not porn.

Honey san,
o genki des ka?
i wish somehow, a cut scene can happen.
an angel telling me wad really went on.
telling you as well, hopefully.
You are a confused gurl right now.
I saw through u 2 nights ago.
I'm sorry but im gonna use this line on u again
"Honey, how long have i known u? how long have we been together"
today another 3 of my classmates asked me wad happened.
why is there a fluctuation of mood in me.
i've told them.
pretty honestly. about wad went on btwn us.
or should i say, among us , now there are 3.
This gurl named shelia.
we hardly talk.
But she came forward to shake my hand and told me "good luck"
yea, u saw jor tagging good luck to me as well.
Honey san,
its only you who can decide whether their well wishes will work or not.
I don't want to share u with someone else.
or to put this across straight.
I want u to be mine and just mine.
Like how u used to want me to be urs and just urs and how i was urs and just urs.
i really wish to stay strong inside and outside.
or at least the outside.
but i can't.
I've lost my wife.
Be it part or u or all of u, still.
I've lost my wife.
my wife who came along with a whole lot of cheeky sms-es,
sweet moments..
late night calls..
silly marriages plans...
rants..
hugs cuddles kisses and somemore.
yes, quick tempers and frustrations at times.
But still, u are my wife.
Though we had nvr gone through proper ceremonies.
And i was so damn close to a proposal.
I believe in our heart we made a slient pact, vow with one another.
I've done many stupid things in life.
When i was a baby i ate a lightbulb.
When i was 10 i place stink bombs around the school canteen.
When i was 15/16 , i tried to protect ur image in my frens so much that i ended up hurting u sometimes.
And now im 18.
Probably the last year of folly,i've lost u.
Honey san,
wheres the trust i gave u ?
The trust i have always wanted from u.
during august.
when i was so ready to get u back and u didnt see it.
and those ugly entries in ur blogs.
[not exactly bad but. they are still ugly]
i kept wondering..
like..
"fuck.. this is bad this is bad.. no way she can love me still if she sees me this way rite? "
2 weeks b4 sp3, i've found my answer.
u loved me.
and somehow, u manage to see that i do as well.
and i thot all the silence i made earlier paid off.
*muarkx* thank u.
for entering into my innerself despite the crazy amount of fortication you KNOW u have to face.
brave gurl.
*sigh*
I tried to type this entry w.o needing to stop.
to calm and pace myself.
to not cry and get too overwhelmed.
Honey,
i've read ur blog entries.
suddenly "love" and "forever" seem to be just words to u.
as in, they are just words with a reduced significance.
We loved each other.
as in.
Right now i still love u.
and probably u still do, too.
but to put off a conservative figure,
Lets take it as onesided now. Just I love u.
too me, i still take the 2 words mentioned early pretty seriously.
I mean, im nt the kind who " kkie. we be together 30 days den break "
and once u told me that we can be together. forever.
the promise we made.
to love each other no matter wad happens and no matter hw far we are apart.
i don't know what u were tinking then when u made tt promise
but to me , back then.
the worst case scenario was that the deathgod pulled us apart.
not break ups or seperations .
infact breaking up seems worse den having the shiningami to tear us.
not having u to love me might just be the worst ever.
I don't know where will the both of us end up after i'm done with ur animation.
but everybody knows,
if nth good happens, for a change.
I will have to just erase myself.
probably just to make things look good.
"Forever."
I don't feel lik talking to anybody.
but i dun wanna cause un-neccessary worries.
Im probably limiting myself to just
FWA ( my current project team )
Kc jowin sl cheng
my blog.
and you.
talk not as in talk abt stuff.
just talking.
"yada yada blahblahblah. "
If he is jealous.
tell him
" Don't worry. IF nth goes well btwn mh and i.
pretty soon, he will just be a tablet."

I love u Honey san.

From,
Clown Mr Minghuii.

Sch blog

2006-10-31T15:24:00.000+08:00

Im right now in school.
yea blogging.
i dun have the mood to listen to what the teacher is saying anyway.
i mean.
gah.

alrite a little update abt us recently.
damn why am i saying as though we are together.
dang.

anyway , i shall go on.

I'm right now doing her animation for her PW.
yea, infact, this is the only bridge of communication for the both of us.
let me go according to the timeline.

Sunday.
i helped her convert her swf files to gif and mpeg files.
she needs to put into her ppt slides.
and im helping her in it.
i mean. yea at least we are still talking.
the problem is, the ppt always crash when it plays the video.
i didnt save my own project presentation when it crash.
nvm abt tt.
the screwed part is that the ppt works on my com, but doesnt work on hers.
end up, i placed her stuff into my ipod and pass to her the nxt morning ( monday)
anyway, i worked till 2+am with FWA discussing abt our presentation the nxt day.
thanks FWA.

Monday.
i met her at 7am to pass her my ipod.
i passed her M&M as well.
M&M chocolates
Minghui and Meli?
*sigh*
anyway , i met her at yishun.
i can only accompany her till the nxt station as he will be meeting her the station after that.
it was only 4 mins probably.
she asked me 3 times " wad about ur presentation"
and i said " its alrite, i can solve it.dun worry "
and the more she asks, the more she looked lik shes gonna cry.
anyway i passed her 5 bucks b4 i left.
i wanted her to have some decent lunch.
not 3 ferro rocher and a bottle of green tea.
maybe some decent food.
lik her yoshinoya and stuff lik tt.
after that i smsed her
" im will try my very best to close my 1 eye and allow the final 45 mins hes gonna have u, after that. im gonna take u forever"
she replied " i don't know "
*sigh*.
her teacher didnt respond well to the animations.
he wanted mass changes.
and im fine with it.
i mean, right now, this project is the only thing thats allowing us to meet each other, probably the only topic we activly talk abt.
damn. i miss her . but wtf.
thats all. dang.

*anyway brb. im having a test now*
kkie back. had 3d test just now.

i met her again later on monday night. she came to tell me abt the animation changes.
my mom and her got some misunderstanding.
i guess my mom wasnt tactful with her words.
and my honey san is a lil sensitive i guess.
i mean. wTf .
w.o the status , the whole tension rised.
she told me wad to change and stuff.
i jux laid on my bed.
she sat by my side. and we chat a little.
some stuff happened.
i guess i won't write wad izzit abt.
anyway, after an hour or so, i sent her to northpoint .
she cabbed home from there *sigh*.
on the bus she told me silly stuff
" hey , right now im feeling lik last time b4 we go out, i will go to ur place first.
and now we are heading off to somewhere else"
i jux looked at her and smile.
its so cute when she said that. so innocent.
dang.
anyway i went home and i talk to my abt it.
i wasn't happy though.
my dad came in.
and i told them right now im concentrating on my honey san's project.
i mean.
this MIGHT be the last chance i have to get her back.
and i dunno hw long this project will last.
and i wanna take us as far as we can with this chance.
i dun mind nt doing my work.
nt completing my assignments.
nt eating well nt slping well.
i mean.
with my o lvl cert, im pretty confident tt i can have another chance to get a diploma.
but.
i might nt have another chance to get her back. damn.
my parents weren't happy.
i mean.
i really love my honey san.
and i really gonna get her back.
ppl are caring abt hw much i eat, hw much i slp, hw i do my work.
but ..
wadabout how i feel?
*sigh*
anyway i worked on her animation thru the night.
flash kept crashing damn!.
i worked till 4+
and decided to take a break.
she came online shortly after to complete her IR.
and yea, i helped her with her IR again.
i need a break from her animation.
ard 530, i went to slp.
i tried to slp but i can't.
and i sent a sms to her.
she was so sweet, she didnt wanna wake me up.
and thats why she didnt reply
thanks honey san *muarkx*.
end up, i only manage to sleep at 6.

tuesday

alrite lets jux take it as tuesday starts at 630 am.
she woke me up becux i needa meet her to pass her my ipod.
same.
i pass her M&Ms again.
my ipod.
and i told her a secret she ought to know.
gah its btwn us.
volume 35. yea honey san =).
shes so cute. she kinda blushed alittle after that.
and i told her i didnt wanna come to sch today, i jux wanna finish up her animation.
she told me nt to be silly.
*sigh*
and i mentioned time and time again.
that after tis animation, i will be gone.
im so down. i mean .
fuck..
but anyway i came to sch, for her sake . alrite.
i dunno how long can this last.
but i hope that i can get her back in no time.

I love Meli.

fusion

2006-10-29T12:58:00.000+08:00

Okay.
I shall use this blog of mine as my project HQ.
and my online diary.

FWA-ers:

this blog will be our HQ. if u wanna suggest something
or announce something but couldnt contact
the other group mates, use the tag board.

Okay updates:

I've received most of the work u guys gave.
Some incompletes ( yes i didnt complete as well. bad day yesterday ).
but its enough for our presentation tmr.

I shall post my part of the ideas here in this blog.
for now , i've suggested 2 things which are already approved by miss pat.

1)
game will run along every axis.
in other words, monsters will be able to spawn on every axis as well.
whether it will cause motion sickness or not, we gotta check that out.

2) we will allocate "tiles" which will change the maze arrangment.
in other words. lets say i step on "random xyz tile"
"random xyz tile" will affect how the maze arragment is at area coord xxx:xxx
this allows re-playability w.o having to plan too many stages.

for now, these 2 are approved. and there are more which i've thot of.

3) there will be 2 kind of weapons. Melee and projectile.
Melee , for example, sword, dagger,katar.
projectile, bow, guns, (spells?)
each weapon has its own SKILL SET.
im thinking of characteristic of each weapon. maybe..
sword - slow but high damage.
dagger - poison attribute ( inflict DPS )
katar - fast but low damage.
bow - fast but low damage
gun - slow but high damage.

each TYPE of weapon will have something call [RECOGNITION POINTS]
in other words, the more u use a certain type of weapon, the better u are at it.
so theres a "level up" for ur weapons.
everytime u level up, u get a new skill to the weapon.

lets say im going for dagger.
lvl 1 dagger - i only get normal stab. [passive]
lvl 2 dagger - i get tis poison which will slow down the monster i stab [active]
lvl 3 dagger - i get tis poison which will inflict xx DPS [active]
lvl 4 dagger - i get tis poison which will temporary turn the monster inactive.[active]
lvl 5 dagger - i get to control this monster for a period of time.[active]

or maybe im going for sword.
lvl 1 sword - i only get normal slash [passive]
lvl 2 sword - i get to use double slash [active]
lvl 3 sword - i get to increase my sword critical rate by 30% [passive]
lvl 4 sword - i sacrifice 10% of my hp for 200% damage [active]
lvl 5 sword - strafe . i will do x number of hits. but during this period, i canot control my character actions, but only the direction he/she moves [active]

melee weapons will have to be sharpened. probably by flint or stuff like that.
while sharpening, u are not allowed to be interrupted.
if u are interupted, you will have to resharpen.
blunt melee weapons will result in taking 3 times more hits to kill monsters

4) these are the stuff u can pick up / interact with along the way:

flints - to sharpen ur melee weapons
speed potions - increase movement speed by xx% for xx period.
def potions - increase defense by xx% for xx period.
health potion - regen health
re-arranger- affect the maze arrangements at some other parts of the maze
mines - will blow up 3 secs after activation. 30% of fusing w.o blowing up. [radius to be revised]
lamp post- allow you to have a quick peek at the whole maze.

yeap. these are the 2 things i've thot.
kinda brain dead .*sigh*.
miss ex gurlfren ar. no choice.

oh ya, our det group got one member call melissa rite?
wads her chinese name? i dun feel lik calling her melissa =/

alrite. any suggestions pls post it in the tag board.

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alrite blog .
she is attached .
i do miss her yes i do. silly stuff do happen btwn the both of us.
i miss her so much.
i feel lik erasing myself.
i mean. fuck. i dun even feel lik writing my name on my assignments.
who the fuck is minghui w.o meli?!
i mean.
ever since she enters my life, im really proud of myself .
its lik..
wtf.. the gurl who is so perfect to me actually loves me!
she is..
ya , she is unreasonable at times. she is lik a princess.
but because of that, when she does something sweet, its really sweet.
i chat with her on the fone 2 nites ago.
i told her that i wanna erase myself. and she was so sweet.
she said " den lets slp b4 the fone tonite"
WTF.
well i know that this might nt mean anything much to her, but damn!.
and in the morning (yes still by the fone) .
i kissed her via the fone.
those silly yet sweet " muarkx".
and i said " morning breath, u dun mind? "
she say she doesnt. dang!
so i told her " i wanna wake up to ur morning breath everyday. "
kkie to those who dun understand wad tt means.
it means that i wanna be with her every day and slp with her every nite.
and she replied " den we shall talk on the fone every night "
dang i dunno whether to feel good abt it or not.
its so sweet when she said tt. but..
i dun wan jux fone calls. i mean.
i wanna be with her manxz. fuck.
today i had breakfast with my parents.
we went to this coffeeshop.
i remembered thats the coffeeshop where i sms-ed my honey few mths ago saying
"im jux a pit stop. u came u stopped and u will go"
and she replied
"u are not a pitstop . i wanna stay " or somewhere along that line.
damn.
and wad now? =/
*sigh*.
the end of my sp3 was my happiest day.
we were lik .. so sweet.
infact it felt as though we were together again.
well , that was the way i see it.
that we were ALREADY attached since that day.
she told me to put on my ring on the ring finger during my competition
to tell the other gurls that im already taken by her.
dang.
she was so cute when she said that. and i could do nth but to look at her and smile as she fed me with yogurt icecream.
i hope.. i can get her back before SP4.
everyday i wake up and i say " FUCK"..
cux in my mind i kept tinking that she is no longer with me and with someone else.
dang..
the only positive stuff which i can tink of everymorning is " today i will get her back"
but at the end of the day, i go to slp , knowing that i have to say the same thing the nxt morning..
*sigh*.
i wonder when can we lie on the same bed again.
cuddle .
kiss.
talk.
slp.
lets nt talk abt lying on the same bed.
jux meeting up is already something so hard to achieve.
damn.
im so ashamed being myself.
i can't even keep her mine.
*Sigh

I love Meli.

courage

2006-10-11T11:20:00.000+08:00

hi people.
i finally had the courage to read my blog and to post something again.
see, meli and i are no longer together.
and my blog was all abt her.
i didnt dare to face it. didnt dare to read it either.
im afraid of missing her too much.
but right now, i've nth to fear.
nt tt we are back together.
nt tt i've moved on. but i have to say somethings
before i dun have the chance to.
people,
im dying.
im so down w.o her. i dun fucking know why.
nobody told me to fall for her so deeply.
its jux her. i just couldnt help me but to fall so deeply for her.
anyway, she has found someone new.
someone whom she said she will nvr fall for.
someone whom she said comes and goes quickly.
damn.
i love her so much. screw me. i fucking do.
hw i wish ima bastard. fall for a new gurl lik 3 days after the break up.
fuck .
i hate myself to the extent of wishing im someone worse.
the pain is killing me.
i miss her . fucking hell. i do.
im so small in her right now.
prolly smaller den the width of a text cursor.
i wan to get her back.
i tried dumb methods.
i try to FUCKING lie to myself.
imagine meli is a new gurl and i've gotten over my ex gurlfren ( which is meli too)
fuck. the process is fucked up.
i've to inject myself with the illusion.
numb my misery.
and pretend . fuck.
when i was at my lowest point when we jux broke up.
she was there to build me up.
make me all ready for her again.
she told me the names of our children
she looked at my kitchen and said " our house will be designed lik this tis tis tis "
she inisisted tt i have to teach our kids hw to swim.
and fuck.
now she told me theres no future.
btwn us, there isnt any future.
*sigh*
i dunno whether its some faith which i hold in her.
or izzit my fucked up POV.
i dunno why i got a feeling that i still matter pretty much in her.
but becux she didnt see a future in us, thats why she force herself to believe tt she has fell for someone else.
fuck..
if i could read her mind and her heart.
no future?
wtf..
den hw did she make me believe and make me see that theres actually one for us.
her frens and i kinda solved out our differences.
all the while, they didnt not like me for me.
but instead they didnt lik the way i handled certain issues.
in other words, they hate the idea, nt the person.
we are no longer in schs whereby the sch is fucking against the relationship.
she admitted that she was a wilful princess last time
and will change for OUR sake.
and she did.
i no longer keep my problems to myself, that makes my days better and my temper better.
fuck.
and now, its left with her parents.
hai.
her parents are good parents in the sense that,
they protect meli.
but.. they protected her for too long.
imagine meli as a chick and her parents are the egg shell.
the normal process will be the chick wans to get out,
the shell cracks open
and the chick venture.
but right now. its lik this.
the chick wans to get out but the shell doesnt crack.
one day, the shall will jux shatter.
and the chick will not know anything.
hai. why didnt anybody see thats wad im trying to prevent?
hai. i dunno wtf to do.
im so fucking lost.
i can't live if living is w.o her.
theres a side to me and something abt her parents we yet to see,
yet to understand.
im right now somebody who is so filled with love and hatred.
i love her.
i hate myself.
i just want her back.
fuck, why did i love her so much?
why did i love her and nt be able to have her?
fuck.
she is ignoring me now, forcing me to move on.
wtf.
hw can i move on w.o her?
i remember when we were in bed.
she told me " even if nxt time u get married to someone else, u can only have sex with me and everynight u have to come to my place to have sex."
i didnt even know wad to reply.
i mean lik fuck.
i wun even tink of being with someone else other den her.
i wouldn't even allow myself to be with someone else, or she with someone else.
i've said b4.
if i dun have her, nobody can tink of laying a finger on her.
and fuck it, those werent some horny talks.
she was dead serious.
i love her so fucking much. wtf.
anyway, i've packed all our stuff she gave me.
clothes bag rings..
and a file which holds all her letter.
her broken comb.
our first swensen receipt.
the first plaster she used.
her clothes.
stuff lik tt.
even the turtle she gave me.
hai.
its nt easy .
those are the things which she gave me to motivate me.
to tell me that " hey. i wan u to see u in those clothes one day "
to tell me " hey. the turtle. its for u to prove ur responsibilities. we have to plan for our kid."
to tell me " we have reached a point whereby we have done this this this this this "
i've returned all back to her.
i dun deserve any of them,
anymore.
i was hoping jthat she browse through those stuff
and find the strength she gave me.
anyway, i kept a diary all these while.
i mean. after the break up.
if u guys are wondering hw i live from day to day, read on.

10th june

On Tuesday and Wednesday, I have been to her class chalet. It was so wonderful. For the first time, I felt so accepted by her frens. I met her at the porch of costa sand. Hai. I miss her so much but I can’t hug her. Im afraid im violating . I know she still loves me. But wad can I do? Im the guy she ditched a long long time ago anyway. We went to the beach. She sat infront of me. I hugged her from the back and I assured her..

“you will nvr fall cux im holding you “

But soon, it was too late. I wan her to get some slp becux I know the nxt day its gonna be fun filled for her. I told her many times to slp, she didn’t wan to. Hai. Can’t she see that I wan her to enjoy as well? I feel so dumb, so shitty.

I piggy back her for a distance of around 50-100 meter. She is heavy I gotta admit. Or am I jux weak. But I felt so happy when I piggy back her. I could feel her whole body on me. Hugging me so closely from the back. When her head comes near, I very much wans to whisper “ I love u. pls dun let go “. But im too afraid to. Im afraid that by doing so, her mood will be spoilt. I dun wanna let my emo-ness kill her joy.

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15th june.

I confess, im going crazy without her. I love her yes I do. She told me that im the one for her and im the only one. I felt so happy. I couldn’t believe my eyes actually. Having her to love me is still a dream. I very much wanted to reply that I wan to be with her. Forever and ever. Nth is gonna tear us apart.

But…

How can i? I bet till today she still dunno hw much I love her. I bet till today she doesn’t know tt I miss her all the time but I jux refuse to say it out becux I know she will feel bad nt being able to accompany me. I love her yes I really do and I dun wan to treat her as my shit hole and pour all my troubles and misery to her telling her how much I miss her and I wanna see her . I shall keep it all within me. Im a ditched guy. Its okay to have all these shit in me. I wan to keep her pure and nice. I so much wanna say “ hey, I would like to date u “ with the intentions of getting her back . but tell me, hw can I make her really really happy ? “

We do still hold hands hug and kiss when we meet. I wanted to hug her more, kiss her more and pull her closer to me. But can i? will she find me rude? Yes ,I know that she wans those as well, but, am I worthy? She is often unhappy when I dun initiate to hug her , to kiss her but wad can I do ?i dun wan to hurt her even more cux I know she will miss all the hugging and all the kissing like hw I feel right now.

But..

Could she guess my intentions? Can she see my love for her? Can she see that she isn’t actually alone and tt I haven’t left?

29th june

I miss her. I miss her a lot. I find it hard to smile when she isn’t around with me . I find it hard to even feel anywhere beyond sadness when she isn’t with me. All the happiness I project on the outside dun come from inside of me.

Why?

Becux I dun wan anybody to blame her for them having to see me unhappy. I dun wan her to feel guilty that I am unhappy. I wan her to see me smiling and remember me as a happy boy.

But…

I guess I’ve failed. I’ve lost to myself. I can’t stop tinking abt her. I tink of her 24/7. I can’t keep myself away . I tried gaming, I tried doing my work, I tried staying up at night , I tried banging my head , I tried taking very long baths, I tried starving myself. All of them doesn’t kill the misery.

But…
When I see her, im happy . im glad. Im so proud of myself when she still throw herself at me and that she still wan to see me. But damn me, why am I saying all these? I very much wanted to throw myself to her aswell. But .. can i? I dun even allow myself to confess that I still wanna be with her and I miss her . I dun even allow myself to even make her miss me.

But I can’t deny that its truly a flattery knowing that she stayed so true to me all these while. I swear she is the only one for me. But the thing is, hw can I allow myself to hug her and say my silly confessions when she’ve ditched me?

Yes she told me time and time again it was in a feat of anger. But .. it doesn’t deny the fact that im so small , so tiny that jux a moment of fury , she can take me away from her life.

I miss her , I miss her. I had nvr allowed anybody to come near to my com . I dun wan anybody to every read these documents becux I dun wan anybody to tell her all abt these to make her feel down, bad and guilty abt it.

Its Thursday, and I have principal of games later. I dunno wad time she ends . but I hope to see her when I go to sch or finish class. I dun dare to ask her out. I hope luck would be on my side.

Please, help me.. im dying.

14th july

5 more days to the nxt 19.i know she will remember this day. And I know she will tink that I’ve forgotten all abt 19s. but , how can I forget? Its so important to me . it marks the day when I promised her my undying love.

And till today, its still burning.
But..

Anybody knows?

I’ve no sch today. In the past, every Friday I end class at 12 and I will rush to meet her . but im always late. I had drawing as my last lesson and I wanna wash my hands so that I can hug her and hold her hand w.o her pushing me away.

Ppl. Do you know hw painful it feels to be pushed?

Im constantly feeding myself with such pain . I wanna tell her that I miss her and I love her. But I choose to be the good guy AND the bad guy at the same time. I dun wan her to feel sad tt im actually missing her and she knows well that missing somebody isn’t exactly a good feeling. and im the bad guy to myself..

Why?

Cux im a brittle glass bottle with all the emo trapped inside me. My unstable mind shakes the bottle , churning out gas which cannot be released. My love for her had capped my bottle so tight, that nt even an atom of emo gas can leak out.

One day if I die and all these were to be revealed, I hope she could understand my coldness, my emo-ness , my frustrations.

I dun dare to say much on hw will she respond, but I jux hopes that she understands and that she was nvr alone from the start.

Im always there with her. But I cloaked myself.

I love her. I miss her. And its only to my emotionless computer I dare to confess to. All these crazy feelings I have for her. I hope..she will feel the same.

I love u.. from the bottom of my heart, I do.

23rd july

Today I’ve completed my script. A script which I will nvr wan her to read becux I know that she wun see the whole hidden meaning behind.

I will keep this entry short and brief .

The whole hidden meaning behind the script is..

If theres a chance for me to make it up for everything which u feel that I’ve failed you, I will take the chance and nvr let go.

25th july.

I can’t slp. Its nt becux of work which is keeping me awake. Its nt becux of my growing gastric that is stopping me from losing conscious. Its becux.. once again…

I miss her.

I know I can nvr ever end the number of times I say that I miss her. But so wad if I say it a million and a billion times?

Will she know?

I dun wanna blog this down becux the blog reminds so much abt us. My life is so abt her.
She always say my life is abt bball and playing games.

Sigh..
I guess till now, she hasn’t felt all the love I have for her. The strong growing love , undying emotions I feel for her.i dun really quite get it. Why izzit that im so willing to kill myself jux to save her tears? The reason I could only think of is…

Cux I love her.. too much.

But den again, im saying this once more. Can I ever tell her how much I love her and how much I miss her? Wad if I tell her , jux right now that all the while I miss her and I love her and I wan to be with her no matter wad .can she accept it?

She is such an attractive gurl. So many guys are after her. I am nt the only one, and will nvr be the only one. But damn. How can I be the only one in her lik hw she is the only only one in me?

I weep I cry. But I wun let her know. She has better things to worry abt . she got her sch and her everything. I avoid very long msg-es to her becux I dun wan her to spend too much time tinking of wadeva I’ve said and ruin her life in process. I dunno if im playing as the good or bad guy..
But I hope my intentions were felt.

Its 2.17 am right now. And Im missing her. Can I stab myself to ease the pain?
No better not, im afraid I might leak out the secrets of me silently missing her .

Just to me and myself..

I love her , and I miss her.
I wont want to let u go.

9th august.

National day.
She jux told me she wan to watch nxt yr’s national day with me-live. I know I dun lik such shows but ..

For her.. im willing to .

I can picture ourselves sitting nxt together, hugging each other as we enjoy the spectacular display of the fireworks and her favourite army guys marching pass the stadium showing their impressive coordination.

For her, im willing to strive to get into this kinda NDP performance army stuff ( I dunno wad izzit call) hoping that she will catch a glimpse of me.

I know im silly I know im dumb. And I know well that I haven’t tell this to anyone. Nt even to her becux..

Im banning myself from telling her that I love her and I miss her. Yes I suck . sometimes I break the rules which I’ve set and still say those to her.

But I did that, cux I know if I dun, she will jux slip away from me.

And I nvr wanna know that she is going away from me.

Nt becux im an ass and I dun wan her to move on. Yes, I will nvr wanna see her with someone new cux I know I will nt stop loving her .but den again, who am i?

Who am i?

Pls tell me how can I say that I love her without her feeling down that I am feeling sad nt being able to see her ?

Pls..

I really dun wish to hide my emotions anymore. But wad can I do? I dun wanna bring her the pain of feeling guilty that she can’t accompany. I do wanna see her 24/7. I , from the start, already saw her as my wife. Somebody I wanna spend my whole life with.And that’s why.. this break up isn’t jux a break up…

It’s a divorce. A divorce I nvr wanna have. But .. I know I can’t do any shit abt it. I jux miss her so so much.

I miss her, can anybody hear me?

2nd September

Studio project had finally ended. I had such a great time with her yesterday. I spent almost 12 hrs with her and im so so so happy. We went to have good food. I had prawns though. She didn’t like the smell. But. I know I wanna kiss her. So I got a whole box of mint and completed them all.

She is so sweet. She brought along a smart shirt . she told me that it was an outer coat to keep herself from the cold. But doesn’t matter the reason, I felt that she did this cux she knows that im wearing smart today . I love her so much. So so much.

And know wad? She jux told me that her mom accepted us and had to wait till her exams end den we talk abt it. Tell the truth, im actually getting impatient. I mean. Finally her mom accept. Im so ready to make her mine. I wanna impress her mom her dad her everybody . I wan to be the only one in her. I love her so much.

Seems like all these silent emotions are beginning to pay off. She is happier with my existence. im nt pressurizing her with my constant “ I miss you”s and “I wanna see you”s.

Silly gurl, she thot she was actually selfish that she is taking me from all my frens. Actually, I jux played hard to please. From the start I already wnted to spend that day with her and all with her. My frens weren’t even close to the point of negotiation. I love her so much , how can I say no?

Today she watched me play WE9 on an xbox 360. I felt so proud to win infront of her. Everytime I score a goal, I hug her and I kiss her. She hugged me while playing . first time, she hugged me when im gaming. I feel so lucky.

I very much wanna turn ard and say I love her and ask her to be mine. Im jux too tempted to.

But..

It seems lik somebody else is after her. Calling her sweet names and stuff. Sigh.. I know im ready for her. Pls, dun let anybody get in the way pls..

Pls.. I beg everybody pls..

She is mine, I wan her to be mine.. pls…pls..

17th September

I dunno why, I got this weird feeling that shes gonna go away from me. I feel that im losing her. I nvr wanna lose her . nvr will.

I’ve told her my feelings , she assured me that she will nvr ever leave me nomatter wad.

Im so glad.

I felt so assured.

A few more weeks to go, and we will get back together.
I dun wanna distract her during her mugging period. I wan her to be able to study and promote.

Its nt that I dun wanna talk to her, ignore her or wad. I wanna see her too. But I dun wanna say it out cux I know that wuld distract her. I love her .. silently.

Damn, I feel lik a secret admirer suddenly.
But be it secretly or not, I love her.

Today’s entry will be short. I have mixed emotions now.
But I jux pray…

That she will nvr ever leave me
I love her…

I’m here to confide my biggest truth, and also my greatest mistake.

Let me state my identity once again incase one day I’m being forgotten. So let’s hope if one day I’m not around, somebody will search my computer for documents I left behind.

My name is Chiew Ming Hui. S88xxxxxX. I’m born in the year 1988 as a Singaporean and I’m typing this to say the things I might never have the chance to say.

I shall not use any flowery languages to avoid confusion or misconceptions in the process of being misinterpreted due to miscommunications which might cause further misunderstanding between you and me.

I’ve spent my last 4 years of my life loving a girl. Her name is Melissa. A pretty common name for such a splendid girl like her. Strange but true, this very special angel had fallen for me. Two different from two very different world somehow managed to synchronize. A very special bond was built. A very naïve taught of mine that this unique intermolecular force can never be broken by any power.

I was so wrong.

The people who build it defiantly have the ability to destroy whatever that was built initially. We call this “to a child, parents are god” And there is nothing the almighty god can’t do

I, by default, participated in the massacre.

The two very different natures of the both of us had churned out much interest to admire. The interest soon became a conflict as the both of us had different point of views to share and to contribute. The thought of building our utopia and the vision to be together brings us further day by day. We wanted to build a house with both ice and fire. The tickling cool sensation of ice and the vibrant color contributed by the blazing fire.

And this is when the mistake sets in.

I shall declare my identity once again.
I’m Chiew Ming Hui, the murderer of the bond we’ve built.

I’m a murderer in the name of love. In order to protect my angel, I’ve killed her. In order to spend more time with my angel, I’ve pushed myself away from her. The bliss to be acknowledged to be with her had made me suffered a jolt of amnesia. I’ve forgotten that like every other mere mortal who roamed this world in the same era as me, I too, is made of flesh blood and bone. I am no super hero who went through a gamma radioactive mutation. I’m a plain mere mortal who carries the unexplainable unconscious touch call “emotions”

Emotions. I am not going to read up dictionary.com to come up with a grammatically absolute explanation to what is it or how it works. I will just give my own deduction.
I am somebody who failed expressing my emotions. In order to protect the existing smiles of the people I love, I’ve suppressed all my frowns and kept it in the core within me.

But I’ve forgotten.

The most vicious fish lies in the deepest sea bed. I thought that by keeping it in the deepest closet in me, things will be fine. I was so wrong.

The Chronicles of Narnia explained pretty much why I was wrong. A closet placed in a room where nobody was allowed to enter leads to another dimension. Another dimension where by if anybody were to talk about it or if I were to finally confess to those whom I want to say to, I would sound totally absurd.

And thus, it’s my fault right now that if I were to confess my suppressed feeling of missing her, who will believe?

She won’t. She just won’t. I don’t blame her. It’s like suddenly you were told that the 911 was an act by the American politicians because if there is no war, they won’t make money. Thus sabotaging the Al Qaeda so that they will win support from their patriots.

Will you buy that?

I’ve failed her. Yes I’ve failed her pretty much. My silence brutally assassinated the fact that I’ve never left her. All I ask for right now is a chance to redeem myself, and a chance to build our utopia under the fusion of both fire and ice.

If man were made to err, please allow them to learn and make up.

just somethings i wan to mention to some ppl.

Dad, mom , sisters :

You people watched me grow up since day 1.
erjie always say i take too long to grow up.
well. i am growing up now.
hope i wasnt too late for u guys to see that im actually thinking.
and caring, and loving the people around me.
i always love this family.
and thats why i wan to keep the existing laufters.
and thats why i chose to not share my problems with u guys.
im lucky that my parents are open minded.
i tried to share this gift with melissa.
guess i've failed.
im sorry. i didnt manage to keep melissa with me.
im sorry mom and dad, u guys lost half a daughter cause of me.
i know mom dotes on melissa.
i know dad does to, but jux tt he didnt show.
i know the both of u love her alot.
dad, mom.
i do too. but im sorry.
i've lost her. as a result, u guys lost her too.
i wan to make my own decisions.
mom, dad. im going through a very painful phrase.
i love melissa. i know you guys do too.
i nvr thot of hurting anybody.
i dunno wad went wrong.
but all i know is that im so fucking screwed.
i've lost the gurl i love.
u guys lost half ur daughter.
wadeva happened multiplied the pain.
though shes the same gurl,
the pain of losing her isnt splitted up to share among us.
i pray she will be back with us soon.
lend me ur strength

Melissa's mom , dad and sister :

Hi there. i know i might nvr have another chance to talk to u guys.
thus, im posting it all here. hopefully one day somebody will refer u to my blog.
im sorry that i was once filled with so much hatred.
misunderstanding and misconception.
theres a side in you and me which both sides didnt see.
if we were given another chance, can i know u guys better?
in fact, i've dreamt of da day we all live together as one happy family.
i imagined myself buying nike golf balls for uncle waitong.
imagined myself buying egg tarts for aunty linda.
and melina, i saw myself helping u a little with ur studies.
ur sister is an amazing gurl,melina.
learn from her.
uncle waitong and aunty linda, im sorry for everything done in the past.
the actions were childish to you guys, maybe.
but i swear my intentions were nvr to screw up .
melissa is a good gurl. she is obedient, hardworking, smart, considerate, pretty.
shes a gem.
she've left me. i dunno why.
i don't know if u guys are happy abt it .
i know im bold to ask for this.
but can we have a nice talk one day. talk about anything.
im not fussy. i just want us to have a chance to know each other better.
and a chance to grant meli and i if we were to be together
again.

Andy :

Sage, thanks for being there for me.
u are definatly one of the wisest guy i've seen.
ur intelligence , ur wit, ur ability to deduce and conclude.
but sage,
sometimes, u take too long to calculate the gains and losses.
u take too long to weigh the pros and cons.
time wun travel at a speed according to YOUR calculation.
i've heard abt u knowing huiting.
i was quite shocked actually.
i looked at zara and ploy.
den i looked at huiting.
its lik u've got into a new music genre.
anyway, good luck.

Sl Kc Jowin Cheng:

barren. pw same as usual. clownmrminghui@gmail.com
i hope u guys dun rmb me as Klown, Synvotex, Inactive Taz or Polygons.
u guys watched me since 13.
Sl and i were the LOD last time.
Kc was crappier den i thot. when i was 13 and 14, i thot he is the quiet kind.
jowin. amazing.we know each other since 4.
Guys, thank u so much.
the number of people u guys interact with is rather small.
and im so damn proud to be one of the rare few.
thank u so much for being there for me through my teenage years.
Cheng, u too have watched me grow since 13.
u are one very real guy.
and hw i wish things are as simple as hw u tink they are

Connie :

I've nvr for once thought that i would be able to share nice conversations with u.
i'm sorry for all the misunderstanding caused.
I guess among all of meli's frens, u were the first to ask me
my side of the story of wadeva happened years back.
thank you so much.
and thanks for ur motivation.
thanks for seeing that i am the one for meli.
but i dunno if she sees it that way as well.
thank you.

Huiting:

You've been a fren of meli since primary sch.
i guess among all of them, u stayed with her for the longest time.
continue to stay by her side.
she needs u.
im sorry for all the stupid things i've said.
and all the stupid misunderstanding.

Aisha:

U were meli's first MI fren whom i really talked to.
thanks for standing by my side and slapping me with reality.
we are almost strangers.
but u were there when i need somebody to talk to regarding meli.
and thanks for trusting me with part of ur problems.
i appreciate that.

Samantha

we've known each other for almost 10 yrs.
thanks for trusting me with ur problems.
i know i've nvr done enuf as a fren.
im sorry.
you have a boyfren. he is in camp right now, fighting for the country
(yea, thats wad they say)
spend as much time as u can with him .
even if it requires u to travel to and fro. its worth it.
thank u for everything.

Huizhen

I'm glad that u finally got a boyfren.
im sorry that i couldnt do much abt ur problems with ur boyfren.
u and i are just frens.
not saying that "we are frens so dun fucking care "
but theres jux so much i can do as a fren.
and i will nvr be related to ur boyfren.
thus , theres nth much i can do.
but still,
cherish this relationship.

DM0507

Crazy.
u guys made my introduction to poly so amazing.
definatly there were times when we have conflict.
but wtf, we are still so close.
even after the specs seperation, we still make it a point to hang up.
to my closest DM0507 frens.
brian kaisiang xavier.
thanks for always looking out for me. thanks for taking care of me.
cj.
ur jokes are cold. but u make it a point to at least try to make us laugh.
thank u.
vincent.
u are NOT an unwanted soloist. u just didnt care much abt gurls.
siying.
u are the closest female poly fren i have. we two are definatly very very different.
and thanks for always encouraging me and always believe in my critics.
shirley and siqi.
thank you for looking out for me, caring so much abt my grades and attendence.
u two are naggy. yes, almost equally as naggy.
i know u guys meant well.

My current game classmates:

i hope u guys remember as the one who take sweets from the rich and sharing them with everybody else.
jayson have fun going after shelia.
suman and edmund, u guys made me fucking jealous to tell the truth.
i always wanted to hug melissa as much as u guys can.
vinod and edwin, u guys are amazing. u guys tried to make me laugh.
i did, thanks.
even though i am down with problems and shit, u guys were there to make me laugh.
and to amos (though u are nt in games).
i thot u were emo fuck. u too, did try to make me laugh. and im thankful for that.

DoLceVita:

u guys helped me realise that its not only pixels u earn in game.
its the frenship.
thanks for making us so influential with the bonding we share.

You:

Yes, you
the only person i will ever say such stuff to.
The time i get to spend with u is priceless.
The love we share can nvr be replaced.
I don't wan to type wad i wanna say to u here .
I would rather seize this chance to see u.
I love u.

right,
im off..
I am not telling anybody abt this entry.
i hope she will jux..
drop by someday if she tinks for me.
nvm...

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brianbday

2006-01-09T18:46:00.000+08:00

okay.
im typing this entry in sch.
yes!
once again im slacking in sch. rofl=)
first and foremost ,
HAPPY BDAY BRIAN.
U CAN OFFICALLY SURF P0RNNNNNNN
*flakes flakes*
rite, yesterday DM0507went to brian's place to celebrate his bday.
well we were one day early
but
who fuggin cares?
rofl=)
we had pizza and kfc for dinner.
well his mom cooked fried rice but i had none .
after tt , we gambled.
rofl. kaisiang lost 60+ bucks initially.
and i wanted to save his arse by winning his 60 bucks and cancelling out his debts latta on.
but.
fucking god played a fucking cruel trick on me.
i lost 60+ bucks along wif kaisiang.
man.
prolly cux im nt a christian.
*shirley plz bring me to CHC*
alrite. rofl. brian saved our arse alil.
end up kaisiang and my net lost was ard 30++ bucks.
many ppl went home after this.
left oni kaisiang quanhan shihan desmond and i .
rofl.
brian showed me some if his cool guitar tricks.
trying to pick up alil to impress mah babe.
rofl.
quanhan was betta den i xpected.
k im teh noob omfg.
rite.
went home ard mid nite.
the mofos decided to go home. man!
and i conviniently left my wallet and hp charger at his place.
fuck.
btw.
shirley jux told da class tt our storyboarding make up class will be on wednesday.
wtf.
norpakao fucking screwed up the day.
mah babe and i thot of having marche or fish n co on tt day.
omfgwtfbbq goodjob norpakao!
hm.
smting happened to dolcevita.
jt decided to step down as dolcevita master.
he has bigger plans for us.
off screen .
well. i dun mind being the master for new dolcevita.
anyway i created flamers inc and had brought the clan to fame .
fuck sk.
anyway.
yes fuck sk.
she almost screwed out the whole clan.
man.
fancy having her to whine during shagua a.k.a rosa's bday.
" WHY MUX WE TAKE CABBBBB"
fug j00!
rite.
to all dolcevita-ians
this was wad jt told me.
he feels tt.
he wanna take a break from ms.
and he feels tt. he wans to proceed to another stage with dolcevita,
its pretty obvious nw tt we are more den online frens.
he wuld rather we meet for dinner
or play streetsoccer or bball together.
rather den lvling scrolling and hunting.
rite.
i respect his decision.
but i wun let dolcevita fall in ms.
nobody will.
thus, i've decided to take his place as the master.
when jt returns, he and elfin will be jr master.
but things will remain the same.
both of them will still be the major decision makers for the guild.
heh.
anyway dolcevita has no rank
no heirarchy.
Hail DoLceVita!
man.
nw my major problem is.
fuck norpakao!
hw am i gonna meet mah babe?
unless she wanna meet me for dinner
yes plss =)
nvm.
burn her hse beat her mother.
muAHhahAHahAHahAH
k till nxt time
screwed!

hihihi

2006-01-08T03:35:00.000+08:00

hi guys.
im so bored.
its 3.34 am.
and i jux read alil of ichigo 100% scanlations.
man!
d4m well drawn.
makes me so d4m jealous.
hw i wish i can draw manga.
i mean.
realli realli good manga.
nt those simple static char.
draw gurls lik those u see in ichigo 100%.
i pm-ed rosa if she has the full scanlations.
but she didn haf them.
man!.
well. tmr my family having steamboat.
mah sistas' bf are coming .
and im all alone .
*sigh*.
this feeling sux.
the worst thing was tt
she didnt even bother to ask.
hai.
wad had i done wrong manxz!.
nw this is 1 d4m good reason why am i jealous of those anime guys.
they dun seem to face such problems.
u dun see gurls having to tell their mom
" MOM! IM GOIN OUT WIF XXX TMR ."
or
" DAD! CAN I BE WITH HIM "
kinda sh11t.
am i different or wad?
everybody ard me feels tt its okay for parents to control to such extend.
geez
gues ima wierdo .
sorry to implicate
but
i guess my family is wierd den.
wrong era?
wrong country?
wrong society?
sux0r.
better not go on.
everytime i talk abt this.
nth nice comes out from my mouth.
btw.
bleach isnt out yet
wtf
2 wks w.o bleach.
ended off with kuchiki's story.
hisana~~..
wtf she looked exactly lik rukia!.
u call tt sister?!
man i call tt twins!
prolly the oni way to differentiate them is by the birthmark on their arses.
rukia has hers on the left cheek
and hisana has hers on the right
and when u put together, they form a butterfly or smting lik tt.
i haf animation to do.
a box folding ,close, open, unfold.
prolly i mite try smting more dynamic.
nt becux this is easy. but.
jux wanna try smting nice.
oh ya.
i gotta be late for brian's bday party.
jux rmb-ed i haf steamboat.
zz.
and ya, gotta tink of the "pebble pet " commercial.
stupid toy.
seems lik life is pretty suky latly
or am i jux moody.
alil sick of this " oh nth so interesting " kinda days.
i need some excitment manxz!
" life is a bed of roses "
nah.
" life is an anime series "
=))
yes pray hard manxz. pray.
see u guys in anime-land.
but b4 we get there,
screwed!

hello , hi again

2006-01-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

hello! lol.
today is 2nd day of sch.
sux aye?
rofl
had animation test today.
haha.
and i oni brought 1 pen to sch.
yes! my godly 0.3 tip technical pen.
was really funny.
the lecturers didnt print enuf for my class.
end up. oni 4 students took the test
while the others wait for the lecturer to finish printing.
billy and i were at the back of this gurl , lookin at her qns
and theres a qns which goes lik this.
" how many frames will there be in a 1.5 hr animation "
LOL!
tt gurl infront of us did the calculation using the traditional method.
billy and i fished out our handphones immediately to calculate.
lol =)
well. went to town wif mah babe after sch.
she had meesiam again. -.-
and i had longjohn silver
guys, tell u all smting.
the SALSA cheese ljs is offering is quite..
wierd..
lol.
doesnt taste/smell lik cheese at all
its more lik.
some sause tt makes ur tongue really tangy.
=).
after tt, we went to haf yogurt.
mah babe had the honeydew one topped with pumpkin seeds.
i had peach with sunflower seeds.
well, its more lik icecream.
pretty new.
my first time trying it actually. lol =).
hmm, we viewed mah babe's dream mp3.
sony D5 tt is.
looks pretty "cheap"
but the functions are quite lik ipod.
ya lik wad they say " its an extended batt life ipod "
the capacity is 20 gig.
ard half a portable HDD.
for 500 bucks u get this cool gaget.
wonder mah babe wanna invest.
rofl, nxt we went shoppin for my clothes.
went to esprite and
yeap, bought a smart shirt.
mah babe chose it.
heh, good taste. im loving it.
*hums pala pa pa pa*
oh ya , its a gift from her
*muarkx* =)
lol. honey im beginning to njoy shoppin wif u =x
latta we went bits and pieces
cux mah babe wanted to get a pair of earrings
and i wan studs.
saw this diamond square studs.
woot.
pretty.
but too flashy. manxz.
so we went to moshi moshi instead
omfg.
i saw square diamond studs again
less flashy this time
i bought 2 .
one medium size, one small (cux i got 2 ear piercings)
rofl. and mah babe was choosing a ring.
yeap. i decided to get her our 3rd yr anniversary present .
cux. on the day itself. we will be in sch -.- < ) zz *fug sch*
anyway, i got mah babe this pretty unique ring.
its a 2-in-1 ring
lets imagine it this way
u put 2 rings together
side by side.
and haf a metal piece which width is as wide as the rings' width
melted on top of the 2 rings to hold them together.
polished and flux.
alrite , pictured?
nw imagine all these parts is created using 1 piece of silver.
pretttyy coooolll ayyyeee =)
anyway its in moshimoshi wisma as well =)
lol.
yes, bought the studs and ring.
headed to the train station to change my stud
after i put it on. and i found out.
o..m..f...g..
its still so..
flashy -.- < )
i look lik some nigga mafia.
my gf says i look so english.
NUUU!! i love my asian looks.
but mah babe say nt bad, quite nice.
man! dilemma
nvm. let me reflect tonite.
rofl.
till nxt time,
Screwed!

hunnieeee

2006-01-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

hihi everybody .
lol
tmr all the noobs finally goin to sch
u wake up early in the morning
u see young kids runnin across the road.
sch bus come , all the kids alight
some fugface specs nerdy crying for mummy.
and dumb kids run across the road
*bang*
omfg gg dun need go sch , another 3 mths holiday.
and its time for sec 2,3,4 ,5 guys to scout for gurls
oh i stop tt habit since sec 3 =)
i got mah babe =)
omg tmr marks the 2nd yr of mah babe's education in MI.
rofl.
=) she will haf new frens.
yes, nice new frens .
more new lame jokes from them
and
for them .
man. tmr i have to go to sch too.
long day
zz.
10am to 9pm
wtf.
but anyway, im quite used to this timetable.
i dun even bother asking for a change.
its pretty silly tt my class wanted to talk to the teacher.
yes they are concern.
but. come on guys . 8 wks had passed =).
live with it manxz.
okay back to mah babe
tmr she gonna wear her cute sch uniform.
i always love it when she puts on her uniform.
oh i love gurls in uniform.
betta if they got specs.
so honey~ if ur eyes pain nvm. wear specs oso very cute =).
i dunno why . i lub gurls who wear specs.
lol
makes them look so interesting ^^.
hohoho.
is tt a wierd fetish?
rofl. man.
i rather haf nice kinky specky gurls
rather den some
BIG BOOBS DUA NEHNEH BIMBO.
yikes.
canot even hug properlly.
kkay. lol.
enuf .
betta nt go on.
cux im talkin to mah babe nw.
betta nt lead me too far.
so till nxt time.
SCREWED!

happy new yr

2006-01-01T10:21:00.000+08:00

hi all,
happy new yr everybody.
lol.
any new year resolutions?
i have one, i hope her parents accept me.
yes, finally.
well. its a cold new year morning
gah sucky.
i hate cold mornings.
days shld be filled with sun!
anyway,
mah babe saw this sony mp3 player which she realli liked alot.
her parents,
as usual,
MISERS!.
mah babe done so well for her exams.
can't they just reward her? man -.- < )
im nw scratching and searching and ripping every edge of my wallet
breaking my 10 yr old piggy bank
to find enough for my princess.
lol.
yes, mah babe is mah princess.
a peasant one though.
whole life eat wheat and beansprouts.
rofl. even so, i will grow her the best crops!
did nth much during new yr eve.
was in maplestory victoria island the WHOLE DAY.
azurale leeched me till she lvl-ed .
rofl.
and if she were to ask me why did i treat her so nice?
i will ans..
" u are jt's fren . "
and fug, she wuld ask " wad if im nt "
D4M
gurls lub to ask this kinda qns.
wad if im nt manxz.
wad if my hse no keyboard.
wad if i got double-eyelids instead of single eyelids.
wait, i love my single eyelids.
i look so asian =).
rofl.
see, im oriental. so cheng, stop calling me an angmoh guy -.-
btw is the term "angmoh" racist?
we got cheena for chinese
azn for asians
blackie,stinky,smelly,oily for tamils.
niggas for black americans.
lol.
wonder hw do ppl get so creative to tink of these many names.
imagine naming ur son.
"azn lum kok bun "
the azn sounds quite cool manxz.
well, nxt
rofl.
man, i realli love drawing anime chars.
but i can't draw well u see.
i can picture everything so perfectly .
but when i place my pencil down.
omfg.
xavier thot me to copy from manga
but. i feel guilty doin so . rofl.
maybe i shall.
ur hrm.
secretly copy some.
lol.
anyway , its another new year.
yes. 365 days passed.
oh this reminded me of panda.
" loving u for 1++++ days"
end up tio reject
rofl.
kkie enuf of makin fun, till nxt time
screwed!

hi agian. zz nobody reads title

2005-12-30T10:36:00.000+08:00

Hi all! =)
today is 30th dec.
which means, andy the sage is back from hong kong.
well.
rite few things i wuld like to say b4 i blog this entry.
first,
no ulu replies in my tagboard.
lol.
come on manxz. be proud of ur identities.
rite. i dunno who are
kgghkj , The mofo and candy.
kgghkj prolly is somebody who is testing out my tagboard.
so im quite alrite with it .
i jux went " huh? " when i read it.
" uhkjhkj "
U Have Kuku Jiao , Have Kuku Jiao.
maybe~~
rite, nxt is TheMofo.
rofl im sure he is one of my frenx.
since he knows abt the pepper sauce at phin's steakhouse.
rite.
nxt.
WHO THE HELL IS CANDY!
"Candy: hi~ want break faster break.. don't want minghui give me la! he so good.. (>.<)"
zzz
i dunno anybody name candy.
i dun even know if anybody by the name of candy knows me.
rite, i shall nt mention much abt this shemale hefemale or ..
wadeva -.- < )
right, yesterday mah babe and i went out to town.
she dressed well.
no more kiddish jeans and tees.
some nice tops and white skirt .
she wanted to eat meesiam from shaw.
wtf. go all the way there to eat mee siam.
aint tt bad manxz. i hate vemicelli.
but the gravy tasted alrite.
after tt, we went to wheelock to get my ipod fixed.
at the same time , to get her adidas wallet.
yeap gurls ( specifically to gurls)
theres a new adidas wallet ard.
a long , ard 17 cm wallet.
those clothy kind/
there are oni 2 colour schemes though.
one is > black on the outside , HOT pink on the inside
the other > white on the outside > neon green on the inside
i prefer the black piece.
the hot pink realli goes d4m well with it.
but mah babe prefers the white one.
well , its her wallet =)
oh ya, side track alil.
mah babe told me one of her frens got an
ur hrm. ur hrm. and they ur hurm cux her urhurm urhrm-ed
i prommised her nt to say the issue out.
BUT ITS TOO " OMG! " .
sl ,kc,jowin,panda. i might consider telling u guys .
depends on hw mah babe responds to it.
its no big deal, jux.. shocking.
for me.
alrite. nxt we went to fix my ipod.
which i thot was spoilt.
got my queue number.
waited for half an hr.
oni to find out tt my ipod batt was flat.
see one thing abt ipods
when ur batt goes flat. even the pc usb wuldnt provide enuf energy to boot it up.
thus, i need to get an AC adaptor.
man!
kkay , we went shoppin after tt at taka.
to shop for my clothes actually.
hmm, maybe i wasnt in a shoppin mood.
ttx why the things i see dun realli please me.
but anyway, we got andy's bday present!
a blue jordan 30 yrs tribute tee.
and i got myself adidas predator soccer jersey top.
the black and red piece, nt the white and gold .
nth went much after tt.
she had to go home by then,
AS USUAL~.
rite. last reminder
NO ULUS~
kkie , this reminded me of smting.
sl and the others thought of a way to say " LOL " many times.
it is ..
"LOLES "
which is the plural form of lol since u added -es behind .
LOLES! pretty amazing aye!
arlite! gtg
Screwed!

right

2005-12-28T10:04:00.000+08:00

kay. this is gonna be an entry where u can expierence a fluctuation of mood.
last nite mah babe and i got a bad conversation.
it seems tt im still so insiginifcant.
nt quite > insiginificant <
just tt .
nt smbody enuf to urge her to do smting different.
to make a difference.
went to MS for a lil while.
DoLceVita cheered me up a lil.
vew gamesync.net>forums>maplesource>screenshot>my DoLceVita .
i appreciate the effort.
but still.
i dunno why.
mah babe's words seems to be alil more overpowering.
see, it isnt quite easy to jux forget abt the whole thing.
not jux y snappin my fingers.
it takes time.
prolly , im still so small.
3 yrs ago i the problem begins.
and 3 yrs latta
im still fighting .
well nt exactly 3 yrs.
still haf to wait for abt 1 mth more before i can declare tt we've been together for 3 yrs.
we are goin thru a hard time right now.
*sigh*
im in sch
and i haf no mood to listen to wadeva the sensei is saying.
im so ...
my mind is so packed with mah babe and all the things she said .
all i wan is to give her a perfect world.
but it seems tt .
she is always rejecting wadeva i offer.
and accepts anything which comes along by other ppl.
even things which she rejected when i propose them.
*sigh*
why is tt so?
its not as if im inferior .
its just becux of all those restrictions
and barriers.
mah babe and i yet to conquer.
im ready , i am.
im waiting for her turn to be.
wait,
im nt gonna wait.
i've done enuf of waiting.
why am i always the one who is steppin back?
the earth is round.
i can step back a million . a billion , a zillion step.
but rmb, the earth is round.
we will still bump into each other.
theres a limitation to how much can i give in to her parents.
but if we can just meet.
and talk in a peaceful manner.
isnt tt way way better?
i'm confident tt i wun lose a single word.
i wanna negotiate.
im already giviing my last desperate wield.
will she back me up?
its pretty silly to think that much when im quite aware tt nth much can be done.
it seems lik im doin this all alone.
alone.
i know we can be more den we are.
im very certain about it.
but till now, till this very sec im typin this line.
im nt given the chance to.
im still holding on.
yes , i am
im nt gonna shake. im nt gonna losen my grip.
why shld i ?
i've done nth wrong to lose anything!
im nt rebelling for goodness sake.
i just wanna get wad i ought to get.
nth more.
i dun xpect the world from her.
i jux wan...
her.
and her trueself.
i dun need her to hide in my presence.
i've said
nt till i truly get her.
nobody else can lay their fingers on her.
nt even the slightest touch on her skin.
now i sound evil.
im lik the evil king, locking up a princess.
but .
sometimes i have to be selfish.
i know after this things will be good.
but, will she bother?
man,
screwed!

i swear i do

2005-12-28T01:51:00.000+08:00

i love mah babe.
i swear i do.
i've nvr thot of anybody else.
well
prolly if u include manga chars
but they are all graphics.
they were drawn to perfection.
but mah babe isnt.
there wasnt a template for her.
there wasnt a guideline.
there wasnt a reference book.
there wasnt a specification list.
she is jux so perfect by nature.
to me of cux.
flattery flattery.
yes , mah babe deserve it.
i love her so much.
yes, we are goin thru a hard time right nw.
i shall be honest. yes we are.
but .
the root of this whole thing is becux..
we wan each other more den we can have each other.
its swt yes its swt.
but it has its price as well.
honey.
we shared many dolcevita.
dolcevita means "sweet times" in italian.
i love italian food.
sharing pizza with u is a dolcevita.
sharing a glass of ice lemon tea with u is a dolcevita.
huggin u to slp is a dolcevita.
honey, for all these dolcevitas i've mentioned.
pls.
cherish u , cherish me.
i dun need smting dynamic in this relationship to say " wow im loving it "
i need u and me. and blessings and bliss.
i love u.
i swear i do.
but till nxt time.
screwed!

Im so alone

2005-12-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

Haix
im feeling so alone.
everytime at this point of time, i will tink back at wadeva i've done.
for the day tt is.
or smtimes. for the past few days.
hai. and i found out tt im so alone.
i thot of elfin and lihuang.
they are always together.
jux lik mah babe, lihuang's parents are strict.
but, she is so willin to step out of the comfort zone.
hai.
when will mah babe do tt?
im so ...
frustrated.
just because of her fuck up parents, we get all these shit.
mah babe realli needs to start a revolution within her family.
she refuses.
haix.
i will be there to help her. i will
i promise
i swear.
im lik a sack of drug.
her parents are lik cops.
and mah babe is lik an indonesia drug lord.
i've to be hidden.
hai.
wad wrong have i done?
im feeling so empty.
my chest is so tight.
my breaths get heavier and heavier.
my lungs had lost their pipes.
i shut my eyes.
i see nth.
and ttx hw empty i felt.
mah babe lives 3 train stations awy from me.
but we meet up as though she is living in another country.
i really wanna have her with me.
i know it wuld help the relationship.
yes im certain of it.
i bet every drip of blood i haf tt things will be so much better if we haf the freedom.
freedom.
something mah babe and i shared different views abt.
to her, freedom has to be granted.
to me, freedom has to be fought.
ttx why.
till today.
despite all the fuckup-ness tt we are going thru.
she is silently anticipating for the day to come.
where by her parents grant her the freedom.
as for me,
well, you know d4m well i wun sit here and do nth.
pls honey, give me the green light.
i will draw out my sword and pick my shield.
i will show you wad can i do with my will.
the battle won't be long.
im all prepared for this.
i gonna show u ima cut above ur folks.
i gonna prove tt im superior .
or at least.
far beyond wad they tink i am.
i know i can do it.
wrong.
i know WE can do it.
honey, fight with me.
i will catch hold of every drop of tear .
i will find every lost strand of hair.
i will admire as the light hits ur face.
life is short.
i wanna keep this battle brief.
i can spare ur parents.
yes i can.
call me arrogant. i dun care.
right now im nt gonna hold anything back.
pls, give me the green light.
it isnt deja vu .
i repeated my request.
yes, you are wif me .
emotionally , spiritually .
but those are just plain thoughts.
to put things across bluntly.
mirage.
im nt a shaman.
i cannot cast my thots to reality.
i needa fight to get it.
honey, pls give me the green light.
yes,i've hit the hat-trick.
im desperate.
i really am.
*sigh*
pathetic, pathetic.
let me do this one more time.
i close my eye.
and i dun even see a ray of light.
screwed

yes im back

2005-12-27T00:35:00.000+08:00

yes im back. lol.
i dunno why but yes im back.
well , i guess mah babe is waitin for my return at blogspot.com
and my butties are also quite supportive
and yeap here i am.
and i guess i gonna use a pretty plain default skin b4 i create my new skin.
so , i kinda lost everybody's link.
pls update me thx.
and i dun tink i gonna add anybody whom im nt close with
pretty dumb dun u tink so?
rofl
" OH LINK ME PL0X I WAN MY NAME TO BE ON UR BLOG KTHXBYE"
so ya. alil update on myself .
im studying in nyp DMD.
yes still playing maplestory *ROFL mmo mario *
currently a member of DoLceVita. =)
Rite.
xmas had just passed. im gonna skip tt. pretty pointless anyway.
this post is nt so much abt wad happened last time.
mah babe and i gonna be 3 yrs pretty soon.
rofl, time to plan new surprises again.
see the funny thing abt relationship *yes out to u guys *
is tt , when u plan surprises,
MOST of the time, things won't go out the way u wan it to.
but trust me, u wun stop planning more surprises.
tell the truth, my honey comes from a pretty strict family.
im lik a criminal to them * oh yes *
and .. theres so much restrictions between us.
and cux of tt, my surprises always fail.
Lol.
alrite, i try nt to whine abt it okay.
anyway, 2006 is arriving.
and as usual, i dun bother plannin my new yr resolution.
prolly get my hair back faster =) *i shaved my hair and cut some wierd patterns behind*
nw the hair kinda grew abit.
i look dumb.
yes i do .
alrite. this thrusday im meeting mah babe.
we are goin queensway to eat laksa.
lol, all the way there.
she will be getting a bag most prolly.
she got bag fetishes.
den meeting Sl and the others to watch narnia again.
its a pretty good show. i dun mind watching it AGAIN.
i've been slping kinda late these days
my bodyclock kinda switched
i sleep at ard 3 right nw.
and i wake up quite early.
why? lol.
cux i send my gf to work everyday *when she is working*
and i will haf to wake up at 6+ 7.
well well , its worth it.
trust me.
lik i've said. my gf and i dun meet up often
sending her to and fro is the ONLY time we meet.
hai, wonder wad haf i done.
her parents are so against me.
prolly 1 day i shall release my bankai =) .
rofl. smtimes i realli wanna be an anime char.
and guys.
dun read ichigo 100%.
fucker manga.
fuckkup guy gets get all the gurls.
Nishino. wtf!
the manga-ka is good.
the manga is suky.
all u see is nth but cute gurls revealling pantis .
zz -.-
K HONEY I DIDNT READ TT MANGA, I JUX BROWSE THRU THEM AND TOSS THEM ASIDE.
okay. i got alot of unfinished shit to do.
i haf to hand in my sketch book to NORPAKAO or wadeva u spell tt name on wednesday.
fug.
i guess i gonna do my layout and zzzz.
yes . a normal default one.
as for nw, lol
screwed!

..l..

2005-03-09T21:03:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.
been quite awhile since i last updated my blog.
well, right nw , im stil waiting for Sl to accompany me to
get our pays.
lol. all the way to kaki bukit.
well, havign sorethroat.
grr!!
but still t0kkin to mah babe.
yes , as usual . during the nights.
hMm, caught some movies latly.
Hitch and Series of unfortunate events
i feel tt series of unfortunate events > Hitch.
well , hitch isnt tt bad
maybe it just didnt hit my expectations
to tell the truth, i xpected alot from tt show .
the preview made it seem so good.
Series of unfortunate events is a very sad show
its a sadist comedy actually.
it makes u feel guilty laufing =)
LOl.
Shz said Howls moving castle is nice.
mah babe dun seem interested in it.
among my frenx, i guess oni louis interested .
*sigh* guess i gotta give tt show a miss.
my hp plan is ending soon.
gonna sign a new plan =).
well, shld i get a new hp?
if yes, wad model and why.
i wan swing or slide fones.
flips is quite alright as well.
but nvr for the candybar version.
SL got nokia's flip fone.
forgotten the model .
it starts wif a 6.
its a flip btw.
and according to him. the func seems to be quite cool.
but nokia doesnt quite appeal me.
sumsung seems to attract me more. but the funcs ?
nt quite sure.
well, no point tinking too much.
i might nt even change my fone
waiting for mah babe. we promised to change fones together.
Helped Liz change her blog layout.
new inspiration for mah babe =).
To mah babe : if ur new blog wanna haf a dark layout, tell me. I GOT PICS PREPARED!
heard tt we will get our postings at the later part of March.
hope all of us get into our choices.
Sl wasnt very confident in getting into DET.
he got 12 points for L1B4 . shldnt be a problem.
Louis got 8 points for L1B4 , shldnt be a problem to get into DMET .
Mah babe seems to be very sure of her future rite nw.
she seems to be moving towards the buisness courses
me, i hope i get into my choices too.
well tokkin abt mah babe.
she will be goin to da buisness side
and me, towards digital and creativity.
nxt time, our opinions will be veri different.
she will be very realistic.
i will be overly imaginative.
well, today went to KFC wif mah babe for lunch.
i ordered a zinger meal for myself and a whip potato + ice tea for mah babe.
well zinger and cheesy fries gotta wait.
so very well, i took the whip potato and ice tea for mah babe =)
waited waited waited.
until mah babe finished her potato
and.....................
MY FOOD HAVENT ARRIVE
i noe for sure she forgotten abt my food.
seeing tt i got 3 bucks plus of coins.
i thot of buying shrrom meal for my sis.
nw the evil part comes in.
i went to order for my sis shrrom meal.
i was served by a diff cashier
total cost of meal : 2.55 bucks
i gave all my coins
the lady calculated
and returned me the balance
i pushed back the money and say " auntie , forget it . keep the money . treat it as a donation from me to help pay for treatment to improve ur staff's memory "
she looked at me , puzzled
she push the money back to me again
and once again i said " auntie, let me be nice and donate "
i gave a sacarstic grin .
so she asked wad happened
i say " well, ur cashier forgotten abt my order and made me wait "
i told her which cashier it was who served me.
well tt auntie told me tt she went for lunch and asked me wad did she owe me.
i told her tt she owed me my zinger and chessy fries.
the auntie packed them for me .
b4 i left . i said to her " well, KFC in northpoint makes me appreciate mac even more "
once again gave a sacarstic smile and walk away.
d4m if wuldnt for mah babe who is rushing for time.
i wuld haf been a greater arsehole.
i culd haf called for their manager .
i , as the customer, is always right * no qns asked*
so why carn i see the manager , if u guys are wondering.
first qns to him " wads ur basic requirment b4 employing ur staff? cert or attitude?"
the following qns will depend on his ans .
working in robinsons had taught me hw to be a total arsehole customer.
well, i dun show attitude to those who dun deserve it
but if one person from ur side trigger me.
oh good game to u :)
well, till nxt KFC visit
Screwed!

But a bitch aint 1

2005-03-05T18:52:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.
long time since i updated mah blog. and heres one SUPER UBER long entry.
stay awake :)
entry dates , from 28th feb to 4th march

28th Feb, Monday

Omg tis is a ball shaking day.
Lol, time to take our results.
the nite b4
sl kc panda louis and i were tokkin on msn.
we were discussing abt monday .
well, we met at 11 am
noticed fat long wasnt wif us.
omg he is out of our league .
heh.
we met at Yishun mrt station btw.
den we went to BK for lunch.
heh, we didnt order our food till 12+ becux we waited for jowin.
he was still workin on tt day
hardworkin boi!
Sl and i ballshake soo much until we didnt manage to finish wadeva we ordered.
we were too nervous.
Bk was dominated by 4e5/2004 students.
more den half the customers were from 4e5.
Lol .
we went back to sch at ard 1++ pm.
balls still shaking.
soon , we heard the announcement asking all of us to proceed to the hall.
d4m. balls shake even more!
grr!
went there,
mdm tan crapped.
mr tan crapped.
showed us the ppt slides.
well, we did relativly well.
an average drop of 0.3 points as compared to last year.
but too bad . not 100% passed o lvls.
MuahAHa. ytss gotta take down the banners ! :)
no more top in yishun!!
well, overall our class did well
average of 15.5 points.
pwned 4e4 and 4e6.
and we did way betta den expected
to mr tan, we saved ytss ass :)
he emphasised " 4e8 and 4e7 didnt produce enuf distinctions. but 4e5 saved the sch. they produced results way beyond our expectations"
ya say tt im proud oh i dun care.
but at least im proud tt my class produced the results :)
top scorer is shaopeng from 4e8
8 pointers .
Phew . Pro!
well ting ting and huiyi done our class proud .
they had 9 points.
fat long got 10 points.
i noe he is d4m happie. but he gave tt "big deal " face.
and i noe tt louis is d4m pissed
in his heart " wtf. i lost to tt lard "
heh.well
sl kc panda jowin louis and i were the last few of my class to take the results.
balls shake k!
ms goh kept asking me to calm down.
Lol.
when its time for me to take my results. ms siti said " minghui. u sign first den i giv u "
i was lik " !!! d4mmit. ! quick !!"
den i jux took the pen and jux anyhw draw a few lines *LOL!*
ms siti looked at me shook her head.
my balls shook even more
den she revealled a weak smile and say " mh , u got full of 3s, a 2 and a 1"
LOL!! WOOT!!
i jumped and shouted " WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!! "
lol!
well , here are my results.

English - B3
Maths - B3
Combined Humanities - B3
Science - A1
Dnt - A2
PoA - B3
Chinese- B3
L1r5 - 15
L1b4 - 12

Becus i dun haf cca, i didnt manage to get tt 2 points reduction.
well, overall my clique performed well.
Louis got 13 points
Kc and Jowin 14
Panda and i 15
and Sl 17.
well, went to look for mah babe.
didnt see her anywhere.
i called her hp.
she switched off her hp.
so i thot she was too happie wif her results, went to play and didnt even notice tt her hp was switched off.
well, sl kc jowin panda and i went to GR Travel to book tickets to genting.
and heyhey! :) we got em.
jowin , due to some last min changes, didnt manage to join us.
latta, mah babe called.
she was crying.
and i found out tt she got 29 pts for her L1R5.
and she wasnt happie abt it.
i was lik " why wasnt u happie? "
29 points was a huge improvment as compared to her prelims.
she managed to pass those subjects which she struggled.
and im so glad tt she passed through them.
she showed improvment in at least 3 grades in each individual subjects.
on a case to case basis. based on her past results.
she shone and outclassed.
as an individual, she showed great improvements and potentials.
well, did a lil bit of tokkin wif her =).
after tt, sl louis and i met at yishun mrt once again.
tis time we are goin to KC hse to taunt b4 we go to genting the nxt day =)
we reached his place. registered for JIS .
heh . =)
these are my choices

1st> Digital Media Design
2nd > Digital Entertainment Technology
3rd > Mechatronics Engineering
4th > Creative Media Design .

Lol didnt manage to tink further more.
well, watched louis play O2Jam.
den latta, louis went to bed
kc went to bed.
left SL and I.
we were discussing abt wads life after getting our results.
talked about signing of bonds.
well, i can say tt Sl gave me a very matured point of view.
and i can see tt he is a very careful person.
certainly planned a good life ahead. =)
yes, we do share different opinions abt tis issue. but he did a great job selling me his opinion.
after awhile, we decided to go out to the 24 hrs coffee shop for supper.
noticing kc's sista ,cord, is still awake,
we took advantage of tis and requested for her to open the door when we returned.
she agreed =)
went out for ard 1 hour.
heh, when we reached hm. kc's sista's eyes barely opened.
so she went to bed.
and the com was officially Sl and mine :)
wanted to play gunbound, but server down.
so both of us became cheeky.
we went to MIRC #Sex.
nick : Shagshee.
soon tis guy >nick pilot< knocked on our door =)
he gave his intro , 23/m and we gave ours 25/m
*blah its fake but who cares* he didnt reply.
lol!
so sl and i changed our nick Braless_1
WTF! so many despos .
all msged sl and i horny peeps and guess wad .
LOL! Pilot was one of them :)
heh
so SL and i decided to prank him.
tis time our intro changed. 17/f/chi :) attractive :)
well, we managed to turn him on. he was realli convinced by sl and i .
and in tt chat window,
sl and i told him tt braless's boifren ditched her :)
and after 45 mins, he said tt he gtg.
lol.
he said tt he is goin out to lentor and asked if we wanna meet.
well .
tis time sl and i decided to let him noe he is punk'd.
the ending part of the conversation goes lik tis

Pilot> Im driving to lentor. wanna meet?
Braless_1 > Huh? lentor? can u do me a favour?
Pilot> Wad?
Braless_1 > Can u help me beat up my boifren. he stays ard there too. and im sure u noe him
Pilot > I know him? who is he?
Braless_1 > Shagshee :)
Pilot > U alot of time hor!

LOL!! PUNK'D!
heh =). well mah babe called.
she keep saying tt she didnt wan me to go genting and wanted to accompany her instead.
i offered to stay at her place for 4days 3 nites.
she rejected.
soon her frens called.
offered exactly the same ting.
stay by her side for 4 days 3 nites.
she accepted their offer.
oh nice. nw to mah babe.
her frenx = ppl who stood by her side.
Me = the bf who walked awy.
*Sigh* ....

1st March , Tuesday

Tis is the day when i set my foot on genting for the first time.
lol. sound noobish yea?
i have been to other places b4 though
but its my first time at genting :)
we took a cab down to golden mile complex b4 boarding the bus.
its a 6 hrs bus ride though
louis nearly puke along the way.
lol.
after 6 hrs. we reached our destination.
genting's first world hotel.
according to the package. we were supposed to stay there.
but kc's parents booked a more luxurious hotel at highlands hotel.
lol.
so right now, we have two lodging places.
well, highlands hotel seems to be more attractive.
so we decided to settle down there.
the best ting is the bath tub :)
lol.
after puttin down our stuff,
we headed off to fun.
SL introduced to us " mary brown"
its a fast food restaurant lik our Macdonalds and KFC.
the food there is VERY affordable and quite nice.
i rate it 6.5/10
too famished. complete it within 10 mins =)
walked around and saw "Omega Force"
well, lookin at our fat wallets.
Lol, we decided to give it a shot.
first was range shooting.
smting lik air-rifle.
ima noob. so i screwed tis up
dun ask me how =X
2nd one was 3d stimulation game.
nothing much. just lik those normal gun games u played in arcade.
d4mmit.
all of us were faked.
we thot its smting lik laser mania .
kinda dissappointed though.
nxt we went to archary.
LOL!
fun! . its my 2nd time doin archary
first time was in china.
Sl and louis were shooting on their own target boards
Kc and i were shooting other ppl's target boards
=) lol!
Sl even introduced to us double shots.
placing two arrows and launching them together.
KC wanted to try arrow rain.
Lol!
feelin kinda tired after the long bus ride, we went back to the hotel to rest.
watch some tv.
no p0rn though.
but many sports channal.
every nite there will be WWE *updated ones* and at least 2 soccer matches.
soon, clock struck 630.
its time for dinner wif kc's parents.
went to The Olive to eat.
its a restaurant.
Sl lurve the soup and the dessert.
I njoyed everything except for the veg and coffee.
lol, nice.
after tt meal, sl and i keep saying " lets go The Olive " wheneva kc and louis asked us where do we wanna settle our meals.
after dinner, we splitted off wif kc's parents.
we went to play pool.
and wt*insert profanities*
malaysians are so obsessed wif billard, they hardly haf tables for pools
and oni 8 feet tables -.- < )
after pool , we went to watch a movie Seoul raiders.
Lol!
crap funny show.
Oni cost RM10 per tickets.
heh,
bought cup corn into the theater.
one ting good abt genting is tt u can find cup corn everywheere
*YUM!*
kk back to the movies.
its in cantonese though SL and Louis didnt get anyting they said
Kc and i handled the movie kinda well.
overall the movie is kinda nice.
WASA-WASA-WASABI!
Lol .
headed back to the hotel. bath and slp *zzz*

2nd March, Wednesday

Tis day = fun.
Outdoor theme park day.
after buying our entrance tickets to the outdoor themepark
we had our disgusting breakfast at ard 12 noon and den headed to the themepark.
LOL!
we had the cyclone first.
mini roller coaster.
very good introduction
Lol.
after the first ride i concluded GENTING IS FUN! lol!
next we headed for corkscrew
its a standard rollercoasters wif some inverters.
but. maintanace >:(
so we looked around.
woo! SPACE SHOT!
its a ride where by u will be shot up to abt 75-90m above ground.
den after a short period of time
VROOM!! u will zoom down.
i tell u . when u are coming down
ur arse is off ur seat
wadeva tt is holding u down is the safety crusion pressing on ur shoulders
louis ball shake lik hell.
lol!
he nearly cried.
we sat space shot twice and he nearly cried twice.
lol
kc gave a very good remark
" when u go up there. u tink u are already very high up. budden when u look above at the amount of distance left for u to go up . u say "wtf still got sommore ""
Lol!!
next we went to corkscrew.
wow . roller coaster again.
tis time. its a standard longer one.
we took the ride 2 times becux we wanted to hav the back seats.
back seats = front ppl pull u down as the slope goes down = fast! =)
haha!
u can realli sense the difference when u sit at the back.
nxt we went to fantasy world. d4mmit . looks realli creepy
they told me to lead the way
d4m.
but when we get outta everything.
my first thot " -.- < )"
lol! sames go for the pirate ship ride.
" -.-< )"
Lol!
nxt we went to SPLASH!
yay! .
the "rollar coaster" on water.
we thot we will be d4m wet.
but
dissppointed.
im nt even 1/8th wet.
lol!
latta we went to sit gold miner.
rollarcoaster in a "gold mine"
d4m fawk bitch .
the person incharged there didnt allow us to wait for the nxt train after noticing tt they dun haf 4 slots together
d4m attitude
fawking bitch . GO VISIT UR MOM AT THE BROTEL! UR DAD IS A CRIMINAL NW FAWKING THE TOILET BOWL!
d4mmit.
didnt allow her to spoil our day =)
we went to play bowling.
LOL!
i made a fool outta myself.
i tried to do stupid tings at the ally
infact. i did stupid tings at the ally
i threw two bowling balls at a time :)
i threw the ball across half the ally b4 allowing it to roll lik normal
u stood at other ppl's ally pretending to be aiming at his pins .
LOL!
after tt went for dinner at grilling stone.
but kinda feel as though been bumped back into the caveman era.
lol. cooking food on rock.
RAW beef im tokking abt.
another introduction by kc and sl.
den after tt , we tried playing billard.
our accruacy is not to tt standard yet =(
after 1 game of billard, we went back to play pool.
lol! nw pool seems so easy
nth much happened at pool.
norm games .
went to starbucks to get some beveges. =)
thot of mah babe.
she is the starbucks queen!
LOL!
Went back to hotel after tt.
watched tv bath slp.
end of 2nd day in genting.

3rd March , Thursday

Today is shopping day
=). woke up at around 12 again.
went to eat breakfast at Sushi king.
not very impressive though.
wasnt very value for money
expected more from the tempuras.
after tt, we went to the cyber cafe.
Lol! 3 RM per hr! OMG! cheap!
played gunbound there
once again, all the noobish side of us revealled.
heh =)
well, latta we went shopping.
i bought a necklace, earrings and tigger crushion for mah babe.
an intersting mug for my sis and a pair of earrings for my other sis.
SL showed the romantic side of him *shall nt reveal too much*
Louis bought gifts for all his > FEMALE < colleges.
heh =) .
ran outta boxers =( so i gotta get at giodano *dunno if i spelt tis correctly*
embarrassing .
first time bought undies for myself.
lol
its a salesGIRL who approached me
and she even asked " wad size"
-.- < )
wtf embarrassing .
went to kenny roger for lunch
lol. LOUIS MADE A NEW FREN
THE WAITRESS =) .
she praised louis on his looks
aww.
we shared all our side dishes which consists of marsh potato , sweet corn and cheese macoronies*dunno if i get tis word right *
well , walked a lil more after tt.
den louis wanted to sh1t.
so we made our way back to the hotel b4 we come out again to get clothes.
Sl bought some sleevless tees.
lol. wanted to haf tt simon image =)
louis and i bought 1 shirt each since its a " buy 1 get 1 free " offer
Kc bought 2 no fear shirts.
attitude captions behind.
wanted to look for more.
but nth was up to our standards
CMI* and NUTS**

*CMI = canot make it
**NUTS = not up to standard
Shanlong bought famous amos cookies
so did kc.
louis and i oni bought some candies and chocolates =).
and once again!
STARBUCKS =).
Mocha frap wif cream =)
oh man! wonder wad mah babe had done to me
nw ima Starbucks addict!
under the influence of the starbucks queen.
i had slowly evolved into one starbucks king.
LOL!
well, back to hotel
tv , bath , zz

4th March , Friday

back to singapore. nth much happened =)
oni tt the dumb bus ride is 8 hrs due to TRAFFIC JAM!
d4mmit.
and the bus driver d4m attitude.
well,
till next time
Screwed!!

Screw ur mom!

2005-02-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

Hey jiggas .
it has been ard one wk since i last updated my blog.
my hand is showing me attitude .
well. i have quitted my job.
byebye to blackie siva.
i guess i can get a good 400++ bucks =)
heh.
no more boring days.
no more lonely lunches.
no more twisting. =)
lol!!
well tmr o lvls results.
balls shaking.
heh! =) Sl me kc panda and louis meeting .
11 am at yishun mrt.
DUN CARE ABT FAT LONG.
ask him out is always a " !!!"
he will ask dumb qns lik " got who go?"
"do wad?"
"after that ? "
den after lotsa qns. he will reply " no money. dun wanna go "
..l..
well, mah babe jux told me tt she will ignore me if i get a betta grade den her =(.
hope we get the same grade . and the same good grade.
and same goes for sl and the others.
all same grade.
15 and below will do. im nt too greedy =) lol.
imagine seeing our names on the power point.
dun need too good. 10 points will do =)

10 pointers

Chai Leon Jowin
Chiew Ming Hui
Lai Wen Hong
Liew Shan Long
Ong Kay Yong Louis
Wong Kai Chin
Poon Keat Yeng Melissa

Lol oh nice one :)
well,
currently we still dunno we goin to genting anot.
d4mmit.
due to much changes and obstacles we predicted,
we will be putting the decision till tmr.
after we get the results =)
btw tmr wearing my class tee.
lol. hope we will be allowed.
no sch logo big deal? LOL!
oh ya ~ betta get my testimonial from mdm tan.
d4m.
regret being a bad boi. nw hav to go thru so much sh1t!
but nvm.
at least i oni break rules which i feel its redundent.
wad " joinin cca even though u dun lik it " "no ankle socks" "no bags of tis kind tt kind" " no spiky hair"
..l.. lick ur mom's cunt mr yeo!
those rules are dumb rules.
they ought to be overlooked.
restricting freedom too much will oni lead to rebels.
and soon i will carry out a REVOLUTION.
Sattish raul , guna , murali , kishaw! HELP ME!
together we overthrow mr yeo and his ..l..-ing rules!
d4m.
i carn wait for da day i remove my stitches
I WANNA EAT MUSSELS!
oh yay. tmr maybe im having dinner wif mah babe.
well, actually depends on hw she schedule everything.
maybe wif her frenx
maybe wif me.
Oh well .
Maybe she gonna stay overnite at mah place :)
yay!
btw she will get a new hp if her L1R5 is below 20 pts.
wow good life.
she will get a new com and digi cam + a new hp if her l1r5 is below 15
-.- < ) i wonder where her parents print the money from.
prolly her dad pro at photoshop editing.
scan in 10 bucks . edit to 100 bucks =)
d4m imagine tmr b4 i take results . ms siti look at me wif a frown " minghui.. how can u get such grades.. u ask ur consious. can u hold ur head up high after noeing tt......... U TRASH LOUIS BY 5 POINTS!! "
=)! lol!! k nvm!
well . my balls are shaking.
till tmr .
SCREWED!

Stitches

2005-02-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

hey kiddos
tis will be a fairly long entry
so if u dun haf the patience. i suggest u can read it some other time =). or jux skip it .
heh
today met mah babe
she came to mah place.
watched tv slept .
after ard 2 hrs.
we kinda had a minor arguement.
lame argument.
tink back. omg . dumb .
LOL!
she ignored me and didnt wanna reply
and i got so pissed off.
i punched my glass cabinet.
whole door shattered.
one piece fell on mah babe
she was crying in pain .
and grabbing her shoulder
i was " !!!"
i went to check
and i hugged her.
when i release my hug
i saw the shoulder she was grabing.
was bleeding *on her shirt*
i was lik " WAD THE HELL"
so i pulled down her collar.
....
wad a small cut.
den i was wondering hw come so much blood on her shirt.
den i look at my right hand.
*wT!!!!!*
i actually haf cuts on my hand.
lol!
she was oso shocked.
my whole fist was covered wif blood.
Lol.
mah babe quickly washed my wound
d4m pain.
den we cleared the mess.
lol.
and becux of this shit.
we made up =).
lol. well i vacummed and clear the glass.
mah babe mopped the floor.
and i dry the floor.
lol.
i did all those with my hand still bleeding.
and btw. she was wearing mah shirt den.
so latta on b4 we went to see da doc.
she got changed back to her clothes
and i look at the shirt she wore jux nw
and i was lik " WAD THE!"
lol!
gang fight!
well, i brought along an extra shirt
becux my shirt was stained wif blood too.
heh. reached silver cross.
got mah queue number
waited d4m long
went in.
da doc cleaned up my wound
and he said need stitches.
OMG!
and he injected anethesia *dunno hw to spell tis*
WOOT PAINFUL
held mah babe's hand d4m tightly
but the stitching up wasnt tt bad.
quite interestin actually
3 stitches in total
and i crapped alot
i sang the song " numb" in my heart.
LOL!!
and total . 100 bucks LOL! =).
mah babe was surprised tt i still can crap at such situation.
in fact i crapped since the moment we stepped outta my hse =).
heh.
went to fish and co glass house latta for lunch.
culdnt take mussels =(
no choice.
lol.
we had our meal.
MmM. Nice.
i used my left hand to eat.
LOL! no choice.
den latta
time to settle bills
they dun accept NETS.
woot!
lol
gotta go to parkway to withdraw.
=( . left mah babe alone at fish n co .
sorry babe *muarkx*.
latta mah mama cored to ask me wad happeend.
LOL!
she thot i scared o lvls results and as a result
bang my head against the glass cabinet.
wt*insert profanities*
salute mah mom.
at such situation. she stil can remain so calm and crack lame jokes .
lol!
well, i lied to mah mom.
didnt wan them to get worried
guess the oni person who will read my blog is my erjie
so erjie
secret ar! =)
oni u xin and sek shall noe =)
well. jux to go a lil offtrack.
yesterday i was so bored during work tt i actually checked out the spongebob squarepants toy.
lol!
i press its nose and it sang " OHHH!!! WHO LIVE IN THE PINEAPPLE UNDER THE SEA! SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS"
lol .
and today i asked mah babe the same qns
who life in the pineapple underthe sea
she said its me.
so i asked her so where i come from
she ansed "pine apple under the sea "
-.-
mah mom is a pineapple under the sea.
pwned.
well. tell u guys smting
TODAY I SAW KAIYIING AND A GUY FROM HER CURRENT CI TOGETHER AT PLAZA SINGAPURA.
SPREAD! SPREAD ! SPREAD!
lol =).
well. ttx all folks. =).
till nxt time.
SCREWED!

Middle finger to the law

2005-02-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

hey!
today entry will be short
cux mah babe gave me a time limit of oni 5 mins.
well . to start off
mah babe and i had breakfast today
yea mac again
and i was late for work
why?
cux d4m train so d4m slow =(
but mah babe is punctual
Lol! =) .
well today work suk.
stupid store manager
came twice
once becux my collar was cumpled
i was lik " my shirt is big and u wan me to wear my tie properlly "
well i was fine wif it
went to the toilet to adjust
latta he came agian
he ask " why is ur attire so untidy?"
i was wt*insert profanities*
i jux adjusted my attire
den he ask " why is ur sleevs so long "
once again
i was wt*insert profanities*
he added on " im the store manager. dun blame me for throwin u outta da store "
once again
i was wt*insert profanities*.
LOL!
mah dept manager , stefinie didnt say anytin negative abt my attire
instead she feels tt my attire looks great on me.
and my customers didnt even complain
wt *insert profanities*
wanted to outclass / outwit him.
d4m. but didnt have the chance to.
he scrammed too soon.
d4m
he wanna chase me out
go ahead.
im working for comtec
nt robinsons
i dun have to give a d4m abt dumb rules lik " long sleeves"
__ *suck mah willy!*
on top of tt
if he fire me.
he has to ans to SIVA
why?
cux he is chasin away siva's promoter
promoter = push product to market.
robinsons is indirectly challenging camtec.
and i have nth to fear if i have to tok to the manager again.
im nt being arrogant , turnin a blind eye to autority.
budden why is he barking?
d4m.
anyway i have enuf expierence in sch.
lol .
always tokkin back to teachers/ discipline master / principal .
=) .
store manager wanna outclass me?
IN UR *INSERT PROFANITIES* WET DREAMS!
=)
d4m sonnawabich. dun let me embarrass u.
i shall challenge him again tmr.
d4mmit.
my sleeves my problem.
u nt happie come challenge me.
IM READY SONNAWABICH!
Till tmr when i challenge tt sonnawabich
SCREWED

I JUST FEEL SO NUMB~

2005-02-18T20:52:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey =)
it has been a long time since i last updated my blog.
well,
today go work today.
pretended to be sick.
D4M BORED.
dumb job
btw mah babe took mc
she is nt feeling well
*Muarkx* hope tt makes u feel betta.
and she is stubbon.
offer to get her herbal tea but she didnt wan =(
to mah babe :
dun take herbal tea but mux take lotsa water k? =)
she fiddled wif my blog.
tried to add mp3 and stuff but failed. becux she didnt wanna shift the pics which i drew.
heh =) .
well tts veri considerate of her.
=).
well, went to play pool wif SL kc yongwee and his CI fren.
heh.
his CI fren play 2 rounds lose 2 rounds. den he afk . -.- < )
Lol. den we continue on our own.
fun =) .
lolxxX!
tis time didnt go to orchard to play
wanna void SIVA .
lol. we named the black ball SIVA!
=).
played ard 4 hrs .
sms mah babe
omg her auntie didnt go to hse to take care of her
d4m.
she alone hungry =(
wanna get her dinner. she didnt wan .
rejected =(
btw. we went to S11 for lunch/dinner ( uhh. nt sure lol)
it was raining so badly. so after we ate.
we stayed there
crap some sh11t.
lol! .
den we went to the train station after tt.
kc took a diff train becux he is goin towards marina bay while sl yongwee and i were heading towards jurong east.
we were packed wif PHS gurls.
they walk in and sl and i say " CMI "
lol!
and den i told SL " dun tok so much. maybe they see us . in their mind oso say CMI " =X.
btw they were d4m noisy.
tok so much nonsense.
typical b1tchy teenage sch gurls.
Btw.
Maplesource is plannin an amazing race . =)
heh.
Organizers : Boneyrag, Child, emotionz, guardian and i.
Hehe =) .
any maplestory players wanna join ?
u gotta be a member of maple source.
url : maplesource.net =).
well, lookin forward to tmr.
gonna hav breakfast wif mah babe .
OLE =) .
heh. but tmr hav to work.
TO ALL BLOG READERS .
COME VISIT ME.
ROBINSON CENTERPOINT LVL 5 .
IM PROMOTING THE TOY BRAINTWIST.
COME ACCOMPANY ME.
lol!
k till nxt time
screwed!

I hope u too

2005-02-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.
jux to give u guys a warning.
in tis entry
my mood fluctuates.
started off well.
mah babe and i met each other at 1030 at ocbc.
wanted to cook salmon for her again
but cold storage didnt have any stock.
i cored mah babe and she was cool abt it.
so i bought salmon sushi for her instead.
she accepted it well =).
came to my place. watched some tvs.
and we went out.
watched "i do , i do "
local production.
shld give some credits to the crew.
the show wasnt tt bad.
its oni tt the ending was kinda twisted.
its up to u guy to decide whether u guys lik it anot.
latta while goin hm.
we chatted on da fone.
once again.
me,mr screwed, became a lil unreasonable.
kept asking her qns lik " why am i hidden ?"
*sigh*
she got pissed.
canot blame her.
i noe she didnt wanna risk the relationship.
i noe its smting i have to understand.
but.
i wanna be smbody she can be proud of.
smbody she can tok abt.
nt smbody who she cannot bring out.
im nt trying to be a show-off or anyting.
but its jux a natural feeling.
well.
met sl kc jowin louis and panda at mrt station after sending mah babe home.
she hung up on my cor when i told her tt they haf arrived.
i knew she was pissed
so i sent sms-es saying i can accompany her and tt i wan her company.
i was serious
but she thot tt i jux wanted to ignore her.
she asked me many times am i coming online to update my blog
i told her yes .
and i request her to wait for me for awhile.
but 4 i culd type tis entry
she has gone offline.
i told her i will cor her.
but b4 i called her.
she was already angry
pissed.
slept.
fuming mad.
i cannot put the blame on her for being impatient.
cux .
ultimatly
she is a female.
and its oni right tt she wans to be pampered and spoilt.
and its oni right for her to tink " why shld i take the initiative"
i mean.
gurls are lik tt.
i cannot blame her for being her gender.
budden, i have frenx to entertain.
and i offered to sms her.
once again,
i cannot be angry wif her .
becux if i were in her shoes.
sms-es is nth compared to fone cors.
i told them my frenx were leaving soon.
and true enuf.
they left ard 20 mins after i send her tt sms.
but she didnt manage to wait.
she was too pissed.
haix.
she was so pissed tt she actually told me nt to accompany to work tmr.
nw 2 options for me to believe.

1) take initiative. be thick skin. insist of meeting her tmr. she might be blabbering sh1t cux she is angry
2) take her words for it is. she say dun wan to see me. i betta nt see her . might piss her off even more.

i always take option 2.
but tmr. i gonna take option 1.
i jux hate it when mah babe is pissed wif me.
make me tink of those happie moments which we are nt living in rite nw.
why? cux i made her angry.
ppl might say " meli is a gurl who gets angry easily "
budden once again. izzit her fault?
some might say " YEA! "
but once again. if i noe she gets angry easily
WHY TRIGGER HER ?
its lik i noe tt needle is sharp.
den why do i still pierce myself wif a needle?
*Sigh*
alrite. i admit
my fault.
she is mah babe. and jux lik me.
she hopes to get attention from her other half.
i canot blame her.
*sigh*.
hope mah babe forgives me anytime soon.
well,
till nxt time
SCREWED!

vday.com

2005-02-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

eloz peeps.
Lol! t0day is v-day
and *Sigh*
3rd vday which mah babe and i didnt spend together.
WHY?
cux bz wif other stuff again.
omg.
but nvm tmr we goin out.
and my frenx are most prolly comin over for dinner
and we gonna gamble.
heh.
i can bet my furniture , hse, telephone , rice cooker everything!
AND WE GONNA GANG RAID PANDA!
he make him walk home NAKED .
oni leaving his sword with him!
MUahHAHA!!
tmr we shall discuss tis w/o panda's knowledge.
HeheheheHe.
lets check whether his d1ck is realli black and white =)
Hope kc and jowin can make it.
and nw im startin to wonder if fatlong and lucy noes abt tis.
oh ya . rmb to stalk up soft drinks latta.
eh. tmr dinner. STEAMBOAT!
not the marina those kind.
i dun have the "bbq-plate"
or u guys wan my dad to cook?
i dunno u all discuss among urselves. tmr i get ingredients.
and panda if u got ps/ps2/xbox . bring over oso =).
hehe .
Btw jux came home.
jux accompanied mah babe off from work.
wanted to cut my hair after tt.
but *woops*
left my wallet wif mah babe.
lol!!
luckily when i reached yishun i met connie and huiting.
rofl.
connie helped me get thru da gateway.
she tapped her ezlink and both of us walk thru it.
HEHEHE!
ALL THE AH PU NEH NEH WORKING THERE SLPING!!
Pwned the blackies!
omg. im suffering from serious bballlessism .
Wanna play bball.
almost 2 mths didnt play bball.
nvm. wed gonna play wif my sis bf and his fren =)
MuaHhaHA.
btw i gave mah babe her vday gift today.
its the starry pandent from taka jewellery.
she has been eye-ing on it for MONTHS.
k let me be nice for once =).
Heh.
and tmr shes comin to my place
and as reqeusted.
i gonna cook salmon for her again.
Lol!
forgotten the recipe though.
dunno the proportion of each ingredient.
nvm.
anyhow add. LOL! bound to work somehow.
prolly taste nicer.
HEHE.
Tmr gonna watch movie wif mah babe.
any nice suggestions?
she watched constatine.
we were tinkin of watching " I do I do"
lol. sound lame.
Singapore director. sure many cold hokkien jokes.
Sl said elecktra was good.
waiting for Hitch and Series of Unfortunate Events
=). these two shows = mux watch.
oh yay. siva gave me break until friday.
den i tink. i will borrow my sis GBA =) .
Well till nxt time,
Screwed!

NanANanaNanAA!!

2005-02-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

hey peeps .
its me again.
lol! everyday update blog.
today work .. AGAIN.
so empty.
at every point of time. there are less den 30 customers.
omg.
robinsons goin bankrupt
ole =) .
hehe!.
btw today got one "insert any profanities" customer.
his son knocked down my toys while playing wif my sample set.
so i went over to pack the toys.
fearing tt he might knock down more.
i actually stop him from goin nearer to da boxes by placing my hand on the sample set he is holding on to.
my intention was to stop him from moving closer.
budden who noes
he pass me da sample
so his dad thot i snatch da toy awy.
so he stare at me
and i stare at him back
den he say "i wanna see ur manager wheres he "
LOl!! FUN! FINALLY CAN SHOW ATTITUDE
so i give the sacarstic smile and say " im nt sure . but u can check wif the customer service counter"
end up he culdnt find the manager and went off
D4M! NO FUN!
btw. mah babe came to look for me today
wasnt planned though
she brought a bottle of coke
heh
swt ar *Muarkx*
and i finish it within 10 mins.
LOL!!
mah babe is swt.
well
its valentine's day tmr.
once again
3rd yr.
mah babe and i were too bz wif other stuff.
culdnt even hav dinner together omg -.-
btw. tmr no work .
siva off me till thrusday.
LOL!
nice =).
well, mah babe facing some prob nw.
so till nxt time.
SCREWED!

Quit ! I WANNA QUIT!

2005-02-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

Hiiiiiii ppl .
t0day = boring.
only the morning was nice.
early in da morning met mah babe
accompany her to work b4 i go work myself
supposed to meet her at 930
but HAH!
SHE WAS LATE .
she reached at 940.
lol! =)
accompanied her to harbour front.
she liks to make me look lik a small time gangster.
wif tucked out smart shirt and wif the first button unbuttoned.
LOL! =) .
actually i kinda lik tt image too.
looks casual.
she reached the cable car station and she was suffocated by 4 blackie stinkbombs.
LOl!
she msged me tellin me her agony.
lol
to mah babe :
i understand hw u feel =) .
hah =)
latta met the new camtec promoter.
his name is feng jun btw.
he d4m asshole.
he called me and asked me where to meet
i told him outside paragon
he replied " Huh.."
so i asked " so wheres comfortable for u?"
den he asked me back " so where u wanna meet? "
i was lik " wt *insert any profanities here*
so i replied " i asked u the same qns first. so pls respect my qns and ans "
den he " orh orh orh. paragon den "
lol.
when i reached there i called him and told him to meet outside Metro.
end up, he went outside and waited for me at the taxi stand.
omg . -.- lol . wierd fella
reached Metro. showed him the toys.
taught him hw to promote.
and when i ask him to promote to him
he said " D4m tough . i tink i after today wanna quit "
LOL!!!!
den i ask " u realli wanna quit?"
he nodded his head.
just when he said tt . siva called and ask " eh hws the new promoter "
i ans " ur new guy say he wanna quit "
den tt feng jun lol
he exclaimed " I NVR SAY I WANNA QUIT ! "
lol!!
so i replied " alrite. he is scared nw. he dun wanna quit "
LOL!!
latta went back centerpoint.
siva brought 2 new promoters.
tis time 2 gurls.
one call june and the other call moon (omg wad a name -.- )
same thing.
briefed them.
but they had expierence last time.
so it isnt tt bad.
well, robinsons today = ghost town.
NOBODY PATRONIZE.
omg robinsons go bankrupt pls.
sold 13 dumb toys.
so d4m boring.
*Sigh*
legs are aching.
feel lik quitting.
but for the money and SL's effort.
*Sigh*. i gonna endure a lil longer.
but no garuntee though.
i dunno when will i quit.
lol!!
tmr gonna borrow my sista's Gameboy Advance there to play.
heh.
so bored =(
hopefully my sis lends it to me.
well, after work.
met mah babe at somerset mrt station
she wanted to pass me smting
and omg!
ITS AND1 TEE AND BALLER'S PANTS
OMG!! NICE
LURVE IT
*MUARKX* BABE.
lol!!
well. connie was wif us.
*sigh*
spoilt the mood a lil
cux mah babe gave ALOT more attention to connie.
and yea . *Sigh*.
well.
ttx all today . omg the shirt d4m nice.
Lol!
and ..
pls have buisness tmr.
or at least a gameboy advance.
well,
till den .
SCREWED!

Camtec Sh1t company

2005-02-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps.
Mah babe is anxiously waiting to read tis entry .
cux she noe tt she will be da main char today.
but first of all.
lets welcome shanlong back to singapore =)
he spent his CNY in m'sia . heh
well.
today went back to work.
so d4m empty
lik a ghost town.
so i ask mah babe over to accompany me.
well she didnt reply
i thot she didnt receive my sms.
and i got so bored.
so i went to da toilet.
hide there.
dun wanna come out cux its so d4m bored.
suddenly mah babe called me .
OH SHES HERE TO VISIT ME =) .
lol.
well she looked at the toys.
she fell in lurve wif da merc convertable model.
luckily its jux da model and nt da real car.
anyway doesnt matter.
her parents will get for her a car sooner or latta.
they got da buying power anyway =)
-.- < )
well , after awhile she went off.
went to watch constatine wif her frenx.
and *Sigh*
bored again.
empty robinsons.
oh ya.
mah babe managed to spot edmund .
lol.
he is working in 7-11
centerpoint outlet. LOL!!
time to ask him dumb qns lik " when 7-11 closes?"
hehe!!
well
managed to sell 17 dumb toys to 17 retarded customers =)
i tried very hard to get fired.
im so bored while working
so i purposly sms while working
d4m. nobody caught me! >=(
well. i knocked off at 830
and mah babe came to meet me
heh =) accompany her home.
finnaly get to see her again .
once again in ..... ages?
heh =).
tok alot of nonsense. yea as usual.
tmr can report to work late.
11 at paragon orchard.
got 2 new newbs joining stupid camtec.
i gotta train them to be promoters.
gotta teach them wrong stuff =)
make them quit in 1 day.
seriously if wuldnt for sl who reccomanded me tis job
i wuld have quitted.
stupid commision
so low.
and so boring.
im working it becux i appreciated SL's effort.
grr!!
btw . vday is on monday.
and mah babe and i gonna work .
-.- so once again
third yr in a row.
vday screwed by commitments towards responsibilities.
dots.
guess we are starting to be lik young adults.
whereby work always screw up plans.
Hmm. heard tt 28th feb we will be gettin our o lvl results.
ball shaking rite?
lol! =) .
hope all of us do well.
down greenbean brain ! down edmund!
lol. sl rmb the old saying?
"lets rise for the fagg0ts"
lolx. =)
may the faggots pwn.
yea,
screwed!

gh3yism

2005-02-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

Hi dink donk bells.
Mr screwed is totally screwed nw.
*SIGH* .
im nt enjoyin any of the 4 days break siva gave me.
thot i culd spend at least one of em wif mah babe.
who noes.
Fate once again played a screwed trick on me.
4 days . didnt even manage to spend time wif each other.
why?
cux she got her frenx and family to entertain.
*siGh*.
nw i feel so *aRghhH!* .
hAIx. and once again i gotta repeat the same old line
i hate it hw imperfect life can be.
esp mine.
btw jux watched mulan.
made me tink hw does mulan look lik last time.
mux be lik syfiah.
look lik guy.
d4mmit. go inside camp oso nobody notice.
cock eye captain.
In a d4m "!!!" mood rite nw.
sh1t.
*Sigh* jux found out tt it has been a long time since mah babe and i last catch a movie.
in fact
it has been a long time since we last went out.
suddenly feel lik rippin her parents apart.
pluck out her dad's testicles.
electricude her mom's tits.
grr!
why mux they always stand in our way?
d4m .
to mr and mrs poon. pls do mankind a favour. dissappear pls
and gong xi fa cai to u too.
aRgHHh!!
2 days of CNY holiday. mah babe bz visiting her relatives.
me too :'(
and lik i've said earlier on
everybody ask wheres mah babe.
and wad do i have got to ans " she bz "
3rd year in da row " she bz "
sh1t. i begin to hate my days.
d4m boring.
tmr gotta work again.
earn money.
pamper me pamper mah babe
lift a small % of burden off my folks.
money money.
blackie siva u stink
pls giv me my pay via bank transfer
i scared da money u giv me got ur smell.
btw few days ago so bing asked me wads " AH PU NEHNEH "
guess im da best to ans tis
bing. ah pu neh neh = blackie stink bomb
clear enuf?
imagine wad if siva gets to read tis.
omg he gonna call his stinky gang over .
hope i gt enuf ambipure freshner wif me.
yesterday i went to visit my relatives.
den while goin to another place
we passed by some coconut tress
d4m
i thot we were goin to lil india to challenge each other hw long we can hold our breaths
but luckily
my mom assured me tt we were nt goin to lil india =)
im in a super sacarstic mood rite nw.
d4m.
i jux asked mah babe to find a day
where by we can spend from morning till nite.
she said its impossible.
*Sigh*.
got the "liquid drop" feeling.
btw
jux got to met her today.
jux for ard 2 mins
at northpoint
she pass me my studs i gave back her mp3 and swiss chocolates.
den after awhile
she gtg.
d4mmit.
why? cux of her family.
d4mmit.
troublesome bunch of ppl.
*stabs daggers up their arses* .
ARgH!
in a d4m fawkup mood
till nxt time
SCREWED!

Rite

2005-02-09T01:24:00.000+08:00

Blogger is down for me.
So I got no choice. Gotta ask mah babe to help me upload tis entry .
Btw I typed tis in Microsoft words.
Lotsa spelling error.
Budden I dun giv a d4m. rofl.
D4m irritating red wavy lines !.
Well, first and foremost.
Happie lunar new yr.
Who says money dun drop from da sky?
Take a look at yr red packets.
WAD U GOT INSIDE? TISSUE PAPER?
MONEY MONEY F4GGOTS! MONEY! . =)
Well.
Bad start for mah babe.
She got pissed by her parents again.
Once again the poonie folks are pushing their weights.
And tmr .
My aunts and uncles +cousins gonna ask “ Long zai, nvr bring gurlfren along let us see ar?”
And wad I gonna say again?
“ She got her visiting nt free”
Lol. Same story.
But *Sigh*
Wad to do? Her parents ****up .
Btw. Blackie siva gave me off till Friday.
He emphasized “ DUN FORGET TO COME BACK TO WORK ON FRIDAY”
Lol ,
Even so, I sms-ed him if I can take a break on Friday to go out wif mah babe.
Most prolly he gonna say no and ask why didnt I make use of tt 2 days .
*Sigh*
Woot. Wad am I gonna say?”Cux mah babes parent ****up. Well, canot blame her for poppin outta her mom’s sticky cunt”
Just mass invited ppl to mah msn window shared by panda and i.
Rofl.
CHAOTIC.
Btw mah parents gave me my red packets.
*press*
FAT =). Lol
Well, after Chinese new yr = o lvls results
OMG! LOL! BALLS SHAKING RITE!
Well. I hate it too.
O lvls results makes me go *shaky*
Lol. Imagine having L1R5 above 20 points.
Omg.
I dun wanna end up in da same sch as randall.
If nt I cannot assure tt I can control myself from humiliating him in public.
=)
I put in relatively good effort.
Heh
God has eyes =) oh wish me good luck wish me bad luck wish me born wif a baby duck!
Well,
Happie nude year ppl =).
Gotta go nw.
Screwed!

Work Work Work

2005-02-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps.
After working for 3 days . i have lots to say ( 3 days cux i took off yesterday due to renuion dinner)
Well, working at robinson suk.
D4m strict.
Attire mux be neat , canot use hp, canot put on ear stud, canot spiky hair.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
well. actually selling tt dumb toy isnt tt bad =).
First day my sales was 8 dumb toys
2nd day was 15 Dumb toys
and today 32 DUMBTOYS!
i kinda got the hang of it =)
But standing there for hours
Omg tiring.
And due to my good sales performance.
BLACKIE SIVA GAVE ME OFF DAY TMR
muAHah!
well, working there is kinda torturing for me.
Culdnt sms mah babe =( Culdnt even reply her.
gotta wait till lunch .
why? cux the boss is always in his room lookin at the cctv.
robinson is guarded by cameras TO SPY ON THE WORKERS.
D4m
since when the boss become security guard.
goin to the toilet suk.
becux the toilet is located near the clothes department.
and when i step outta da toilet.
everybody beginning bombarding me wif qns regarding clothes.
and i gotta say " sorry im incharge of the toys department "
den i gotta pt to " Ms-Quiet-Looks" ( i dunno her name ) and say " u can refer to tt lady over there . she might know "
den i gotta fake a smile >>> :)
Btw "Ms-Quiet-Looks" looks veri quiet.
But dunno if she realli is.
Didnt bother to interact with her.
My manager Stafinine is kinda " ... "
every morning she will come and ask " Ah boi, got put on ear studs today? "
den when i say no she will say " Good boi " -.- < )
Embarrassing.
luckily she didnt pat on my head or wad .
makes me look more lik a kid shoppin for toys rather den a toy promoter.
I lurve break time best. =)
1 hr to sms/cor mah babe to check on her.
but today she was Zz-ing.
so didnt sms much =( .
Xpected her to Zz .
sundays are always the best day to ZzZz =)
Well i shall advertise once more.
I AM WORKING AT CENTERPOINT ROBINSONS 5TH FLOOR SELLIN TIS DUMB TOY CALL "BRAINTWIST "
Lol.
btw, why shld i care.
my commision is oni 10 cents per sales.
luckily i got basic pay. if nt BLAH! . lol
Btw tis is for SL
Hey SL.
siva dun look botak , no beard or wadeva sh1t.
he is a black paikia wif multiple ear studs.
And he smells lik adidas body spray . YUCKS.
Well, shz jux called.
shes facing some prob.
Nt exactly big but jux knotty.
she mite be calling tonite.
well, tmr is an off day.
But jux for an ending signature.
Screwed!

Dumb Toys

2005-02-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

Hi pinheads.
t0day me, Mr screwed, started work.
Went to centerpt wif Sl early in da morning.
reached there at 10 am as told by blackie uncle Siva.
And he wasnt there.
Latta he screwedly called some other guy to picked us up.
his name is Amos.
looks lik the WenXiong from happie fish.
Lmao.
Sl got posted to PS and i stay at center Point.
my desscode : White smart shirt ,black smart pants and leather shoes.
Dumb!
Well. i got their company tie and badge.
the tie look a lil gh3y but the badge looks quite cool =).
my job : sell dumb toy.
Name : Braintwister Puzzle.
Stood there for ard 3 hrs and sold 2 sets of dumb toys.
After lunch i sold 6 sets!
D4mmit. stupid toy.
i wuldnt even buy it myself!
My pay : 5 bucks per hr basic + commision
sound cool rite?
Commision = 0.5% of my sales
i today sold 8 sets of tt stupid toy to 8 stupid customers.
20 bucks per set
so my commision 60 cents *OMG!!*
Lol.
One of my staff thot tt im oni14.
Dumb gurl.
She asked " Ah boi, u not scared police catch ?"
I replied " Huh? police catch for wad? "
She ansed " U only 14 . dun needa go sch "
-.- < )
latta met shanlong for dinner
HE D4M CHEATER. HE WORK 3 HRS BUT HE TELL BOSS WORK 8 HRS!
lol! get 40 bucks . good for him. =)
and mah babe visited the doc today to heal her constantly-bleeding nose.
and she faked me .
she told me tt the doctor suggest her to go for an op becux she had a growth in her nose.
and i dumbly bought her tale.
I CARE AND SHE LIED =(
but nvm.
i proved tt i care. =)
hEH!
Well tmr gotta work again.
1130 am to 930 pm .
so its 45 bucks basic tmr ( deduct 1 hr lunch break)
=) im lurving the cash. but nt the dumb toy!
So till nxt time
Screwed!

MAH BOO!

2005-02-02T21:34:00.000+08:00

yox peeps. =).
today woke up at 8 am.
heh.
gotta accompany mah babe to harbour front
she is working at the sovenior shop near the cablecar center.
well, had breakfast together.
uhh
nt exactly together =). i had mac . she had nth.
she had breakfast at hm =(.
the train ride was long and tiring.
so,
i crapped =)
u noe the song " london bridge is falling down?"
alrite, incase for those who dun have a childhood.
i , big screwed brother MH shall sing for u.

London bridge is falling down falling down falling down
London bridge is falling down
My fair lady

Heh =).
its such a SAD song.
but dumb kids made it into a game.
OMG. sadist b4stards.
so , i modified the song according to the recent disaster.
here is it :

Tsunami wash the blacks away the blacks away the blacks away
Tsunami wash the blacks away
Oh dead blackie =)

heh . RACIST?
YEAH! . lol.
Mah babe said tt tamils dun wash their hands after they poopoo.
OMG!
the oni reason why i accepted tamils are cux of their delicious roti prata.
-.- < )
And guess wad peeps.
After 2 yrs 2wks 1 day + 6 mths of courtship.
MAH BABE AND I FINALLY HAD DINNER TOGETHER =).
we had fishnchips =) OLE.
lol!
Btw, tmr Sl and i will be working for blackie uncle Siva.
he will be at PS and i will be at Centerpt.
reason being cux i have smart wear .
d4m -.- < )
i hate smart wears.
but at least i dun have to wear their dumb company tees.
*PuKeS*
WELL, I WILL BE PROMOTING TOYS! ANYBODY WIF YOUNGER SIBILINGS PLS BRING THEM OVER TO CENTERPT OR PS AND BUY OUR DUMB TOYS .
Shz.
i noe u are reading =) . Heh.
Well.
gotta wake up early tmr.
So till nw.
Screwed!
bTw, rmb to watch amazing race latta =)

Uncle Siva

2005-01-31T20:44:00.000+08:00

Dink DOnk !
Hi peeps. today's ntry will be kinda short.
nth much happened latly.
well , sl and i seem to be gettin da job.
Yes, the one we had been tokkin abt all these while.
i just found out tt the boss is a tamil.
omg. fancy workin for a tamil. -.- .
Tt blackie is d4m screwed.
lurve to screw ppl upside down.
well,
met mah babe early in da morning
supposed to meet her at 830 am.
but, she woke up at 830 am -.- < ).
heh.
well, accompanied her to da bank.
after tt went to ya kun for breakfast =).
heh. den meet SL . we were heading to bedok to fill in some dumb form.
and mah babe. she is so cute.
she dressed so well. spag stripes + skirt + shoe just to go to the bank.
Lol =).
well maybe ttx why we didnt have to wait for long
b4 its our turn. heh =).
well, Sl and i went to bedok to fill up the dumb forms.
When we were heading to the industrial park.
Sl and i were so afraid tt the blackie mite screw us.
d4m
if tt blackie screw us ,
NO MERCY.
sl gonna spit at him with his acidic tongue and i gonna whack the hell outta his blackie skin
lol. we were attended by a lady .
i guess shes workin for tt blackie.
Rofl. our job = promote toys.
Lol!! we were surprised when she took out the "belle" figuring.
Lol. but *phew*
we were nt supposed to promote tt toy.
Heh. its da toy behind tt figuring
LolxXx!
we will oni be workin on wk ends =) .
heh. good =)
wk ends = mah babe's family day
wk days nt affected.
well the pay seem attractive.
5 bucks an hr + commision .
latta on, we went to play pool
yea jux SL and I
and omg! owned by him! TOTALLY.
lol. absolutly unlucky day.
Sl is picking up fast too btw.
and guess woot.
MuahaHAh!
$4.50 per hr! OMG SO CHEAP.
Lol. nxt time go there play.
but go all da way to bedok. abit dumb.
Lol.
well, i changed my skin.
Mah babe changed my colour scheme.
I added the contents.
and huiting helped me by seperating my blog
so tt the pic on da left wun get scrolled awy.
* SHANLONG DUN LAUF !*
Lol. hope u all lik tis new skin.
as for nw,
same lik all other entries.
Screwed!

Iron Chef

2005-01-29T19:34:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps.
First i wuld lik to apologize for the late update. heh =).
Sorry peeps.
Well . tis is gonna be a long entry.
everything stated here took place yesterday.
well, yesterday louis sl kc jowin and i went out.
We were crappin in the train as usual.
But tis time, we were tokkin abt EDMW
Lol!
and we were kinda addicted to the phrase "dunch beos"
which also mean "dun see"
Seriously u guys shld realli visit the forum. its at hardwarezone.com =)
Im very entertained by the lame ppl there.
they nvr run outta topics =)
yeap, we went to orchard . wanted to watch elektra but jowin wasnt in the movie mood.
So well wif sl and i ard. the first ting tt wil come to our minds .
POOL. well.
we were playing and playing and suddenly a group of 3mth jc students came in.
we didnt quite notice em until i saw one gurl.
OMG.
she looks so much lik mah babe from da back and side view.
i was lik " !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" when i saw her.
i told sl abt her. he oso said tt she looks lik mah babe.
OMG OMG! she looks lik mah babe when shes in sec 2.
put on specs. fringe slightly below brows. Omg OMg!!
And since den , i was on form. 4 wins streak =).
after ard an hr. she left.
and my luck went down.
won another 2 more games. den start to lose.
OMG!
well, stayed there 3 hrs.
den we went bugis. jowin wanted to get his newyr goodies.
and louis left early.
so kc sl and i were at bugis mrt station takin lame pictures.
we saw drains but no camel toes. LmAO!.
but still, we took lame pics for em to post at EDMW =).
Heh. jowin took half an hr -_-" .
and after tt. we went to eat steam boat.
LOL!! nice. we took alot of food.
but the mussels are nt very fresh and their crab suk. so end up , we threw em all into the bin located nxt to us.
LOL!!!
jowin was our chef. lol he is very expierenced.
kc is addicted to the beancurd.
so addicted tt when the tray of beancurd was emtpy, kc actually took the initiative to ask them to top it up ! =X
Lolx . when kc asked the auntie tt he wans beancurd .
the auntie said " there are 3 types of tofu, the one wif crispy skin and the soup beancurd"
she didnt say the 3rd one. =X god noes wads she tryin to tell kc.
we had live prawns. Lol. SL and KC came out wif methods to torture them.
Heh =).
we stayed there for ard 3 hours. we tokked bat our sec 4 times.
when SL and I did smting evil =X.
so we decided to play bowling ! Lol!! wierd yea.
went we got there , sl and kc began to shiver. lol .
the temperature change was too drastic.
but tt didnt affect them too much .
and soon we began to bowl.
AND GUESS WAD!!
LESS DEN 10 MINS A FAMILY OF TAMILS CAME.
THEY BOOKED THE LANE NXT TO US.
kc and i were lik " ...."
sl and jowin knew tt we felt " ... "
and the worst ting was. their 1-2 yr old kid kept HUGGING da bowling ball we are using.
d4m. stupid blackies dunno hw to take care of their kids.
i nearly carry the baby and put his head into the ball dispenser.
LIKE THE BALL SO MUCH RITE?! PUT UR HEAD INSIDE EAT THOSE BALLS!.
kc cheered when da baby fell down
Sl was tempted to R.K.O .
jowin. didnt care much. Lol maybe he can toss da baby into the lane.
But seriously we were pissed.
the smell + the baby.
Omg.
Lik andy says " i hate tamil too. but i wun ban them from comin to singapore becux smbody wuld have to clean the toilets for us "
ALRITE!
for tt.
I TOLERATE THEM!
i wan clean public toilets!
*Sigh* been a long time since i last met mah babe.
and d4m. monday i have to do 200 situps to compansate .
well . till nw. to all the tamils out there.
SCREWED!

SiaN

2005-01-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

hi peeps.
mah babe is pissed wif me again.
WHY?
cux tis afternoon while tokkin on da fone
she complained tt i was speakin too softly.
so i thot my fone was faulty
so i pressed sm keys.
and she got pissed. *Sigh* my fault for nt being rich
and get a 1337 fone.
tis reminds me of yesterday. same thing happened.
mah babe called my hp.
hp pranked me.
once again, sorry for nt being rich .
punk'd
*SiGh* . i realli hate it when i wanna see her and i carn.
she always say tt im nt ard when she needs me.
man. feel lik a lousy boifren nw -.- < )
"COMPROMISE COMPROMISE"
ya compromise. but stuff lik " whether we can spend time ? "
*sigh* . its our relationship shldnt we have a say =(.
tis relationship is so "MINE" and " HERS"
i wanna have a sense of ownership.
dun get me wrong im nt treating tis realtionship as a thing.
i just feel honored noeing tt its smting shared between mah babe and i
Her mom is so ****ed up. but i canot blame mah babe cux its nt her fault for poppin outta her mom's cunt!!
i jux wan life to be betta for da both of us.
i always tell her " jux choose wad u wan. jux be happie wif wad u wan. even if it means takin me outta da picture"
but come on. WILL I BEAR TO LET HER GO?
N-O NO!
she was the reason why i changed for da betta.
and i thank her and appreciate her for tt.
wif all this gratitude and lurve i hav for her.
wuld i wanna see her suffer?
There are many tings i wanna do to make our life betta.
but mah babe is afraid tt i mite screw tings up.
she didnt wanna risk it.
yes i noe . cux tis relationship indeed mean alot to us.
but. i wan life to be betta.
in the process of makin life betta, so many screwed stuff happened.
upteen times, mah babe and i kinda quarrelled .
WHY?
becux i wan life to be betta at a faster pace.
but she feels tt we got time and we shld wait.
*SigH*.
Lik wad andy da sage said " dun quarrel becux u two got different opinions. if problems carn be solved. den dun even quarrel. becux at the end of da day, u carn solve em "
but i feel tt tis is smting we can solve.
*sIGh*. was so pissed off suddenly.
mah babe didnt wanna tok to me.
chatted wif Sl on msn. didnt noe hw we tokked abt her mom.
*sIGh* . pissed me off even more.
i admit i have a slight ego. but all man do . man as in human.
i see everybody equal *prolly abit racist against tamils* .
and ttx why i dun giv a d4m whether she is mah babe's mom anot.
maybe becux i see tis world "black n white "
compassion oni sets in based on case to case basis.
Andy told me alot abt values and respects.
he told me alot abt hw life goes and stuff.
My sista's fren (sek) did the same too.
Shz once gave me a wake up alarm.
Sl is often tellin me abt facts of life but in a less serious manner.
I dun wanna jux say " I DUNNO TIS IS GOIN ON AND SO ITS NT MY FAULT"
alrite i might be seein tis world wif a narrow scope.
but i dare say tt i covered masses ppl had carelessly left out.
i have lost too many ppl in the process of learning.
and ttx why im very careful rite nw.
i dun wanna lose wadeva im having nw.
and ttx why i oni gamble on tings which im confident of winning.
Im 17. im to old to be throw tantrum lik a lil kid.
some say im too young to move on da pace i wan to.
Andy often say tt im immature nt by age but by tinkin.
Mah babe says tt its becux im brought out in an open society and ttx why i have da "less-asian" tinking.
lik i always say " i hate hw imperfect life can be "
i wish tt life can be perfect. well, close to perfect at least.
and in tis world.
realistic.
crudly phrased " no money no talk "
ppl always say " the inside is more impt den the outside "
mite nt be very true in current society.
ppl became hypocrites.

Boss : U suk big time fagg0t
Employee : Ya and i dun give a d4m cux i wan ur money.

See wad i mean? .
Andy will say " he is ur boss, u are oblige to stand up wif such critism "
Mah babe will say " he is ur boss. Wadeva he say jux accept becux he has the money "
i jux hate it hw ppl can be so arrogant.
jux becux they have money?
*Sigh*.
Life is so screwed.
To mah babe .
After reading tis entry. i hope u noe why i wan stuff to go certain way smtimes.
well.
Screwed!

Camel Toes

2005-01-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

*yAwn* . tired tired tired.
Last nite stayed up till 2++ wif sl and panda.
worked on some stuff. tired.
these two guys accompanied me the whole nite.
lol thx dudes .
well, today as usual. woke up early.
mah babe and i went to da gym
SHE WENT THERE TO SPOT CHECK ON ME!
lol. nah.
she went there to accompany me.
and give me motivation to get back my abs (?)
Lol. well, she watched me struggled thru 50 inclined sit-ups.
20 mins cycling and an unluckly 13 mins of runnin/walking.
took a bath .
and,
tell u guys smting. *YES STRICTLY GUYS*.
nxt time, when ur gurl asks u " hw long ya gonna take to bathe?"
say " 10 mins " . =) if u tell her " 15 " she will take it as " 25"
lol =) trust me on tt =).
went to eat lunch. met some smokers along da way.
pissed mah babe off. Lol =)
well well. she went off to go shoppin wif her fren again.
met her ard 4 hrs latta to accompany her hm.
lol we two xchanged our Atm cards.
reasoN : she wanted me to deposit money for her and she didnt wan her mom to find out .
Lol. and guess wad.
All the ATM mech were down. Omg!!
oh ya.
mah babe got to noe tt 7-11 in lil india needs staff.
lol. anybody wanna try out.
u jux need to tok lik one, smell lik one =).
Andy ya interesteD?
Lol. " Mah name is Vindadonadei Chrisrama from INDIA !!
I lik to eat roti prata and drink coconut juice. i worship the coconut
becux i lik to dance ard the tree and i can rub my sexay body
with coconut oil ! oh ! look at my chest hair!! So thick lik a shrub! "
Lol rite i noe im racist =).
for those non singaporean readers , roti prata is indian pancake. =).
Heh, prolly i shld try out .
tamil interviews shld be easy . Lol.
Qns : Wads ur fav colour
Ans : Black
Qns : Wads ur fav hair shampoo
Ans : Coconut Oil
Qns : Why must we preserve the environment
Ans : So tt we can dance ard the coconut tree
Qns : Why are tamil songs so long-winded
Ans : Becux the mtv has to last from the carpark to the garden to the coconut tree .
Qns : Wad is the name of the owner of the provision shop downstairs
Ans : Muthu Sami

Alrite welcome to Tamil Inc . We specialise in sk3 blackening product. may the tamils dominate.
K im evil nw.
im in an evil mood.
MuaHAHa.
Screwed!

Red Marker

2005-01-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

hi fagg0ts and chickies.
wad a tired day today.
Supposed to wake up early to type an email.
Alarm rang but i was too tired to wake up.
End up woke up at 10+.
Suppose to meet mah babe at 1145 .
She has to bring her dad's fren's lady who is from sweden ard Singapore.
Well, mah babe obviously didnt noe da way to her hotel.
So, i have to bring her there.
wanted to lead her to da hotel .
but she insisted nt to becux she is afraid tt her parents might spot check on her.
-.- < ) parents >SPOT CHECK< on her?!
omg. Lol. nvm, better keep da comments to myself
well, mah babe brought her to lil india. luckily nobody fainted =X
while mah babe was working as a part time tour guide.
i went to da gym.
YES I WENT TO DA GYM
mah babe had been complainin tt i lost my abs and shes losin interest ( ? )
Lol. anyway its for my good.
worked out for an hour or so. d4m tired.
tmr has to visit the gym again. omg -.-
jux read mah babe's blog
once again, smbody is saying tt she acts cute or stuff lik tt.
Lol -.- < ) well , same story
smbody didnt leave his/her name behind
smbody insults her w/o any grounds.
her gurl swat team comes in.
insult him/her back as though they have stolen their mothers' eggs.
and tt him/her was nvr to be heard again.
Lol =).
tis isnt the first time.
Read her tag board
Lol , dramatic .
"Asshole" "faggot" "fuck" everywhere =)
And theres smting which i spotted.
told mah babe.
she silently agreed wif me.
but she kept her lips zipped up.
hehe. its between us =)
met lyn today .
she went home early cux shes suffering from gastric.
lol rmb-ed tt i still owe her da hist txt bk which i borrowed last yr to study for my o lvls.
heh, its time to return her.
alrite, till nxt time.
Screwed!

t("t)

2005-01-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

Heyhey peeps.
Hws life latly? Lol. rite im lame =)
well, today went out wif mah babe.
went to cause way pt.
YEA I NOE BORING PLACE. but . its no longer bored wif mah babe ard =).
Had lunch. didnt realli have the appetite.
so jux ate a lil .
latta went to get my clothes.
well, mah babe is my fashion consultant.
so she chose every piece. the colour the design . everything.
Well, summary of my clothes

From Peebrain and kevin :
Tattered collard tee shirt - 18 bucks
White tee wif blue collar - 13 bucks
Faded Jeans - 49 bucks

From U2
Blue Smart Shirt - 33 bucks
White Smart Shirt - 33 bucks
*due to discounts , both are on sales for 59 bucks

From converse boutique
Converse Sneakers - 55 bucks

yeAp, so if u guys are lookin for clothes and dunno wad to get,
well u can try those
total is ard 180 bucks . nt very exp becux u dun wear clothes for jux ONCE!
well, even if i get into a poly.
these clothes will become my uniform =).
Lol .
My mom is willin to sponsor . so heyhey =) .
Well, mah babe kinda lik tis ring.
they provide engraving services as well.
so yea. gettin it for her =).
So to mah babe, pls tell me when ya free again.
We go visit tt place to get yr ring ready.
Oh ya tokkin abt new yr.
maybe i have to go back to malaysia to visit my relatives
malaysia = no com no hp no frenx no babe .
*siGh*
and sl says tt the exhibition might need us during tt period of time.
*SigH*
guess sl and i got more to discuss den.
Well, as for nw
Screwed!

GeekSsS -.-

2005-01-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

Yox peeps.
Today is a tiring day. -.-
Woke up at ard 9 cux zhiwei ask me to play soccer wif him.
And i was lik OMG!
i havent been playing since a long time ago.
And i dun play soccer at all.
Oni during my pri sch days =).
Lol. so yea. reached his place at 930.
And played a few matches.
LOL! and i gt beginner's luck.
lolx ~ street soccer is fun yet tiring .
Heh.
Well, mah babe jux rebonded her hair today.
She was facing a dilemma earlier on on whether to rebond.
Lol.
Well, if her mama is willin to sponsor for her treatments .
GO AHEAD.
but everybody noes her mum
*betta nt reveal too much *
uH hRm.
she stayed at the salon for 5 hrs.
her arse rotted.
tt was wad she told me.
so i suppose maggots shld be invading her arse rite nw.
babe. i tell u a way to chase the maggots awy.
reveal ur butt and run ard my hse 10 rds =).
tt shld do da job =X
btw she got the swatch watch she had always wanted.
*Congrats!!*
Hmm , thot of learning golf.
but my dad said its an expensive sport.
ard 100+ bucks wuld be spent everytime i play.
and b4 tt i need coaching.
and tt wuld cost minimum 60 bucks an hr.
and tt excludes the golf clubs , membership, kits, balls etc .
*sigh*. wad to do?
im from a poor family.
currently being haunted by the curse named "poverty"
prolly if i were to master golf fairly well,
i can spend more time wif mah babe =)
cux she lurves golf.
and as for me,
im jux trying to make myself intersted
who noes, it mite work =)
but as for nw.
NO, MH IS TOO POOR FOR SUCH A SPORT.
*sigh* d4m
Well,
Lookin forward to see mah babe.
Heh. meetin her on monday.
GOIN SHOPPIN TOGETHER.
my mom gonna sponsor part of it.
Heh =). new clothes new clothes :).
*Sigh* money pls drop from da sky!!!
d4m wanna rob da bank nw.
anybody noe of any bank
where the security guard fat fat old old dunno hw to press da alarm button ?
den inside got gold bars and singapore dollars?
*sigh*
the oni bank w/o security prolly is the sperm bank -.-
oh ya tokkin abt money
i jux rmb tt i owe shz an ice cream treat
and shz owes me a treat for dunno wad reason.
d4m. MONEY PLS DROP FROM DA SKY.
*sigh* prolly gotta wait till o lvl results
if i gt 15 pts and below for 1r5, mama giving me 2.5k cash.
yea , but first
15 pts. possible for me?
d4m screwed!

Hello

2005-01-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

Heylow peeple.
t0day was quite an alrite day.
Early in the morning went to make my NETS .
Reached da bank and took my waiting number.
got 14. Hmm. and when i saw the screen showing which number the counters serving nw
i was quite satisfied cux its already serving customer number 9.
=)
Well, lucky customer number 9 is 2 indians.
-.- and they were so d4m slow.
in my mind " Omg Noobs! "
Den after ard 30 mins, They finally left *hooray!*
Nxt , an auntie budge in and starting bombarding the teller wif qns.
i was lik " d4m u mofo hag! "
nearly took out my slippers and directed it towards her head.
But, ima kind boi =) Lol.
latta met sl kc fat long lucy jowin and yong wee .
we were goin to NYP open hse.
and FAT LONG WAS LATE.
lol, actually we intended to leave w/o him.
But he came jux in time.
D4m!
Lol, i dare to type tis here cux fatlong is using 56k.
He wun bother to read my blog =) Heh.
Kc and panda wore their sista's nyp tees.
And panda got flamed alot.
MuaHAHah, my evil idea again =X
And u noe wad?!
Mah babe came to da openhse too.
But she was wif her frenx and we didnt hav da chance to meet
*SIgH*.
Well, digital design kinda attracted my attention.
Got to learnt tt during first yr, they will be doin mostly drawings .
The choice of doin animation or game designing oni comes during yr 2.
Well, looks cool to me =).
Heh =) Kc jowin sl and me are aimin for tt course.
panda is aimin for chemical science .
He is making immortality potion for us =) MuAHha!
Imagine having mh foreva
CHAOS!!
Well, panda has a good future ahead.
he can sell tt potion at a high price
since everybody who purchase them got a whole lifetime to earn enuf to pay him back.
=).
Latta met SL's cousins.
And we went to play pool.
Lol! kc was so screwed.
Prolly cux he once again used his IC to register .
Lol, i was alil screwed too.
Sl was on form today.
Jowin kept helping his opponent get their balls in =).
Haha.
Panda's luck ran out.
Lucy was a lil fluke.
Yongwee performed betta den usual.
Fat Long ate his chicken drumlets while watching us play *as usual*
Den after pool, we went to S-11 for dinner.
AND I GOT SCAMMED BY THE DRINK AUNTIE.
Yeap, the "mobile" auntie.
i got a can of coke from her which cost $1.20
I paid her 10 bucks and she returned me 80 cents.
i thot she ran outta notes so i didnt say anyting.
i waited for her to return me my change.
after quite awhile, she didnt come back.
So i went back to the drink stall and told em wad happened.
Well, they advised me to look for her and so i did =).
I politly told the auntie
" auntie , jux nw i got a can of coke from u and u oni gave me 80 cents change "
da auntie stared back and ask " u gave me hw much? "
i replied " 10 bucks "
she looked at me wif a frown and ask " u sure? "
i replied patiently " yea "
and once again asked " u sure? "
and i replied patiently agian " yea "
AND FOR THE THIRD TIME SHE ASKED ME
" u sure?"
D4M! i got so fed up and i asked back " AUNTIE I LIE TO U WILL I EARN ANY MONEY?"
she sacarstically replied " Yes."
so i showed her attitude and say " Auntie i jux lied, so pls deposit money into my bank acc "
D4m. tell her so many times yet she dun believe me.
Even after i showed her attitude she still ask " u sure?"
D4m. i was realli fed up by den .
So i shouted " Auntie i lied ! wheres my money to deposit to da bank?!"
-.- < )
d4m.
shldnt have said tt.
i shld have said " AUNTIE I LIED! I DIDNT PAY U 10 BUCKS ! I PAID U 50 BUCKS "
=X!
but hey, didnt had time to tink tt quickly den.
Well, today quite a few screwed tings happened.
First tt two indians at the bank.
Den didnt manage to see mah babe =(
Den a lil screwed while playing pool.
Den tt auntie who tried to scam me *D4m! she thot i no0b!*
Well, it will be betta tmr =)
So as for nw
Screwed!

=)

2005-01-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps.
Today is the 19th
2nd yr anniversary of mah babe and i =)
mUAhah.
well woke up early today =).
Promise to cook lunch for mah babe =)
So , meet her 1030 at the bus interchange
and den we head to my hse.
so i woke up at very early cux i have to go cold storage.
Well went to cold storage got my ingredients .
Heyhey.
and den went off to get flowers.
The florist which i intended to patronize wasnt open yet.
So i gotta go all the way to the market at another end to get her flowers.
Heh =).
Mah babe knew NOTHING abt it =).
and woops .
TIME IS RUNNING SHORT.
So when she called and hurry me, i faked tt i lost my ezlink card
and had to walk to cold storage .
and in the process i sprained my ankle and tt i wuld be late.
MuahAHah. SHE BOUGHT THE TALE!
hehe.
actual fact, im actually buying time so tt i can get her roses.
Hehe. =) but she gullibly bought the story. =)
YEap , got her 11 stalks of white roses.
In tv dramas , they always get 12 stalks.
Why i get 11? u will noe latta =)
well, she waited for ard half and hr .
Lolx and she was surprised tt i actually got her flowers and already had all my ingredients =)
Heh =) . cool yea?
she even called me an asshole for lying to her.
BUT I NOE SHE DIDNT MEAN IT =).
well.
why 11 roses?
so tt i can use the line " well, u forgotten to count urself in " =)
hEHe.
went to mah place and yeap . started cookin.
Dish i prepared : Salmon Steak =).
Heh. its my first time cookin smting other den scramble eggs and instant noodle.
So. kinda messy.
Lol =).
Lotsa blunders here and there . Heh.
and after ard 1.5 hrs of preparation ,
its time to cook ! MuahAHa.
Lolx. my salmon steak got kinda burnt (KINDA ONLY)
lOlx. but mah babe said they tasted great =).
Lol. omg ima no0b.
Latta on, we went to parco bugis junction .
she said she wanted to watch the babies play at the fountain.
lol .
End up.
NO BABIES. =(
So we ended up jux loitering ard.
And we took neoprint. Lolx. as usual, i made dumb expressions.
Den we saw a bunch of guys taking neoprints together.
Lol, first impression " gh3y"
And latta on we went to the mobile cart stalls.
She saw a black and white starry bracelet.
She kinda liks it .
Ur Hrm. so as a good boifren , I bought it for her =X.
LolxXx!
Well, had some food at mos which is located at Edge.
heh. and guess wad.
When we were heading home, my aunt saw us.
She was waving to us and i didnt notice her.
LOL! woops ~ *caught red handed*
well, who cares? my family is cool abt such stuff =).
Heh. =)
Well, today is a swt day .
And to mah babe , happy 2nd yr anniversary .
Although today is great, i gotta end off wif da same word .
Screwed! < Uhh ~ nt quite . Jux a signature =)

Punk'd

2005-01-18T16:08:00.000+08:00

Hey people.
Mh is punk'd by his own frens.
Lol! Omg everybody knew abt it except me.
Punk'd. D4m . u guys are great at it.
Lol !!
no way we are splitting up yea? Lolx!!
20th goin to nyp open hse.
Oh yay. Prolly pool again.
Uhh. yea i tink its pool again .
LOL.
Pls panda no more fluke shots from u.
but seriously i was amazed by the way u end of ur games.
I noe they are fluke.
YEA BUT AMAZING =).
Oh yay. Nth much happened today.
Lolx. im in a good mood.
Punk'd But still.
Lolx. actually i kinda expected it.
But thot tt i was jux being naive.
Omg. Lolx =)
Btw. Great day peeps.
But still i gonna end off wif my word.
Screwed!

I lurve bathing

2005-01-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

Hey kiddos.
Guess wad, im back .
I didnt blog yesterday cux i didnt have the mood to.
Sorry readers.
But sm screwed stuff jux happened .
My frenx.
Omg . we are kinda splitting up.
*SIgH*. it just hit me so suddenly.
i wasnt prepared at all. i dunno wtf happened.
d4m. can smbody tell me tis is jux a prank or smting?
on top of tt.
Mah babe goin for a camp during march.
Sm teens camp .
5 DAYS 4 NITES W/O MAH BABE.
oMg. its killin me .
*sigh*. i just hate it this way.
Her parents ban her from spending overnite outside .
Budden when it comes to such camps.
They ENCOURAGE her.
*SIGh*. Hw i wish mah babe can camp over at my place.
We can do some chatting over here.
U noe~ the "couple " way.
Where both of us lie on da bed cuddling and tokking.
Starring at the ceiling tokkin abt the future .
Yea its unrealistic. BUT! hey its swt .
AND I LIK IT =).
*SIgh*.
Well. t0day mah babe came to my place.
Earlier on we met andy .
Lol. Same old crappy sage.
Well. mah babe came over.
Watched tv. And we did some LEGAL stuff .
And sm other more intimate stuff
*Censored* . =).
Will nt go into details kiddies. Its OUR life =).
Accompanied mah babe to causeway pt after tt.
Cux she wanna meet her frenx for lunch or smting liddat.
And she fell.
Scraped her knees.
d4m. Ttx painful.
*SigH*.
Mah Babe. I gt smting to tell u.
Hold my hand everything we go out nxt time
and tings will be fine =)
*SIgH* . Smtings on my mind rite nw.
d4m. And its troubling me.
*SigH* . life hasnt been good latly.
As for nw.
Screwed!

Hmm wad a day

2005-01-15T15:08:00.000+08:00

Oh hi nuts :).
its a boring saturday for me.
My com is rejecting MS lik hw a cancer patient rejects his new organs.
D4m. jux can't get it working.
So.
I DELETED IT.
MS IS OUTTA MY COM FROM NW TILL 4EVA!
Awaiting new games. SL KC
help me :'(
Hmm. Mah babe went for the test set by british council
She wants to go major in english.
She took da test and scored 90%
Heyhey =).
But!
British council rejected her cux her education qualification isnt good enough.
For her score, the only course avaliable is JC GP.
and tt requires her o lvl results
*sigh* . sad for her.
BUT HEY PPL.
Lets analysis.
For those who were worrying over their english grades .
FEAR NOT!
Alrite. Look here.
Mah babe usually score 50 to 55 in our sch's paper.
50-55 = Majority of us.
And Mah babe is a very careful person.
NO SUCH THINGS AS CARELESS MISTAKES.
so if she is getting 50 to 55.
That means she is a "50 to 55 " kinda english student .
So if you got the time to flip through ur past yr papers.
And you add back those careless mistakes *BE HONEST* .
Hey =). you will either be at her standards or +/- a lil =)
And with mah babe's standard she can qualify for JC GP in British council.
HEYHEY!.
Tt means MAJORITY of us shldnt have a prob :)
So lets says he got a B3 for english in her o lvls grade
Most of us will fall under there =).
And to mah babe. Hey relax =)
the oni reason why didnt u qualify is becux u dont have the d4m o lvls cert.
And nt becux u are nt good enough .
So hey. u passed da test :)
Alrite. Continue my search for games.
And. Pls remind me to borrow ATM card from mah mama.
I wanna buy clothes! =)
And converse sneakers
Alrite. till nxt time.
Screwed!

-.- < ) CAN'T SEE!

2005-01-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

hey 1337s and no0bs.
Welcome back to another screwed entry.
Shz called last nite .
She read my blog and she wanted to clarify
and asked if we fought.
SHZ.
YES WE DID.
We are not crazy. we were jux outta control =).
Today reformatted my d4m com.
Luckily KC assisted me. if nt i will be looking
at the screen lik a no0b. TY KC!
Nw installing MS.
d4m. keep having errors.
Canvas.dll. t("t)
D4m frustrated. Punched my cpu.
*WOOPS*
Front cover drops out.
*bLaH!* Wadeva.
smtimes i really hate how imperfect my d4m life can be.
d4m bored. Wanna play p0ol again.
YES WITH PANDA OF CUX.
tis time kc and i wun get beaten by him.
lvl 2 mob! Grrr x(
btw sl gave me the link to hardware zone.
Lol. interesting. Some quite dumb though.
Oh ya. btw.
yesterday we saw steven lim
YES TT GH3Y STRIPPER.
Lol.
panda saw and say wanna take his fotto.
END UP!
BULL SHIT. panda look at him and smile .
didnt even take one d4m fotto.
-.- < ) . Anyway.
take steven lim's fotto for wad?!
Go to his webbie. Lol.
U wan wad type of fottos oso have
Got clothes no clothes got yellow undies .
EVERYTHING!
Wonder if anybody dare to do his Singapore idol audition infront of him.
" TOP FLASHING TOP FLASHING TOP FLASHING! "
Lol. maybe edmund tt horny sonnawabich might wanna try.
Uhh. nope.
He will oni do it if i attempt first.
Omg. Its hard having a wannabe by my side.
Rite kc? :)
Btw sl came out with tis crazy idea of having pool table at home.
Lol. rich lad. He is addicted.
well, i support tt idea . =)
After that, we can have free pool =).
Hmm. Gonna buy some clothes for chinese new yr .
Chinese new yr is jux an excuse =)
Well. Back to my com.
GRR! d4mm piece of junk
Screwed!

No point putting titles

2005-01-13T20:27:00.000+08:00

Alrite peeps. Tis is gonna be a d4m long entry.
Went out with Sl jowin kc and panda today.
Meet at 11 am at yishun mrt. And oh yeah
Im nt late =). For the VERY FIRST TIME.
Im nt late =).
First we went to plaza singapura and
had lunch at pizza hut.
Why go all da way therE?
CUX BEN WORKS THERE.
MuahAHAhA. And we screwed him !
MuaHAHAh!. lets hope he dont get fired!
Nxt we went to pool.
MuaHAHa.
Kc and i signed in .
AND GUESS WAD!!
The time we checked in was 1337
OMG!! 1337 KC AND 1337 MH .
we thot we wuld win =) .
BUT!!
GRR!! all got owned by panda.
D4mm he is lucky.
Kc gotta agree with me.
I lost to panda 5 rounds.
OMG!!
its lik a lvl 30 character losing to a lvl 2 mob
Out of the 5 rounds, 3 of em were lost by default.
I got the black ball in at the wrong pt of time =(
The other 2. CURSED.
oMg.! But i won him in the last match =)
Then, we went outta da pool center to get soft drinks.
Theres a mini coffee shop JUST outside the pool center.
then, latta we heard jowin saying " U KICK ME FOR WAD?!"
Lol! At first sl and i thot it was panda and kc playing with jowin
Budden we found out smting else
LOL!
One dimwit table whiper kicked jowin for no reason.
Alrite, lets call tt dimwit LMAOFACE!
so jowin pushed lmaoface and asked " Y U KICKED ME WITH NO FAWKING REASON"
kc and panda went to check out the situation.
Sl and i sat at one corner watch free show.
Lol. Latta, one guy . supposedly the boss's son asked jowin to cool down.
JOWIN PUSHED HIM TOO ! OMG!
Den latta the ppl at the coffee shop confront jowin.
OH d4m nice =).
Den one of em pushed jowin " WHy u bully my fren?! "
Den whack.
BANG BANG BANG!
d4mm nice.
Kc and panda joined in the fun.
Lol! me and sl see both of us " wtf?! "
So end up .
MINI gang fite.
Me sl kc jowin panda Vs Coffee shop ppl.
Lol.
i fite with the chef.
D4m i actually dont wanna pick on him.
BUT
D4m him. use the ladle whack me first.
FOR NO REASON. I DIDNT DO A D4M TING DEN HE WHACK ME
in my mind i thot " You are dead f4gg0t"
I snatch it from him and whack until his ears bleed
D4m fun!
Den shan long . Lol. dont see him quiet quiet.
He whack ppl d4mm pro.
Watch wwe too much. lol.
His watch is his weapon. Sl guard himself den tt guy punched his watch.
Painful~
Kc oso pro. smash ppl face on the table. LOL!!
Many times k!
PULL THE HAIR BANG BANG BANG!!
FUN!
Tt person face was stained with chilli paste
Lucky he got glasses. IF NOT HE BLIND KC OH GOOD GAME!
Panda got learn martial arts. so he got no prob defending and offending.
But panda did smting dumb. He jumped and kicked tt person's tummy
HE WAS ACTUALLY AIMING FOR HIS CHEST
but, the "non-kicking leg" got caught in between the chair and the table.
nearly fell down. OMG n0ob!!
Lol. Jowin 1 VS 2.
jowin d4m pro.
He smack one kick one smack one kick one.
LOL!
D4m. jowin is mad .
those who noes jowin will noe tt jowin is a monster when he is angry.
OMG! HULK!
Lmaoface got the most bashing . Lol .
AND HE CRIED
LOL! JOWIN FIST SO BIG ! IF I FITE WIF JOWIN I OSO CRY!
D4m fun d4m noisy.
Den latta got security guards come stop the fite.
Abt 12 come over.
LOL!! SWAT TEAM!
*sIGh* fun is over.
All of us got our identification copied down.
Omg. almost 10 mins of fun .
Latta when we were brought out of lucky plaza. i turned back and look at the coffee shop
LOL! all the tables and chairs everywhere.
LOl!! FUN!
Jowin fierce k. Before we left jowin turned back and shout
" Stare wad stare!? "
Lol!!
I got bruise on my back cux tt gh3y whack my back with the ladle. Kc got bruised on his arms becux he got whacked by guy a few times. Sl got a cut on his wrist becux his watch cut him " w0ot!" Panda escaped with just a scratch on his face =) Jowin pro. No injuries. WHACK EVERYBODY !
All these whacking made us hungry. So we ate KFC.
Yummy =).
After eating, time to head home. Everybody shagged.
Lol. so we decided to take the train towards marina bay.
at least we get to seat from there .
LOL!
today is fun! but too bad ,
the fite was too short.
Screwed!

Talk To Mah Hand

2005-01-12T18:57:00.000+08:00

Dudes And babes.
im feeling bored. so im rite here.
updating my blog.
And yeap. 2nd entry of the day.
And yeap. Just woke up *yAWns*
Sl msged me on msn earlier on. WOops.
i was slping then.
SORRY SHAN LONG! . Lol
im sincere yea =).
My ear didnt hurt tt much nw =)
Just nw nearly cut my cheeks while shaving.
Yea. im still a no0b! .
Tmr goin out again.
YAY! pool r0x.
Lolx. tmr play punch alrite?
Nw that i said this,
everybody WANS to play with panda a.k.a Zen.
Lolx. Well. Panda. make sure u bring MORe money tmr.
MuahAHa.
we just bring enough for lunch will do =).
Panda just tagged and say tt he dont give a d4m abt bdays.
i was lik " ya rite "
Budden, if he choose to see tings tis way
LET IT BE =).
bdays wif frens ard r0x
Ask shanlong hw he spent his bday last yr =).
MuaHahAha =).
Maybe panda wans to spend his bday alone
with his special someone else.
Cheryl? thats her name yea?
Guess panda got over xinxin .
Mrs Samantha ONG!
im still r0tting at home. d4m.
Smtimes i feel that holiday is kinda boring.
*sIgH*. missing sch.
Sec 4 life in 4e5 is fun.
Esp after we changed our classroom.
i get to sit closer to sl kc and the rest of my amigos.
Yes, i often get em into trouble.
BUT.
Its fun =).
I rmb teachers will be starring in our direction
And say
"that grp over there "
Den shan long will say " Mh u betta sit further dun bring trouble to me "
And den doro will say " Ya . its always u "
Den i will say some profanities.
Kc will be hiding in his corner drawing cartoons.
smtimes listening to his mp3.
Louis will be banging his table struggling with his trading profit and loss and balance sheet.
Trying to draw straight lines with his blunt pencils.
sometimes fat long will join us behind.
den he will tok to us abt the memorable times he had.
Not with janice .
But the time he nearly landed his fist on edmund.
*Sigh*.
i wonder how is edmund nw.
i mean.
Hey. he is a mh wannabe.
its natural for me to show some care and concern =)
imagine nxt yr if sl kc fatlong lucy jowin panda and i end up in the same class.
W00t!!
but first, we must have the same l1r5 and l1b4 =) .
fatlong lucy kc and sl have been in the same class as me for 4 yrs.
except for sl, i have nvr felt their presence until sec 3.
ttx why, outta all of them. im closest to sl.
Sl has evolved from a quiet boi
To a lamer thru these years.
And he is a great fella.
Silent observer .
*SiGh* . last time panda was closer to us.
But donno wad happened midway.
He joined "Hehe-Haha"
2004 was a bad year for PANDA.
First was the amazing race which happened smwhere ard april.
And till novemeber, he is condemmed.
Then "Hehe-Haha"
omg . panda condemmed again. -.- < )

Screwed!

Can u see my title?

2005-01-12T10:33:00.000+08:00

Greetings Wierdos. =)
woke up at 1030 this morning
Phew. Just couldnt get to slp.
My left ear is HURTING me.
YES
Due to my new studs . K. let me xplain to you why did it hurt so much
When i just pierced my ear,
i got this Simple spherical stud with a relativly
THICK "pin" behind.
Next, i changed to a screw design stud with a relativly
THINNER " pin ".
And in the process of my OVERSIZED earhole
closing up to fit the screw design stud,
I bought a NEW stud. i shall call this
Double red cone design.
And the "pin" behind is as thick
Or if nt thicker than the sperical design's pin.
Thus, im actually openning up the hole again.
Lol. hope it isnt too confusing =).
Well, till nw nobody knows when is panda's bday
NVM!
HE CELEBRATE HIMSELF! lol! .
Was talking crap last nite on the fone wif
Mah babe.
She was kinda pissed off with her mom.
So
i gotta cheer her up =)
and in the process. i thot of a song.
Rmb the "indian boi" song we learn in nursery?
Heres Mh VERSIOn!

1 little 2 litte 3 little ah pu neh nehs
4 lilttle 5 little 6 little bangalis
7 little 8 little 9 little ke ling kias
10 lilttle blackie bois.

For our foreign readers who dont
understand wads " ah pu neh nehs" "bangalis" and
" keling kias"
well, they are different ways of calling indians =)
Well, let me predict the responds of my frenx
after reading tis dumb song.

Mah babe - She heard it b4. so no responds
Andy - He must be smiling =) . He is against the indians =X
Shz - Omg Mh. You are so bad!
Sl - ROFL LOL u Mfkr . /OR/ ...

Lol. =)
k gtg. gotta bath. and gotta ease the pain on my ear.
Screwed!

once again, a title nobody can see

2005-01-11T19:59:00.000+08:00

Heya gays and lesbians ,
Hunks and chicks.
bitches and b4stards =)
updated my blog kinda late today.
Muahaha. today is the 11th.
dunno izzit panda's birthday. Nobody
seems to rmb. Omg. Prolly huizhen knows.
Arh. nvm =)
Huizhen is enuff for panda =).
Rmb the old saying guys?
"Panda wans lurve dun wan frenx "
MuahaHa. im being evil again.
Today's lunch r0x. MOS BURGER.
yakiniku rice meal + corn soup.
Had lunch wif MAH BABE .
she hates mos. but she lurve the corn soup there.
So all she had was CORN SOUP + DIET COKE . =)
End up. she was too full to finish her diet coke.
So we played a game.
Here are the rules
Scissors paper stone.=). loser drink a gulp.
Lol. and guess wad. i used my pyshic powers and managed to crack her.
MuAHah.
but she did the same to me =(.
I got my new ear studs.
From power 9 . Cost 12.90 bucks .
Lol. broke again.
Mah babe is offically my image consultant.
She chose some polo tees and long sleeve shirts for me.
Hmm. not bad looking =)
She even bought me my shaving foam, shaver and facial cream.
Babe. tell ya smting.
Ur lad here isnt good looking .
So grooming wont help much. But i appreciate it.
D4m.. havent cut hair.
Gotta cut this thursday
d4mm
Im PENNILESS
Screwed!

Actually, i hate putting titles

2005-01-10T11:25:00.000+08:00

Heya peeps.
Its monday. MUahaHAhHA.
And noobs needa go to school.
LOL!! k im evil.
*sigh*. Time is passing soOoo fast.
Soon, i will have my O lvl results.
I had a dream 2 nights ago.
yea, abt my o lvl results.
The grades are nt ' WOW!!' but
they are good. Lol.
not VERY good
but manage to get me into a good course.
Btw. Shz just wrote a poem for her cousin.
LONG poem. Lol. meaningful.
She asked me to read it and asked for my comment.
So here u are shz.
Ur poem is swt. =)
Peeps. if u wanna read, go to my linkies.
Search under " Huizhen "
Mah babe is nw in the clinic with her sista .
Lol. let me guess
she must be suffering from lack of SLEEP.
latta come back either snore or grumpy²
Lol. =) . Yeap, ttx mah babe =).
*sIgH* . gotta cut my hair soon.
And gotta get new ear studs soon. Been wearing
tis for A WEEK. =)
Time to get new ones =)
k gotta scram.
Got stuff to carry out.
Screwed!

Hello People

2005-01-09T15:41:00.000+08:00

Heya peeps.
d4m bored. *sigh* . Gonna reformat my com soon
Soon . No mp3 No Game No Pics.
No Nth!
d4mm.
Oh ya, i need Jowin's help . Prolly Andy =). Or kc will be good .
And my hp getting kokky. gonna get a new fone soon.
X700 or E800 . d4m..
B4 getting da fone. WHERES THE VITAMIN M!!
last nite was good.
Mah babe and i crapped alot.
AND FINALLY!
i know how to sing the chinese version of twinkle twinkle lil star.
She taught me last nite. =) MuahaHa.
Sl jux msged me.
Saturday go play pool.
MauhaHAH.. Finally.!
One day of entertainment for oni less den 20 bucks.
Hey, im nt being a cheapo k.
Im lack of vitamin M.
*SIGH*.
you noe wad?
I have nvr been to Genting b4.
prolly nearly every singaporean been to Genting b4.
EXCEPT ME!
Wanna go Genting wif mah babe.
budden. Her parents!
They will NVR approve.
*SigH*. gotta wait den =(.
d4mm. im craving for FOOD.
Mos will be good =). Fish N Co will be better.
OH PLS. Money drop from da sky!.
Im laming today. d4mm. Sunday suk.
Oh ya.
Melina goin for a minor surgery tmr.
Good Luck to her =).
Melina . If u get to read tis.
I gotta say.
>RELAX! EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE =) <
yeAp =).
K gotta scram.
Screwed!

Maiden Melted

2005-01-08T11:22:00.000+08:00

Finally,
Ice maiden had melted.
Mah babe is back to her normal
sweet and bubbly self .
AND THATS GREAT.
at least shz and i dont have to worry so much
shz was so worried then.
she feels tt it was her fault .
Shz.
tell ya smting. =)
MAH BABE GRANTED US .
she understands the fact that
you have a fren by the name of Mh
and
I have a fren by the name of SHZ.
And hey.
relax gurl =).
Smile more. if nt u will chase away the guys. =)
We can talk lik norm. We can still confide in each other.
Well, Wonder why?
Lol. cux in the midst of mah babe's self reflection.
She found out that she confide in guys too.
Hey, fair deal yea =) .
Alrite shz, give u sm time to accept this gift .
I lurve mah babe.
Mah babe msged me at 7:44 am today.
Same problem. BleedingNose.
*SigH* . Wads goin on?
Didnt her grandmama made her enough Ginseng tea?
Gotta drag her to see da doctor soon.
YES BABE. I KNOW U HATE IT . BUT I GOTTA BE HARSH >:(
i will be there wif u k? =).
Rite, still got other sh1t stuff to solve.
So my life is still QUite screwed.
Because i have ran out of VITAMIN M.
MONEY!!
*sIgH* . i hate how IMPERFECT this life of mine is.
But hey, at least i have ppl ard me who i can crap ard with. =)
But still , The lack of Vitamin M.
Screwed!

Must There Always Be A Title

2005-01-07T10:41:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps~
Mr screwed is back.
Woke up too early today
Mah bAbe is still snoring in bed.
Her nose was bleeding at 7+. Wonder WTH happened.
Heaty?. Hope so. Her grandmama is good at making
those ginseng tea.
Kinda bored. Tis blog looks kinda empty.
Duh!
I created it 9 hrs ago. how much can i expect?
Wait.
Prolly is because i dont have much frenx tts why.
Im a very different individual.
Special?
Nah~ ttx too flattery for me.
But hey. I gt great frenx ard me.
Theres always Shz and Andy to bombard me with
their matured comments and opinions.
Sl and Kc are always there to crack lame jokes.
Jowin who always dare me to do dumb stuff.
Fat long and louis are always there to film "free shows"
Panda always be there when i need somebody to bully.
And *sigh*
I miss the vaderstrikes.
Well. and sommore.
Lazy to list em out. Not tt i have MANY more.
Im just feeling lazy thats all.
*Sigh* . Mah bAbe is still unhappie. Ice Maiden .
When will you melt?
Im just lousy at handling human relationships.
I screwed Serene and Samantha. Now Shz.
You know wad?
I need a cure.
Prolly a kiss from mah babe will solve everything. =)
Well . A Kiss from her when she is so pissed?
Dream on Mh .
DREAM ON .
Gotta start gaming soon.
Roseon gave me a very bad impression.
After installing Roseon. Com crash!
d4mm. i guess i will pass that game.
and OH SH1T.
2nd game i passed.
First was Linage2
Now Roseon.
BLAH!. Screwed!

Welcome To My Screwed World

2005-01-07T01:46:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps~
Welcome to my screwed world.
Hope ur life will still be fine
after visiting this screwed blog of mine.
Sadist? Kinda.
Carn be any much happier
when my gurlfren is unhappie .
Reason?
Misunderstanding .
Excuse?
Well, maybe i guess.
Guess ima mofo and thats it.
Well. its late.
Noobs needa go to sch.
Non noobs lik us gotta wake up
tmr to face this screwed reality.
well, maybe nt for u.
but for me, well, screwed .